valatia’s BodyBlog

I’m SO frustrated with myself.  To begin with, I won’t stop screwing up.  I need to decide to either do what I’m suppose to be doing, or stop pretending to be cutting.  I should be at goal by now.  Instead I’ve taken several steps backwards from my last post here.  I had some bad things happen, and I handled them in the way I’m accustomed to– eat like I’ve lost my mind– this time for a whole week!  I haven’t weighed since June 9th.  I’m afraid for the scales if I did.  Fear of "killing the messenger" and all.

O.K. New week on the horizon.  I’ll eat on plan– get the protein up, fat down, calories on target.  Training and cardio is good.  It’s the eating that is the noose around my neck.  

I hit 136, but am back up to 137 now.  Hopefully it’ll go down more this month.  I expected slow progress, but I was hopeing for faster than this.  7 pounds from goal weight for this cut, let’s see….I should be able to lose 7 pounds in…what….a YEAR!? :-)  I hope that doesn’t become a self fullfilling prophecy. LOL 

Strength is noticably worse.  That was expected too.  I have to work on getting my protein back up.  I don’t know what happened there.  Averaging about 100 a day.  Not good.  Average calories 1600.