Bend or Break
Its been a while since I’ve been on bb.com, shoulder injury, the kids down to visit for summer and the girlfriend have just lessen my available time, however now after some time off and increased stress I realize just how much I miss it all. The summer was quite interesting for myself, a new love (maybe???), a new job, a move, and a nagging shoulder injury. Here I sit on this cloudy Friday morning, stressed to the max thinking to myself, what was I thinking, what did I do, where was this fork in the road. I don’t have the answers. The running just isn’t working for stress relief anymore and while I planned to avoid the gym until Nov so I don’t keep re-injuring my shoulder, I find I have no choice at this point because Im about to explode and awake the inner demon I put to rest a long time ago. There was a point in time when I walked around pissed out the world, so I drowned the world out and secluded myself like a hermit content in his own exsistance. In return my attitude showed to all and yes I was a *******, I don’t want that man to emerge from the ashes again. In not placing my focus on my body, my training, and my goal to compete I have begun to lose my way. I have deviated from my plans, my dreams and it is having its effect on my life. I followed my heart on a matter when my brain told me not too, and no matter how many times it happens I tend to choose my heart over my brain. (Dumbass) Anyway its time to unleash the demon in the right arena, the gym baby. Its time to get back to work, its time to shut the f#@% up and bring it. I have increased my knowledge, have new training strategies and there is no reason I can’t take it to stage in this years NC States and bring some hardware home. Expect to see the return of my usual intense writings and to the few haters that have also followed my writings, bring it boys all it does is fuel my burning desire. Strength & Honor has returned!!!
October 9, 2009 at 1:56 pm
The gym baby is back! Fantastic!!