Musing 2 weeks from my Show
I’m 2 weeks out from my show and I feel great! I feel confident. I feel like going to the store and trying on every piece of clothing I’ve always wanted to try on but haven’t because my ass was too big. LOL! Last week was tough, and not because of the training. It’s been tough because my regular job has been out of control busy and trying to get my workouts in, plus do all my job related responsibilities, plus handle my daily life chores, PLUS trying to sleep has been beyond taxing. But, after a long week and a 14hr shoot on Saturday, I have 2 weeks of a semi-normal workload in order to focus more intently on training. Yesterday (Monday, March 16th) I noticed a few things on my body that have changed in the past week or two. 1) I’m getting that weird separation thingy at the top of my glutes where my "crack" is. When my BF gets really low and I lose fat there, my butt cheeks separate a bit at the top there…that’s the best way I can describe it. It means the fat on my ass if finally melting off…gosh it’s taken a long time. 2) My chest is freakin striated to a T and so are my arms, abs, back and pretty much every other part of my body. My face is also getting that very angular look which means the bodyfat is coming off! This morning I woke up and decided to weigh in. I was 135.4! My goal was to come into my show 5lbs of muscle heavier than my last show and I think I did it. After I drop water next week, I’ll probably enter the show at 130-131 which is 5lbs more than last year…Yeah!! And I got another surprise this morning. My size 3 itty bitty jeans I got on my cut during 2007 fit! They fit without a muffin top! And I think I grew an inch or so because they aren’t long enough for me anymore. But who cares! It’s amazing how your body changes from day to day. There are times when you know you are busting your ass and yet you feel like the changes aren’t coming so you feel nothing but despair. Then when the changes start to happen its a rapturous feeling. I can’t wait to go out and show off my contest body! The clubs of LA better watch the hell out! Of course, it can’t all be a silver lining. After meeting with my trainer last night he broke the news that I won’t be able to eat into this show like we thought. He says I had too much bodyfat to lose, but I think it’s really that my body fat came off slower than we would have liked since I’m not any bigger entering this cut than I was the last time. So, I have to keep depleting through the show but thankfully I’ll get a big carb up meal on Wednesday of next week. Then he says I can eat whatever I want after my show and the Sunday after and then a few cheats during the following week before I get back onto my diet. I’m also supposed to kick up my cardio to a higher HR to get my fast twitch muscles firing. So the next 2 weeks will be brutal. We’re in the home stretch. But I’m up to the challenge. My goals after the show is to maintain. No bulking. No growth phase. I just want to stay lean. Sure, I won’t be as lean as I am now, but I think staying around 138-140 is a realistic goal. I’m not going to think about this now though. I have a show to prepare for. What happens after the show is best worried about AFTER THE SHOW. I have 2 weeks to focus and keep my eyes on the prize. My body is my trophy. My discipline is my trophy. My dedication, mental focus, inner strength and overall health are all my trophies. It would be nice to have a physical trophy to set on my desk to remind me of all that I’ve accomplished, but I don’t need it. I have my reward right here with me and I see it every time I look in the mirror.
