Day 9 December 30 2008
You know that feeling you get after you have eat way too much and you feel like you could lie down and sleep for a week. Non of that for me this past Xmas. I was active played B ball on Xmas day and did not miss one workout. I did let my diet go some on Xmas eve and Xmas but not to the point I was un buttoning my pants to make room.
I got the new body bugg v3 for Xmas from my girl friend and I like it very much. It is smaller feels way better on my arm and best of all it works with Vista 64. My old one stopped working once I updated to Vista so I was doing all my updating on my work pc and that was kind of a problem since I did not have access to it all the time.
I have been thinking allot about my goal and how I keep missing it for what ever reason I get hurt, I get depressed, I just don’t feel like doing it. It came to me that I don’t have a WHY for what I am doing. I need a really good WHY to make this all worth it. I use to have it trying to find a great girl and I did. It’s funny but I look in the mirror and don’t like what I see my WHY now is that I want to do this for me to prove I can and to be better then I have ever been. One of the things I dis like the most is cardio. I hate to run on the treadmill at the gym it is just so dull. That’s what makes this so wired for me yesterday at lunch I found a running trail by my work and it goes along a river. It was a great day out side so I grabbed my headphones and iPod and ran. I was not doing it for any other reason just to do it and did I feel great after words. There was something very relaxing about just running and letting go of every thing. Maybe cardio is not so bad if you do it outside the gym.
