40’s Better

Every 3 or 4 months I get so sick of the music on my IPOD I want to throw the damn thing out.  I teach 3-4 classes a week also so I’m so over my playlists.  I try to keep on what’s new, I try to dig out cool old rockabilly, rock or r&b but seriously, I could spend days searching through music.

I’m always curious to what people like to hear.  I love JT’s sexy back.  If I could get away with it, I’d play Erotica in every class but some people take offense.  I have a student who swears by 80’s pop (Loverboy, etc).  If anyone has any suggestions, I’d love to hear what their favorite music is, especially when in a class.

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I taught a sculpt class last week, it was awful.  I was so disappointed in myself for not preparing more.  I wrote out my class last night and I’m going to run through it tonight and on Wednesday.  I tend to kill people when I’m not organized.  I’ve taken classes like that, they’re disheartening.

I love to teach classes, I get so inspired by most of my students. They show up, they’re ready to work hard and they love knowledge.  I need not to take if for granted.

I had the opportunity to do heated yoga last week; I was blown away by the intensity of it.  It certainly wasn’t easy or gentle, which was fine by me.  We ran through several series of the sun salutation.  I realized how limited my range of motion was in certain areas like my hips and shoulders.  One of my ideas for 2009 is balance and I think adding yoga to my routine will provide that.  I’m thinking with the increased flexibility it should improve my teaching and my training.

Oh Yeah…GO STEELERS!

I love January!!!!  I always feel like such a pile of sludge after all the over indulgences during the holidays!  I start up teaching my classes again today.  I teach tuesday spinning, thursday sculpt and saturday spin.  I’m so excited to see all of my students and get everyone motivated.

I started a blog specifically for my friends and students to exchange information.

http://fitnessforloveandmoney.blogspot.com/

2009 is about balance and well being. Happy New Year y’all!

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It’s been quite a while since I’ve been posting. So much has changed since this summer.  I withdrew from the figure comp in September because my youngest son (who has autism), really needed my time and attention.  I am so happy and grateful that I made the choice to pull back and devote the time to the kids.  My little guy is flourishing. He’s like a completely different little guy.

I’m still teaching spinning.  Next semester I’ll be teaching 2 spinning classes and 1 sculpt class each week so that will be an excellent foundation in getting back to my health and well being.  My diet has certainly not been clean and, guess what, I really don’t feel guilty about it.  Life cycles and that’s the way things happen.  In my 40th year, the most important thing now is balance. 

September 23rd I was rushed to the hospital with the fear that I might be having a stroke.  Thank god, it was only an atypical migraine but it was one hell of a wake  up call.  I worked hard for the body I had in August.  I need to devote as much time and attention to my overall health now.  As I lie in the emergency room all I could think about was my husband and my kids…especially my boys.  I needed to be there for them. It is with those thoughts that I look forward to 2009 and a long and healthy life.

We spent the weekend in Bristol, TN enjoying the NASCAR race.  Not a whole lot of healthy food choices down south, not mention that NASCAR races seem to focus a good bit on fast cars and lots of booze (I guess it makes all those left turns more exciting?).

I start my fall session teaching spinning today; it will give me a good structure to base my personal routines on.  It has been crazy this last month, I’m really longing for the routine again. One more weekend on the road and then I’m ready to settle in.

My little one starts Kindergarten next week so I need to get my system in place so I can prepare myself for all of the case management and meetings that I will have to contend with.  I feel incredibly optimistic for my little guy though, I think we are going to see real progress in his development as some of his autistic symptoms lessen from the structure.

It took me a solid 5 days to get my head right after making the decision to resign from the competition.  After a good deal of introspection and conversations with my husband and work out partner, I’m beginning to see what a detrimental effect my figure coach had on me.  The funny thing was, as a trainer, I would never have imposed the type of regiment on my clients that she imposed upon me.  Honestly, she burnt me out way too early.  I’m also not sure that I’m cut out for competing either!

I was able to pull in and tend to the home and the family last week and that felt incredibly rewarding.  I hit the gym today with my WOP and it was so much fun.  We laughed and joked.  No pressure, just the enjoyment that I used to have before the insanity.

I appreciate all of the amazing and supportive comments that many of you left me; it was unbelievably touching considering I felt pretty ashamed of resigning. Thank you!

I’m not ready for my competition; I’ve resigned my spot in the Sept 6th show.  I was desperately unhappy with the process and the results.  More than anything, I felt the need to pull in, the need to take care of my family.  Competing is a difficult and narcissistic pursuit for me; I need to be mommy and wife again to regain my center.  I need to be present at the job that puts money in the bank and money in my retirement account.  I’ve been more than a bit depressed since making the decision last Saturday.  I feel much like I did when I split up with my exhusband; relieved and depressed (more relieved).

My admiration for the women that do this has grown ten-fold; I unfortunately, don’t think I’m cut out to be one of them.   Some teach and some do, I’m okay to teach.  I thought I liked all the attention but I’m finding anonymity and joy in other’s accomplishments much more satisfying.

Hey, I just wanted to let everyone that my suit designer has added me to their site! 

http://www.figure.suitsyouswimwear.com/home.php?gazpart=show&gazgal=57

As I’ve said before, they were awesome!  The suit is beautiful, they responded to all my inquiries and it was delivered exactly when they said it would.

 Check them out www.suitsyouswimwear.com

Thanks Clyde & Lucy!

I can’t remember being as beat down or exhausted as I was yesterday.  It was truly my first keto day and, man, did it kick my ass.  I also barely took in 1100 calories so that was another issue.

I’m up early today, got the chicken baking for lunch, going to do my hour pre breakfast cardio, have time to hit the gym at lunch and then I meet with my trainer tonight.

I’m pretty damn good about planning but what I’m realizing is that planning’s not enough, I need to stay the course even when everyone else wants me to do something else.