unogirl83’s BodyBlog

Yesterday, I went to the gym and decided I had enough of just biking for cardio, so I decided to give the elliptical a go (although my ankle isn’t fully recovered) and I did it. I got on that baby and stayed strong for 40 whole minutes straight. My ankle held up just great and I was soooo happy. It felt so good to do some real cardio after the past 10 weeks. I watched my ankle and paid attention very closely too it, if it were to start hurting I would have stopped, but lucky for me it didn’t. That cardio session left me feeling really pumped up. After that, I decided to go do some weights and ankle exercises. I had an awesome workout and I feel great. I am headed for more today. I am feeling really good about things. I left with so much energy I went home and kept on going, cooked, cleaned the kitchen, bathrooms, did laundry and more. My energy was so high and I was so happy to with stand the cardio that I did. I have been waiting to do that kind of cardio again, b/c you all know I am a cardio junkie.. LOL!!
My workout yesterday is as follows:
Cardio:
40 minute Elliptical – Interval Training
Ankle Exercises:
1.) Ankle Pump
2.) Towel Stretches
3.) Wall Stretch
4.) Soleus Stretch
5.) Ankle range of motion
6.) Theraband
a. Dorsiflexion
b. Plantaflexion
c. Inversion
d. Eversion
7.) Heel Raises
8.) Heel/Toe Walking
9.) Toe Raises
10.) Single leg balance
11.) Ankle Weights
Weights: (I know I was kind of all over, but I was having me some fun)
1.) Dumbbell Presses (Flat) – 20lb – 2 sets of 20
2.) Incline Dumbbell Flies – 20lb – 2 sets of 20
3.) Dead lifts – 25lbs – 2 sets of 20
4.) Squats – 20lb – 2 sets of 20
5.) Calve Raises – 25lb 3 sets of 10
6.) Inclined Calve Raises – 25lbs 4 sets of 10
7.) Lunges – 10 pounds – 2 sets of 10
8.) Bent Over Row – 15lb 2 sets of 15
9.) Vertical Chess Press – 40lbs 2 sets of 10
10.) Bicep Curls – 15lbs 2 sets of 10
I think this concludes my workout last night.
Anywho… That’s all I have to say today. I am so proud of the workout for being in recovery mode, so I had to talk about it. LOL.
Thanks for reading!

I have been back in the gym for almost two weeks. Although, I know I am suppose to take it easy until I can really start therapy with the ankle, I am still trying to push it a little. I do not take it to far though. I am doing whatever I can though. But one thing I have noticed, I am not losing a lot of weight, which is no big deal. I do not want it to be like it was before and drop 50 pounds in two months. I am trying to slow it up and do it a healthier way. Also, I am trying to take it easy until I get full clearance with the ankle injury.  But I have to admit sometimes when I workout now, I panic. While I am training and things are going good, I suddenly vision my ankle breaking again or hurting it again. I can really visualize this accident and feel the pain. It’s really strange. I feel like I am not able to push myself like I once did b/c I am becoming consumed by fear.  I am not saying I want to drop out, I am not saying I am going to drop out, but I am honestly scared to really push myself sometimes. But on that same note I will not give up. I am going to keep on going and keep on building it up until it is stronger than it was before I got injured. I will not allow the injury to stop me, it might delay me but it will not stop me. I know that I am stronger than this and I know I can do it. I have a great number of people cheering me on, wanting me to pull through and keep going. But, they cannot help me. They can only motivate me. I am the only one that can do the work and get past this. I am the only one that can beat my fear until its nothing anymore. I just wish it were easier to get over. It really bothers me. One night while training, I had a great workout until I did something and I just imagined my foot hitting the floor and it twisting and breaking. I felt the pain all the way through my body and dropped to the floor. I was wearing my splint so my ankle could not have gotten injured, but I swear it felt so real. Why must I be consumed of the fear of it happening, even when I know it will not? I know the only way to get over it is to keep working through it. I really have to think though about this, why does fear consume us. Why do we fear anything? Nothing is scary if you can see through it.  The only true thing to fear is fear itself, so why do we allow ourselves to be consumed by fear?

