Scott’s BodyBlog

Start my new job today.  Haven’t fully adjusted to living in the area but I’ll get use to it.  Sucks moving and not having friends or much to do.  Have to save up some money and pick a gym membership.  I’ll probably copy my brother and go to 24 hour fitness.  Didn’t cancel my last one.  Prayed to God for this job and got it.  Now I’m praying for other things I might have instead.

Went to the gym today.  Had to get out of the house.  Also had to make an excuse to get to the gym.  Kind of sad when I didn’t even want to leave the house to work out.  I’m getting into it slowly.  Just got a lot on my mind and the gym cleared it right.  Back into where I should be.  Did a good shoulder workout from Flex magazine.  Still trying to figure out which shrugs work best for me.  Might take a while before traps are the weak muscle!

That’s today.  Church in an hour and an half, gym after that then work tonight.  Slowly getting back into it.  Focusing on getting the technique back and contracting muscles after reps.  Doing a lot of higher rep stuff right now.  Three days a week still but this gives me time to get funds for supplements and pay off some stuff that I have to first. I let myself go and not having to buy supplements or worry about what I was eating was easy.  Adding in the gym and being pissed at myself for losing 3 months of work isn’t.

I feel like I’m starting over and I pretty much am.  I’m working on just GETTING to the gym and getting motivated right now.  I have a three day whole body split that gets me in the habit of scheduling life AROUND the gym.  Before I was scheduling the gym around life.  Now that I’m back at it and tired of looking like crap I’m going strong.  Just have to get back in the gym on a regular basis first.  Then diet and supps will come.  It’s like going to church.  You go for  a while, then you feel good and let yourself skip once or twice, next thing you know you’re not ever thinking about going and you say you’d go but it’s at a time that doesn’t work for you.

Took some time off but I packed the gym bag and I’m going after work.  I know I’ll get back into it easily cuz I always loved lifting.  I just got too damn cold and liked having time to do anything besides go to work.  Switched the schedule around and now I’m loving life so I have to get into shape…..maybe I’ll doo M&F’s Challenge this year.

I’ve quit.  I haven’t worked out since thanksgiving.  Actually I went once about two weeks ago and my bench was the same but I’ve lost 10 lbs and a half inch on my biecps.  I’ve been over caffinated and dehydrated since then.  I have completly lost my motivation to be the biggest guy at work.  I’m getting back into it and I just need to put my lazy fat ass in the gym, start eating right, blow off friends and everyone who wants me to hang out and work in the gym.  Dedicate myself again.  I set back my progress and rested on my laurels (sp?) and I’m really ****ing PISSED that I could do this.  I was ****ing STACKED going into winter,  I could have eaten what I wanted and GAINED from it.  Instead I ate, slept, went to work and became a lazy ****!@@!!!@! YEAH THIS SHIT IS GOING TO CHANGE ASAP

going back to my old routes.  Got out of working out for a bit, partly becuase I felt sick and partly becuase I wanted to party deep down I guess.  Enjoy my hard work just a LITTLE too much.  Back at it though.  Amazing what spending a whole paycheck on supplements does to your motivation.  Really puts it back into your head that you really want to do this.

I’m stuck between working back/bis today and doing legs. probably do back and legs thursday am.

I’m almost out of my WHITE FLOOD.  I’m not sure if it’s how i’ve changed my diet or if i’m just getting use to it but I don’t feel the effects as much anymore.  I’m looking forward to going of cycle and seeing what I can get.

I’m starting to get mad at myself for not having anythign to do.  I graduated a few months ago and I’ve always had class and stuff to work on and now I have all this free time and nothing to do.  Gas prices are really high so I don’t want to drive all around and my days off are days that my friends work. I need to find something to do on my days off to fill the time.  Already pushed one girl away that I would have liked to date and I’m having problems admitting that.  Now that I have time to think about it I can’t sleep and I feel like shit and all I think about is how cool she was and how much of an idiot I am for not giving her some breathing room.  I’m so depressed right now I don’t even want to try and lift plates.

Then I think about "This is life.  It’s tough. Suck it up" and I’ve done it before but this time I don’t know what it is.  It’s like I WANT to be miserable.  I want to be down and alone and crappy.  I don’t get enough sleep on days that I work and I just want to have a drink or 3 each night just to be able to fall asleep before 1.  I need to get my head out of my ass and do something about this but I don’t know what.

So my plans as of right now are to make my morning shakes before I go to bed.  I’ll be waking up around 6 every day and I plan on working out around 7-8 on most days.  I have weekends off from they gym and work early morning so I might have a cup of coffee on these days instead of the WF. 

Are there any problems with making a protein shake and a WF+GM shake at night and storing them in the fridge until the morning?  I think I’ll take the protein as soon as I wake up and take my pre-workout shake a half hour before I work out.  I’m looking forward to tomorrows workout.  Have to watch a movie so I can fall asleep and get rest.  Figured out how I’m going to get 3 shakes in a day.  One when I wake up, the other two during breaks at work.  I’ll have to make lunches either the night before or when I wake up.  I’m starting to realize how much work will be going into this.  Forgot about it.  I thought it was easier last time.  Maybe because I passed the house on the way to work so I could make a shake and a meal then.