FireMike

Today I ventured off to church for the first time in years, I sensed I needed some spiritual cleansing of sorts and needed to reconnect. The message of the day overwhelmed me, I felt this huge pressure thru my body as I listened to the serman, why? Well the answer is simple…I been walking around the past few months answering others questions on how to obtain a good physique without practicing what I had been preaching to them…Hypocriticism…There is nothing I despise more in this world, and I have been doing it myself. WTF Mike!!! Sitting around this afternoon watching football (Yay, the Browns won’t be 0-16 this season after a win today) I find myself mentally preparing myself and my significant other for what is about to begin. She hasn’t seen it hands on yet, she knows all about it, she’s heard the stories from others about the commitment, the pure dedication, the anguish it can cause, the hard exterior that overcomes me as I venture further down the line towards April 2010… Her only request, "baby, please just don’t get so big you have no neck" my reply, "no worries of that for another few years girl." The freezer is stocked with chicken and beef, 30 lbs worth of regular and sweet potatoes stock the pantry, the water has been flowing and dont get me started on the eggs. Yesterday was the re introduction workout, you know telling my body wake the F$%@ Up!!! Full bodied all power movements, 3 rounds 15 reps, YA the body is feeling awake today, now to shock it come morning and re introduce fully sturctured clean eating. You know I find myself doubting myself a little tho, again I ask why? I have come along way since 3 years ago, and really haven’t put much on since injury so why question? Well before it was just me, no one had to put up with a moody day or two in a row bc of being hungry and wanting a dam pizza, now someone has too. So I find myself dealing with the question of at what cost will I move to the stage. If it begins to impact things negatively in the personal life do I continue… Well I have answered the question for myself… I don’t care what it costs. Bodybuilding was here before and will remain if there is a answer, it has been knownst that its apart of Mike and if its not accepted then Im not accepted. So here we go, the future blogs will be about training again (PRAISE THE LORD)… Time to get some, and all I can say is BRING THE MOTHERF-ING PAIN, YA!!! IM GONNA BRING IT… STRENGTH & HONOR TO ALL

I’ve all but forgotten what it takes to achieve a complete physique. While the practice hasn’t been there in some time now, the desire, the drive and the dedication remains. The knowledge is burried within my skull and the brute force remains within the fibers of my muscles. The motivation has emerged in the form of pain once again. Emotional disgust, the feeling of being FORSAKEN for all that I am and all that I do. The training begins Monday morning, but I can’t seem to wait, I want it rt now. I need to bury my emotional pain behind physical pain, the physical pain always did keep the emotions from tearing me apart. When I look in the mirror I no longer see the man that I was a few months back but what I do see is a man more driven, more commited and in more pain and disgust than ever before. Im ready to become greater, im ready to become more, and im ready to show it to the world. Strength and Honor

Its been a while since I’ve been on bb.com, shoulder injury, the kids down to visit for summer and the girlfriend have just lessen my available time, however now after some time off and increased stress I realize just how much I miss it all. The summer was quite interesting for myself, a new love (maybe???), a new job, a move, and a nagging shoulder injury. Here I sit on this cloudy Friday morning, stressed to the max thinking to myself, what was I thinking, what did I do, where was this fork in the road. I don’t have the answers. The running just isn’t working for stress relief anymore and while I planned to avoid the gym until Nov so I don’t keep re-injuring my shoulder, I find I have no choice at this point because Im about to explode and awake the inner demon I put to rest a long time ago. There was a point in time when I walked around pissed out the world, so I drowned the world out and secluded myself like a hermit content in his own exsistance. In return my attitude showed to all and yes I was a *******, I don’t want that man to emerge from the ashes again. In not placing my focus on my body, my training, and my goal to compete I have begun to lose my way. I have deviated from my plans, my dreams and it is having its effect on my life. I followed my heart on a matter when my brain told me not too, and no matter how many times it happens I tend to choose my heart over my brain. (Dumbass) Anyway its time to unleash the demon in the right arena, the gym baby. Its time to get back to work, its time to shut the f#@% up and bring it. I have increased my knowledge, have new training strategies and there is no reason I can’t take it to stage in this years NC States and bring some hardware home. Expect to see the return of my usual intense writings and to the few haters that have also followed my writings, bring it boys all it does is fuel my burning desire. Strength & Honor has returned!!!