I’m not ready
I’m not ready for my competition; I’ve resigned my spot in the Sept 6th show. I was desperately unhappy with the process and the results. More than anything, I felt the need to pull in, the need to take care of my family. Competing is a difficult and narcissistic pursuit for me; I need to be mommy and wife again to regain my center. I need to be present at the job that puts money in the bank and money in my retirement account. I’ve been more than a bit depressed since making the decision last Saturday. I feel much like I did when I split up with my exhusband; relieved and depressed (more relieved).
My admiration for the women that do this has grown ten-fold; I unfortunately, don’t think I’m cut out to be one of them. Some teach and some do, I’m okay to teach. I thought I liked all the attention but I’m finding anonymity and joy in other’s accomplishments much more satisfying.
August 13, 2008 at 9:23 am
Good for you!
It is very imoprtant to know your limits and how far to spread yourself. Whan we say "yes" to something we are often saying "no" to those closest to us. If you are at peace then you did the right thing.
Mike
August 13, 2008 at 9:26 am
Definitley tough decision to make, but dont feel bad about it, you will be back iam sure. Now is just not the right time! You look great and have obviously worked hard for it. dont feel depressed fanily is of utmost importance and you made the decision you thought would best benefit all. Stay Strong and Good Luck with your goals!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
August 15, 2008 at 8:07 am
Oh my, YES! You made the right choice - like the above comment says, if you are at peace, then you did the right thing. Doing all this isn’t just for competing’s sake - it’s for health and long life and taking care of your family, too. You look so awesome!! You’ll be great in a few days! We’ll find something else for you to do on the 6th
August 20, 2008 at 4:27 am
OMG I’ve missed out on so much. Somehow your blog slipped off my list.
Welcome back, sounds like Jamaica was a blast. I was thinking about all that sunshine as I did my mid-winter dog walks.
Congratulations on making a really tough decision. It’s really tricky knowing what’s right as a first time competitor. I’m constantly confused. As other have said you have to be happy and healthy or there’s no point in any of this.
Love your photos
M
August 21, 2008 at 8:09 am
I was out for a while and was shocked when I saw this post. I support you either way. Chat soon!
Marty
August 28, 2008 at 12:41 pm
I don’t know why people do those contest. I think it harder to workout and get into better shape everyday than to take x-number of weeks to get into contest shape. But to each his own.