tolewfo’s Bodyblog of Change

So, like I have stated in my last blog, I have gained quite a bit of my weight back.  It’s not as bad as I thought it would be to lose it again.  I knew that I just needed to buckle down and workout just that much harder to overcome my set backs.  I have little regrets about gaining weight and beat myself up for it.  I kept on telling myself that I was always going to be a fat out of shape guy.  I talked to a guy from my gym who is always encouraging and honest.  He noticed that I have gained weight and told me that I can get back and acheive my goals.  We talked about where I was at this time last year and I was in fear that I would go back to that.  He then reminded me that eventhough I was heavier then I wanted to be at this time, I was also a lot stronger then I was last year.  I then started to look at myself in a different light and stopped being so rough.  I do, still, want to be fit and lean by summer here in Las Vegas and I know that I can do it.  I have a lot of fat to lose but I have been hammering along and I am having fun with it.  I think that by the end of May I’ll be under 200 lbs. and be working harder to get some ab’s that a lot of you have.

So here it is, March, and spring is now about to happen.  A lot has happened since the Holiday break.  I have gained weight and it isn’t good weight.  I am no where near where I want to be at this time but I know that I will still hit my goals by the beginning of summer.  I really need to buckle down and take care of my body.  I pretty much took a little more then a month off from the discipline of my gym.  It seems that if I don’t get to my comfortable gym setting I will not have a good workout and will half-ass everything.  During the time off I settled back into old habits of alcohol, sodas and fatty food…  I have gained a considerable amount of weight and I am debating about putting it here on my page.  I am a little embarrassed about it.  I have found that it is hard to break those habits again.  I have however, have done just that.  I am back onto my "diet" of eating healthy and with the right caloric intake.  It’s funny, I thought for a while about scratching this whole getting into shape thing again and accepting that I am always going to be a fat person.  My genes sure paint that picture for me.  I am the most fit person in my family and that is not saying a lot.  Eventhough, I have gained a good portion of my weight back, I know that I have gained a lot of muscle as well.  I am stronger then I have been in the past 15 years or so.  I am just not doing so well in the diet area and my cardio has been lacking as well.  So, with all of that said, I am positive about my upcoming disciplined months ahead before summer.  I can still hit all of my goals but I just have to overcome a few set backs and work a lot harder.  My goals are to reach under 200 lbs. by June.  That is 3 months of having to kick my ass.  Maybe in the next couple of days, I’ll add my weight to my page after accepting it as fact.  I am still in a denial phase and will soon be coming out of it.