yettamae’s BodyBlog

I woke up and weighed myself and I was 100 pounds! I was like holy shit! The whole day was such a blurr. I really don’t remember a dam thing that happened during the pre juding. We were rushed to go on and I didn’t get a chance to really pump up and get into my zone like I would have liked to. On top of it I was the first to go out and do my stage walk, which sucked. After the stage walk I didn’t know what to think. I just didn’t remember. I just remember looking at each judge in there eyes as I flowed into each pose, but that’s it. Really weird. At the intermission one of the head judges that was at the Scraton show asked me if I would bless the crowd with my voice singing the National Anthem again. I told him I would THINK about it. I was saying to myself oh no not again! Not that it was a bad thing, but being dehydrated and all, but I felt fine vocally as well as physically. My husband was like well you are the one who wants to market yourself as the fit opera singer,right? I thought about it **** it what the hell., but the problem was would I have enough time for the stage wallk being that I was second to go out. The judge, who was also mcing said he would make time. Well there wasn’t! I so I came on out and did my thing in my posing suit, high heels and all….all oiled up. It had to be a pretty crazy think to see from the audience’s presepective watching my abs inflate and deflate as I sang. I think I popped some peoples ear drums because I was really singing into the mike. lol The people were so shocked at how I could be so tiny and have such a big and strong voice, especially at 100 pounds. After singing, I had to immediately get back in line for the stage walk, where I was second to go on. I was so rushed I didn’t have time to relax and the timing as well as the footing was off for my stage walk. I did it with grace, flirted with the judges and walked off. I was so angry at myself that I ****ed up the walk that I had down. I was starting to question the walk I did in the morning. Then it was time for the awards. We were called out and then we did our quarter turns for the last time. I ended first place. I was shocked! Then I went on to win the Overall over the 1st place tall winner. I still couldn’t believe it! I was so down on myself thinking I sucked and blew it all and ended up on top. At the end of the night, the girl who placed 3rd has some choice words to say saying, "This is bullshit! She didn’t deserve to win!" I couldn’t believe it .I was kinda hurt, but not really. I was more shocked at the unsportsmanship. What a sore loser! I worked hard as did all of the competitors. We are all winners, even if we don’t place. This kind of discipline isn’t for the average joe, so we all should be commended for a job well done. My husband said looking at her physique she deserved to be 3rd, but whatever the case she should have room to talk every time we went out for the stage walk she kept on asking now how do the turns go, where do we go again? I am estatic and still in amazement of it all. Thank you to all my friends who attended with a special shout out to Jody from Scraton because of your girl I got of enough courage to compete last year. Thank you so much for your love, support, and being a geninue true friend. Thank you all my family and friends for your love and support it’s much appreciated and respected. Now for the rest of the offseason after my shoot with Jeff Binns which I am so siked about…I am just going to focus on my music and prepare for graduate school in the Fall as well as working on fine toning my physique to compete in NPC shows in Florida next year. The girls there are pretty stacked, so I am going to take off for a long offseason and get ready for the Central Florida District Figure June 2, 2008,and Tampa Bay Classic June 9, 2008 and/or Mid Florida Classic in June 16,2008. I will do at least two of them. Lesson learned do shows no more than 2 or 4 weeks away from each other now on! lol

The vaction was rough. I almost quit, seriously. When I was at home, I didn’t go out to bars or restaurants on vaction, so I could keep focus. I had no choice on vaction. It ****in sucked being the only person sober in a bar. On some occassions I just went to my room and slept, when everyone else was drinking. When everyone was eating pizza and wings I went to the other side of the room on eat my broccoli, salmon, and brown rice. I was deeply depressed. The kicker was the last day I snapped when a whole tray of barbaque wings was put in my face. My husband started laughing at me and I totally flipped out on him at the table. I had to apologize, but that was the last straw. I was tortured the entire trip, but everyone understood how I felt and I had alot of willpower and determination to do what I am doing, so I survived without competely losing my mind and I still managed to maintain my weight gaining a little water weight, but not severe. I stuck to my guns, but in the future I am doing shows only two weeks apart and if there is vaction coming up I am not going to diet during that time because it’s a mental nightmare. I think some of my water weight came from stress and depression! I have been dieting for too long and I am getting tired, hungry, and crack. I am so looking foward to nice long offseason. A little under 2 weeks to go…10 days to be exact.