FireMike

Yesterday I became very disappointed in training. I have lost a substantial amount of power and my numbers are way down with the weight loss. I know what and why this is happening but I have a hard time excepting it. The one thing I have always been is strong and others have always known that. For example, my room mate and I are former co workers and spent some 4yrs in the same EMS system. The other day he told me that another former co worker from another division had transfered to the division we both worked for last. This other co worker was telling my room mate (Steve) that he had really added some good mass and asked what his diet was. Steve replied, well you know my room mate is Kapas right? to which the guy said, "oh shit, that explains it he’s huge" This isnt me padding my ego, because in retrospect I feel that iam anything but HUGE, HUGE is what im striving for and far from it at this point. Anyway so here i have been sitting debating on my bodybuilding comp future, do I stay the path deal with the strength loss or do I except that my true love is powerlifting? I have began to think about my 6 yr old son and how he is ready to drop soccer in the fall and wants to start playing football like his dad. Little known fact, I was a very good defensive end and had verbally commited to play ball at Kent State, however during the pre season of my senior year I tore my ACL, and MCL and bye bye college football. In thinking about my son, naturally I thought of my baby girl because, hell that little girl has me wrapped around her finger, I love my kids to death. All fathers dream of leaving some sort of legacy to be carried on by their children, most of the time this is something financial. However for me, this isn’t the case. In my situation I realize im not gonna be rich and chances are that I will struggle until my children are 18yrs old and that’s fine. I want my children to grow up to be great well adjusted people, who believe in working hard no matter what. Also tho, I want them to grow up to understand the importance of their bodies. I want them to see the benefits of taking care of yourself and making yourself stronger. I want my son, if he wants to, to play college football and know the importance of hitting the weight room training hard, and dieting right. Naturally if this happens, dad will have no problem buying supplements and stocking his fridge even if he does still live with his mom. I want my legacy to be one of physical greatness and treating your body like the temple it is. I was fat too long in life, and if I understood all that I do know back when I was in high school my injuries would of never happened, and instead of kent state, my team Ohio State would have been looking at me. I want my children to be educated in nutrition and practice good diets, even if they do enjoy McDonalds a day here and there. This will be my legacy, and to me there is no greater legacy to leave on to your children, hard work in all that you do, work, education, family, and your body.

Working in a hospital, sometimes I will go a few weeks without seeing certain co workers. This week Ive been on rotation with 3 co workers whom I haven’t worked with since the beginning of December, when I started dieting. Everyone knows its really difficult to gauge yourself because you see yourself everytime you look in the mirror, and those around you see you multiple times a week and can’t really offer a quality gauge of your progress. However when someone goes a couple weeks without seeing you, well they can really help you gauge your progress. One nurse I work with walked into the break room before the start of our shift and I was standing there making some coffee, "holy s hit, you look buff diesel." Thats all I needed to hear, instand ego boost, head ballooned, all of that stuff. Comments like this really do alot for my motivation, it lets me know people notice the work I put into my body, the notice the discipline required to eat the same healthy foods all the time. Some may think its strange, some may be compelled to join a gym, and others may not give a flying f uck, it really doesn’t matter because ultimately they have noticed something of me and passed it along to me to serve as inspiration. Inspiration at its best: I picked my 3yr old daughter up from school the other day, and her teacher whom is a long time family friend told me that Abby and a lil boy were talking and this little boy said his daddy could beat her daddy up. Abby’s response: no no, me daddy the strongest daddy ever, him big. INSPIRATION. So people are beginning to notice, to that I say…. Take notice, but just wait and see the end result, its gonna amaze you! STRENGTH & HONOR