wnt2b-figure’s BodyBlog

i almost need someone to hold my hand and walk me through the food thing and watch my me to make sure i really wat what i am supposed to. i hate feeling bad eating icecream but i love it lol but its not going to get me on that figure stage. need to do what i need to do. scott will be home in about an hour then its off to the gym. i killed my legs last week only got one lower body workout in due to that. i trained way to hard and my calfs hurt so bad i could bearly get up and down my stairs in the house. anyway hope everyone is doing good out there and keep fighting the good fight.

it sucks when life gets to crazy that you forget what matters in life. i started eating bad and fell off of the wagon in terms of working out. it sucks but starting this week it is done and i am going balls to the wall. i want to compete in a figure competition this oct. i it to place at a national level!!!! i havent even been in a show before but i get built fast and i think i will be able to do this. my husband has really came around and he is going running with me and working out. i dont want to make him work out but i want him to live forever with me and i  know were young but health starts from the day you are born and i want him to be healthy. sooo anyways enough with me rambling. just wanted everyone to know that I AM BACK PEOPLE and here to push the limits.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! pics soon

so if you have read my post before i was ranting about my husband and my crazy life and how i am in school to become and rn (nurse). well change of plans i start the empa police academy hopefully in july if i pass the testing to get in!!!!! i am so freaken excited this is what i was born to do.

i hate life right now it is just soooo ongoing it is crazy. i am doing clinicals right now for school to become a nurse this is while holding a full time job 40 hours a week overnight! i get maybe 4-5 hours a day of sleep thats while its light outside (since i work nights). on top of that my husband is being such a jack ass. he tells me he will support me and then when i ask him to do something small (get cat litter for the cat) he asks why i cant get it. WELL LETS ****ING SEE just got off from working 8 hours overnight and then going to school for 8 hours and still not have had sleep yet! it has been almost 24 hours! i am going crazy not being able to go to the gym since i have no time and it is making me mad. i am sorry for all who read my rant but i have to get it out somehow. i just cant believe how scott is acting when he was the one who told me to go for my dreams and he would support me. i feel like crying im gunna go…….

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