vtshadow’s BodyBlog

Well, I uploaded some new pics. its only been a short while, and i cant see all too much diff yet. But im working hard. Lots of cardio. I still need work on my diet. And every day is a struggle still. But im 19 lbs lighter. And I feel better every day. When i started this journey i was at 332 lbs. Now im down to 313. I realize 19 lbs isnt a lot when your as overweight as i was. And still am to be honest. I have a long road ahead of me to get rid of this fat gut of mine. But its on the road to being gone. Its just going to take time and dedication.

Well, i been here since June 12th. And I must say, Thanks to all the help and support my friends here at BB.com have given me. in the 14 short days that i have been here and been back in the gym, i have gone from 332 lbs to 316 lbs, Packed on a lot of lean stron muscle and gained a new level of energy and intensity to my workouts. Im wearing Bluejeans i havnt fit into in a while. I even need a Belt to keep THEM up now. I have gone from Struggling to do 15 mins of cardio on the elyptical to Hammering out an intense 45 min 8 Mile Calorie buring Charge on the Elyptical. I have people surrounding me in the gym that inspire me to do better every day. Even if they dont know it. Every time i hear someone say Your doing GREAT, it makes me push myself harder. I have gone from telling myself "Dont worry man, your muscular under all the fat" to saying " Lets show these Fu#*%rs what Muscle really looks like." Last night while doing my cardio a guy walked up to me and said "DUDE, YOUR FREAKIN ARMS ARE AS BIG AS MY LEGS!!!" I just replied. "Its good genetics man, gimme another six months and then check me out." So again I say to you all. Friend and stranger alike. Thank you ALL for being such an inspiration to me. Thank you for helping me and pushing me to be what I know i am inside and what I will be again on the outside.

When you weigh as much as i do, 16 lbs dosnt seem like a lot.  I have a lot of weight yet to lose. But I have the REST of my life to look forward to and I want to live it in the best way i can.

 Happily

Im a happy mofo. Remember how i just wrote that i lost an inch and a half on my arms? Well I dont think im sad about that anymore. I just got back from the gym. And for shits and Giggles, I decided to weigh myself. I LOST 12 FREAKIN POUNDS in 2 freakin DAYS. This may not seem like a lot to you guys. But to me thats OUTSTANDING. To go from 332 to 320 in a matter of DAYS??? Man im so happy right now!!!!!

Well today i measured my arms. I have mixed emotions about it. My arms went from 21" to 19.5 inches. Im happy at the fact that my arms are getting more cut and losing fat. But im sad that my arms are shrinking, lol. Oh well. Replacing muscle with fat is better in the long run.

This is the worst part of my week. Today i start the night shift part of my week and it throws me off like nothing else. going from working a 2p-10p shift. to a 10p-6A shift. Sleep is messed up. Eating times is messed up. Workout times is messed up.

So tired.

Well, its been a long time since I Trudged forward in the halls of a Gym. Its a new world. all the weights are the same. Some of the machines have changed but all in all it feels like home. The thing that really gets me now is standing there in the gym seeing all these people that look as though they dont know why they are there.  They Swing the weights like they know someone is watching. I knoww, going to the gym, a little of that is to be expected. Everyone wants to be bigger better and badder than the next guy but come on allready. Then thereare the 90 pound waif girls that are trying to lose that mythical 10 lbs that will make them a super model. It kind of sickens me.

So, i hit the weights. and they hit me right back. The weights dont lie to me. 100 lbs is always going to be 100 lbs.  And every time I left or press or pull or push, i know im geting better, Stronger. Deep inside i feel that Iron eating beast stir my soul and push me forward. To be something Different. The drive to have legs like Oak, Arms like Cannons and a Chest Like Steel Chords. I know its going to be a long road. But roads are made to be traveled. So I Strap on the weight and get to moving down it. Because i know at the end of this road lies a different person. The person that I know i can be because its the person I was before. And will be again. Its time, to come full circle.