Stuff. xD
So, tomorrow will mark the 1 year anniversary of me moving away from home in the suburbs & into Vancouver w/ my lovely Grandma, who needs a bit of help doing stuff these days. w00t! /m\
Before moving, I had a nervous breakdown. For real. From the beginning of December ‘07 –> April ‘08, I gained over 50 lbs back; probably close to 75 lbs. I made myself wait ’til the end of that semester to move away, though, ’cause I was a cheap fck, who didn’t wanna waste money (you can only get a 70% refund & that’s w/in the 1st week) & would rather waste time being miserable. Oh, how I’ve changed.
Anyway. I lost all of the weight once the beginning of November rolled around but then gained about 20 lbs (2 pant sizes) back once I joined here & learned about Keto. hah. HAH. hahahaha. FAIL. & I haven’t been able to lose any of it since, (maybe 5 lbs, if that,) regardless of my epic efforts & changing my routine around every once & trying out new stuff to further confuse my body. I started Keto in the middle of November & stopped @ the end of December. My pants that once were loose were now skin tight around the thighs & could button up around my crotch instead of my belly button. I tried on the pants @ the end of February, & they were less horrible, which accounts for the 5′ish lbs. But since then, I haven’t really lost anything else. I’ve done a few cycles of higher fats/less carbs, a few cycles of higher carbs/less fats, & cycling my calories…but still nothing. Ah, well. In all honesty, it’s not a complete fail. My strength continues to grow, I can feel/I’ve noticed my muscles getting bigger underneath the fat - i.e.: gaining size continuously, (which is just pushing the fat slightly outwards, though =/,) & I’m not gaining any fat - i.e. I seem to be in a perfect state of equilibrium. @ least Summer’s just around the corner. I would’ve really liked to have spent it w/ my re-achieved body. But @ least I won’t have to wear pants in the summer: shorts are a person w/ wide thighs’s best friend. xD
Anyway. I didn’t want this post to be negative @ all. So, I’ll discuss 2 other topics:
I got my 1st real comment @ the gym yesterday. I was starting my stuff after my cardio, & this guy, who I’ve seen around for a while now, was like "how long have you been @ this exercise thing?" & I told him that I’ve been lifting since Jan of ‘07. & he was like "*Impressive nod face (raised eyebrows & nodding)* Wow. I’ve noticed that you’re pretty strong." & I just laughed & smiled really wide & said Thanks. Wow. My 1st real compliment. No one ever tries to talk to me. I’m neutral either way. My music is my workout partner, & I get into a certain state of trance/zone during my workout & really enjoy it. But I’m not against pple comming up to talk to me whatsoever @ all. Meh. I must look just that intimidating, eh? =P
Lastly, today, I did something I’ve never ever done before. Infront of my gym, is a softball field/soccer field thingy. I had originally planned to use 1 or 2 of the cardio machines. But I was like "wtf? What for? It’s SO nice outside!" So, I ran laps & did bodyweight exercises. I could see everyone in the cardio room glaring @ me. bahaha. I’ll be doing that again & again. It was EPIIIIIC!
