….make the sugar devil go away
I did extremely well last week with my training/cardio (most days did twice/day cardio). I was bang on with my diet the earlier part of the week then ate chocolate Friday night, Saturday night (always do fine during the day) AND Sunday!!! But I did carry on with the rest of the day as if I hadn’t cheated. Although I have decided (well about 70% sure….never say never) not to compete in November, I HAVE decided to do a 12 week ‘total transformation’. I need to have an end date and follow something very specific. Because I was pretty sure I wouldn’t be doing November’s shows (IDFA & UFE) it’s made me too relaxed. I feel like I’ve been all over the board…sorta crazy like, lol. Ssssh don’t tell anyone! hahaha
I’m so thankful to have people in my life that keep me motivated and hold me accountable. Although everyone keeps telling me how proud they are of me, and it does remind me to pat myself on my back for what I have managed to achieve, I can’t help but feel disappointed in myself. The mind is a powerful thing….and I can continue to beat myself up or CHOOSE to be proud of ME, too. I feel SO good when I’m eating clean ALL day for weeks (lately it’s only been a few days at a time)….and then the sugar devil calls my name……
Today was a low carb day and I felt pretty fuzzy headed by about 4pm. BUT I made it through and am enjoying a Roobios Chai tea. I need to be surrounded by ‘like minds’ and bury myself in literature, especially articles on bb.com.
*sigh* Thank goodness I like challenges AND appreciate how great I feel when my nutrition is structured and clean. I’m still lovin’ Ripped Freak (my fat burner of choice), have been feeling extra strong AND underneath a layer of fat am feeling some pretty solid pec muscles…woot! Technically I should be able to lose 10-15 lbs in the next 12 weeks. If I accomplish that and maintain til 20 weeks out from July’s show I’ll be able to focus on maintaining muscle while losing bodyfat for the show.
I do believe in myself…..but it would really help if the sugar devil would just go jump off a bridge…..
September 21, 2009 at 8:37 pm
I think that devil is making the rounds! I had THREE desserts in one sitting this weekend! Honestly, you can take him back!
September 22, 2009 at 4:47 am
I know how ya feel. I work in wharehouse that is also a production plant for ice cream!! We stalk everything you could imagine, Baskin Robins, Laura Secord, novelty treats like Ben and Jerry’s, So I see the sugar devil everyday for 8 hours a day….and it SUCKS!!! lmao. ANd yes you do deserve to pat yourself on the back. Keep training hard, you know you can do it!!!
September 22, 2009 at 6:45 am
Stay strong and focused. You’ve accomplished quite a bit already and are looking great. If the sugar devil is your only demon, then I will trade you. (lol) Good luck with it all.
September 23, 2009 at 6:46 pm
get angry… it is YOU doing this… when you do your cardio sessions, I recommend going to war against EVERYTHING holding you back… If i focus hard enough when I run i leave my body… and I am free from its constraints… if you can, try to weave together the pain you are feeling during the cardio session AND all self-doubt and past failure… when you match the two together you associate them as one and can hold them at bay…. in my experience.
September 23, 2009 at 6:47 pm
this is overcoming the "mind body duality"!