time to face reality….
Monday, January 19th, 2009So I get a lot of nice compliments on my pics and I do appreciate them but I have to admit they are 2 years old! I don’t look like that anymore. I keep them up to remind me of how I USED to look so it’ll motivate me to change myself back.
I have been working at a desk job for a year now and it has taken it’s toll on my butt, hips, and thighs. I don’t get to go to the gym very much and don’t have time or equipment to do anything at home. I am not trying to make excuses just stating the facts. I have not improved but gained, gained a lot, and I realized just how big I truly was when I took my before pics for the Hydroxycut max contest. Which I now have to post in my profile!!! UGH!!!!! This is going to be ultimately humiliating. I can hide myself in my clothes but these are bikini shots, no hiding it’s just all out there, literally. It’s disgusting.
All you who have seen my profile and commented on how great I look are probably going to be sorry you ever said that, I’m sorry. It’s not that I was trying to fool anyone because those pics are really me, just the me I wish I still was. I was even brave and left makeup off in the new ones! I had to do this for myself, I had to take them to see what I really look like because all too much I have been lying to myself. That’s why I joined the contest not to try to win anything but to show myself I HAVE to change. I started it weighing in at 199.8, I refuse to gain that .2 pounds and hit 200!!!
I’m married so I didn’t get on here to meet anybody anyway and the pics were up for me, not anyone else. Sorry if anyone gets mad or thinks I’ve been lying or trying to trick them, not my intention. You are about to see the real true me, fat and all. No hiding, no holding back. Help wanted and needed, advice? PLEASE!!
Thanks for reading!






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