The **** keeps piling…
Everyone knows the saying, "when it rains, it pours" but how many have truly experienced a test so great life that this saying fits it perfectly? Iam living this exact statement right now and have been since mid July. Hell this whole damm year has been most difficult. In the latest development of this horror story I call my life, I found myself curled up in a corner w a few tears building in my eyes. "Why has god choosen to test me like this? Is there even a god?" these were my thoughts in that moment. Everything my life once was has been stripped away, left w only pain, stress, and fear. Where do you find the will to over come and strive on to make your dreams, your goals a reality? How do you continue to believe in something greater, when nothing good is coming of that belief? For me my outlet has and will remain my training, and I realize now that my past attempts to go on stage that have led to failure was bc I just didn’t want it bad enough. I allowed small meaningless shit to detour me. Now in a time, a moment when it would be easy to fold up and say im done, I can’t go train, Im going to train. Im going to train harder than ever before. Im gonna train without mercy or regard for others. im gonna inflict such great physical pain on myself that it drowns out the emotional pain I have inside. Call this what you will, I call it my therapy. I don’t know how much more could possibly pile up on me, but I now welcome it bc the pain that it causes me inside, leds to my greater development outside.
November 7, 2007 at 1:35 pm
Hell Yeah!!!! When you come through this, you will have been tested by fire.
November 7, 2007 at 2:01 pm
Yes there is a God, Mike. You hang in there, OK?
Use it as fuel, but don’t become hateful or vengeful. Love yourself, train hard. You’ll get there. Then will come the moment of pure joy. And nothing will ever take that away from you, ever!!!!! Now wipe those tears and get to work. I’m here for you
Carla
November 7, 2007 at 9:45 pm
The mental benefits of moving the heavy stuff is highly underrated!! During my twenty plus years of lifting, there have been numerous times, where my weight moving sessions served as mental therapy….It does have a way of taking you away, and cleansing the soul….As for God…look around my friend..outside of your world…truly look around, take an honest look….you will see that he is all around!!