topazio_kim’s BodyBlog

I gained my weight back, I’m at the dreaded 140, and am starting tomorrow once again.  I feel like all that I have worked towards is gone.  I’m very disappointed in myself and hope that I’ll get back on track.  Apparently there is a competition in arlington in June, That is going to be my goal.  If i work hard enough I’ll be able to compete, and get my confidence back.

I gained my weight back, I’m at the dreaded 140, and am starting tomorrow once again.  I feel like all that I have worked towards is gone.  I’m very disappointed in myself and hope that I’ll get back on track.  Apparently there is a competition in arlington in June, That is going to be my goal.  If i work hard enough I’ll be able to compete, and get my confidence back.

I gained my weight back, I’m at the dreaded 140, and am starting tomorrow once again.  I feel like all that I have worked towards is gone.  I’m very disappointed in myself and hope that I’ll get back on track.  Apparently there is a competition in arlington in June, That is going to be my goal.  If i work hard enough I’ll be able to compete, and get my confidence back.

What can I say….. I totally, totally gave up for the past 4 months.  I don’t know exactly what was going on but I just stopped.  Well, Thank God I don’t know how I managed to lose about 7 lbs.  but I did, maybe it’s just because I was eating smaller portions… Who knows…  BUT, thanks to the support from people on this site, I realize that I have to push myself.  Today is the start of my comeback into working out.  I apologize to myself for letting myself down, and I’m going to give it my all this time.

So usually this is the outline of my day…. go to work, workout during lunch, work, come home, work out, sleep.  WELL, today I took NO XPLOD for my workout, it was pretty good, I was seriously expecting to feel like my heart was gonna explode, but it didnt happen.  lol not too bad though, it enhanced my cardio and made me feel a little more pumped.  It’s hard though, I mean i went into the gym today and saw this chick, HALF my size (ok maybe not) but way skinnier than me and she was doing twice the weight on her arms!  its just so friggin dissapointing that my arms arent developing as fast as i want them to.  Not just that but im conflicted on how to get bigger arms while making my midsection smaller.  AHHHHHHHH!  this is hard, sometimes i feel like im just not gonna make it to competition, i mean all these other girls have been doing this forever and here comes the asian girl thinking she can do it all….. im gonna do extra cardio till it hurts so much i cant think of my pitiful situation………………..

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