unogirl83’s BodyBlog

Hey Friends.

Yes you are reading that headline right. This girl is back, recharged and ready to get back in the gym and continue towards my goals. The stall out is now over! I took the entire weekend off from all things, my cell phone, stress, thinking, calorie counting, dieting, etc. This was a worry free vacation do what makes you happy weekend. Let me be the first to say to anyone that is the perfect prescription sometimes when you are going through what seems to be the hardest times in your life. Sometimes you have to just let go and be carefree to find yourself again, and that is what I did. After all that drama, I have two friends that love me and knew just what to do for me. They took me off to FL to a condo on the beautiful sunny beach.  It is so great to have friends that are truly there and know exactly when you need them the most and you do not have to say one word. When we got there, I let them unpack while I threw on my running gear and took off on the back. The sun was rising, so it was just perfect to start that run then. Nothing has felt better to me in a while. Next, I showered we dressed and went to brunch then headed out for some shopping. We went shopping to prepare for a moonlight dinner on the beach with a group of friends we met at the condo. That was great day. So, was the rest of the weekend. I took a sunrise jog on Sunday too; We didn’t get to stay to long on Sunday before heading back. It was a short weekend but it was divine!!

During my jog on the beach, I knew life isn’t going to be the same since my boyfriend/best friend is now no longer a part of it, but I know it will not be hard to move on and I don’t need him in my life. Things are going to be different but have the potential to be so much better. I now can focus on me, my life and what I want without having to worry about another person or how my decisions will affect him (not that that is a bad thing). I can now have 100% focus on me, my life and even my fitness (which he didn’t support, probable b/c I will be a knock out and knock him out the way, haha).  I know eventually he will realize what he is done, but crawling back isn’t even an option. I deserve someone far better and I am happy he showed his true colors now rather than later.  I understand now, I need to stop blaming myself for his mistakes or the reasons he cheated on me the ways he did. I do not believe it was me at all, but the fact he is scared person and just doesn’t know what he wants. Just as sure as he cheated on me I am sure he will do the same to her, only I am sad for the child that will be involved. It is really funny how you think you know someone after 11 years, but never really know them. haha. Oh well, it is totally his loss not mine. I know beyond a doubt I am a good person and I have a good head on my shoulders if he doesn’t see that he is blinded and I do not need him anyway.  What happened sucks, but I will not allow that to hurt me or distract me any longer. I did nothing wrong, so I refuse to make myself pay for his stupidity.  I can not wait until it is my turn to laugh and be happy while he sits in pain and hurting.  I can wait until he sees more progress pictures when I am way smaller and hotter. I can’t wait!! This may sound mean, but I cannot wait for karma to bite him on the butt. I can’t wait until he sees me and he feels regret for what he did or he tries to get me back and I get to be the one smiling and making him feel smaller than ever.  I can’t wait until he is hurting and I am laughing.  Part of me feels that will be mean, but then part of me doesn’t since he hurt me so bad you know.

Anways, enough about him!!!

Now that my stall out is over and I am recharged.. I am back to my diet and exercise. I made sure of it. I did not go to the gym this morning, but I did start my morning with a mile run, followed by a few squats, dead lifts, biceps and triceps workouts using my free weights at home. I also, did a few abs workouts with my abs ball I have at home. I did a little this morning but plan to hit it up at the gym tonight for shoulders and legs. It feels so good to be back at me, undistracted and recharged.

That getaway was what I needed. It did help that I had a few really great guys hitting on me, that is very boosting haha. Sad but true, we all know that.

Well enough of that.  This girl is back and ready for action. I am recharged and feeling good.

Thank you to everyone for all of your help, support and all of your kind words. You guys are the best!!!

Alicia

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