So, for now my only update is I have lost one more pound, putting me at 198, which is a 49lbs weight loss (One more pound to go before I reach 50lbs). That is a lot. I am half way to my goal. It’s a great feeling. Some of my friends said it’s not the weight they have noticed but it’s me they have noticed that has changed. They told me I look happier and I am more confident. They say I go after more. For instance, I will walk up and talk to people make new friends. I will go flirt with that guy in the club I think is hot; before I would look and keep my distance b/c I knew I didn’t have a shot. Now I don’t care if I have a shot or not I will go chat to him, the worst that can happen is he can turn me down. I am fine with that too, b/c when they see me again at my goal weight and they notice me, I am going to have fun putting the brakes on to them. SO far though I have not gotten rejected, and that is a nice feeling.  There is this one guy I had a huge crush on and he never gave me the time a day, now he is chasing me. SO I had to ask him one day what is the difference, he said he didn’t care about the weight, but its that I am more confident, more happy and I look like I am having a blast when everyone else is bored. He said I the girl now that always has a big smile and is just glowing, he said I didn’t have that before and it wasn’t attractive. I guess I am the only one that didn’t see it, but I understand it. I was a lot more held back.  There really is a different world out there when you are happy with yourself.  This feeling is the best feeling in the world.  There is no other reason but that to keep motivated. I love the person I am. I love laughing and smiling.  I don’t care how others see me now; I just love me for what I am and what I feel. I can only go up from here if I do that myself and if I do not allow failure to be option. Once I rebuild myself, lose the fear and train even harder to be stronger than before. I will be a better version of myself in more ways than one.  That is all that really matters though, is how I feel and how I feel I look, and that is the way it should be not only for me but also for everyone.

Have to run for now. Thanks for stopping by and reading. Also, thank you in advance for those of you that leave me comments. I appreciate that. Have a great day and a great workout, if its not your off day.

Until later!!

Support.

Why is support one of the hardest things for your loved ones to do? I am sure that I am not alone in this, either as I have read countless blogs, emails and forum posts regarding this subject. It’s weird that here on this site I receive more support than I do with people that see me everyday and say they care about me. I get asked on a daily basis, why are you doing that, what are you getting out of it, are you sure this is what you want, and so many more questions.  Do I really need a reason for wanting to look and feel better. I have been told I have "changed" b/c my attitude is different. Why do people like you so much more when you are unhappy or not doing something for yourself to change your life? I never would have thought someone would say I have a bad attitude b/c I worry about what I am eating and I am anxious to get to the gym. I actually had someone tell me that it makes me too absorbed in myself. What the hell? Why? What is it better for me to be fat and unhappy? Why does worrying about myself make me selfabsorbed. That just doesn’t make sense to me. I have a friend that started my diet with me but has dropped out b/c she is stressed or always tempted or whatever but is now pissy with me all the time especially when someone asks me how much weight I lost b/c  I look good now. I can’t help but think she is pissed she failed and I didn’t. Why do I have to be penalized for that? You know, its not just in fitness where I get the negativity, its in the relationship choices or my career too. I dont get it. I know I am not the only one and believe me when I say there is not enough negativity in the world right now that is going to stop me. But I can’t help but think about support systems lately. Why is it so hard to be happy for someone else and truly be happy? When has it become ok to be unhappy versus happy? Why is complaining far better than not? I just do not get that. I have said it many times that no one ever understands it unless they are living it. You do not know how it feels to be the fat person unless you are. You do not know how it feels tobe the super skinny person that people make fun of unless its you. You do not know how to deal with the lost of a lover, friend, mother, child, etc. unless you lose that person too. You do not know what to do or say for your friends who are divorcing or being cheated on unless you are going through it. You do not know what its like to struggle unless you are the one struggling. You do not understand your body, fitness and self esteem unless you are  into it. Nothing becomes apart of you until you decide to make it apart of your life or apart of you. You do not know what its like to fail unless you fail. You do not know what it’s like to achieve something unless you achieve it. With that being said I can understand why it’s hard to see myside of it to some people, but if they truly care they should be on my side ready to take on anything with me. You know. I am not just talking about a lover, but friends, family, etc. If they cant just be happy for me or truely supportive I need to second guess why they are around. Life is too freaking short to be negative.
Well I will go.. I just had to talk about this stuff a little bit. I know its a different post than what I would usually write but heyit happens..LOL!

