What am I made of?
I am struggling lately. Because I am not able to go to the gym as regularly as I would like, and because I haven’t been eating as well as I know I should be, I am having an inner battle that goes something like this . . . one little chocolate isn’t going to throw everything off, well a couple choclates are okay, its what I do most of the time that matters . . . you have a vision in mind of how you want to be - who you want to be - are you going to go back to the way you were? are you going to give in like always? are you giving in allready? You are weak! Oh dont be so strict! Everyone says you look good - you dont need to be rock hard. you look good enough in jeans. I want a hard body! I know I can do it! I am tired of my belly hanging over my pants! I know my goal is obtainable! I can do it! Is the chocolate worth it? Is food that important that your willing to give up your dream for it?
We moved recently and are staying at my parents till we can move into a more permanent residence near a gym with a daycare facility. Then I can go everyday! I need to be solid in making (and following) a meal plan. That is really (for me) what will take me there. I love to lift, I need to learn a love for cardio too! I need to do the best I can do with what I have to work with, and remember that I am in this for life and I will gradually get better/stronger - physically and mentally.
(whew) thanks- I feel better! 
February 12, 2009 at 12:56 am
Hi Tiff,
We all have these internal battles, if this was easy then you wouldn’t be extraordinary.
I like your attitude in overcoming your obstacles whilst you are staying with your folks.
ps I am the worst at consistantly doing cardio
February 17, 2009 at 11:23 pm
I don’t do cardio. I absolutely hate it. I make sure my diet is good enough and I can get a hard body with just the weights.
Def kick ass on the diet, since making it to the gym is somewhat of an obstacle for you right now. It will make you feel better. That one piece of Chocolate adds up. I know you have heard of a cheat day. Well in that cheat day consists of one cheat meal. Use this meal once a week to get out all those cravings in your head. Keep something in your stomach (healthy) as much as possible and the cravings for the bad foods will subside. Once you have done this for an exteded period of time the cravings usually go away.
Keep working hard. Working out will never let you down like so many other things in life tend too!!
November 13, 2009 at 11:25 am
I couldnt agree more on this. I look okay, and other people seem to think so too, but i want so much more from myself. I love the rock hard, I just havent had enough in me to go get it. have to keep you eye on the prize and go one week to month at a time.