Take care.

Today is July 5, 2007; therefore I have exactly 8 months until March 5, 2008.  March 5, is the day I started my diet, exercise and set my goal to lose 100lbs in one year time. As you all know, I lost 48lbs in the first two months but nothing really since, as I have been out first with a stall out, second with an ankle injury.  However, there is no more of me being out of the gym. I have to take it slow at first but I assume by Sept 1, I will be at full strength to my ankle and really start heavier at the gym, but for now slow is better than the nothing I have been doing for the past 8 weeks.

I have a plan set forward, however I am sure as time progresses my plan will be altered in more ways than one, as I plan to work with a new trainer (once I find a new trainer) and a body transformation specialist. But for now here is what my plans are (I am going to be very strict for the next 8 months):

·        (Of course the no brainers) NO JUNK & NO FRIED FOODS!

·        If it is not on my list of foods that are ok to eat, then I am NOT going to touch it.

o       IF YOU WOULD LIKE to see the list, ask I will email you my list.

o       Honestly, some of the food is not something I would ever eat, but it’s not about what you like, it’s about what you want and what you are willing to do to get it.

·        No soft drinks; not even diet.

·        My weekly coffee trips, are going to be limited to once every other week..

·        I usually drink a minimum of 5 20oz bottles of water each day, but that is going to increase to a 7-bottle minimum.

·        I going to increase my meals from 4 meals & a snack to 5 or 6 portioned meals a day (eating every 2-3 hours, which will be hard to do for me)

o       3 meals containing a portion of LEAN protein & a carb & and the other 2 meals will be the same except adding a serving of veggies to the meal.

o       Portions will be sized pretty much by the palm of my hand or a really tight clinched fist – I read this was the best way to watch portions without having to weigh your food all the time

o       When I feel I just don’t have the time to eat or just can’t, I plan to just make a ‘performance-nutritional shake’ and drink that instead, which I might plan to do for one of my 6 meals anyways to make meal planning easier. (I read to do this inside of a book I bought, if you would like the name of the book, ask and I will forward you the info.)

·        My daily calorie intake will be from 1400 – 1500 per day.

·        My routine will be as follows (Also, for the next three weeks my routine will consists of ANKLE strengthening exercise, as that is the MOST important thing for me right now):

o       SUNDAY – Upper Body & Ankle Strength

o       MONDAY – Cardio (35-45 min) & Ankle Strength

o       TUESDAY – Lower Body & Ankle Strength

o       WEDNESDAY – Cardio (35-45 min) & Ankle Strength

o       THURSDAY – Upper Body & Ankle Strength

o       FRIDAY - Cardio (35-45 min) & Ankle Strength

o       SATURDAY – OFF DAY

·        I will continue to take the following supplements each day:

o       Flax Seed Oil Caps 2x/day

o       Multi Vitamin 3x/day

o       Calcium 2x/day

Everything I have listed is all I will be doing. Of course, I will change things as I see fit or as suggested by my trainers. Everything will be completely customized to me.  Please feel free to give me your comments, or if there is something I can to do add on to this, please let me know. I am open to all comments, do not be afraid to tell me straight up as it will NOT hurt my feelings.

I am really excited to get back to the gym. I can’t wait till I do my monthly progress pictures and watch this wait just start falling off. I am planning to put new pictures up on the 5^th of every month, but may do some for fun in between, who knows.

Well, here goes nothing……Right?

Thanks for reading.