thomashenry’s BodyBlog

 It has been an interesting journey to say the least, Living Life on lifes terms without a Chemical escape, not that it hasn`t Crossed my mind, and had someone told me I would think, feel and go through Life and all it`s up`s & downs without being Drunk or High in the last 24 years I would have thought your crazy ! there have been numerous times where I wanted to just say WTF I don`t need want or to deal with any of this BS, and then have someone say just Pray, and I would look at them and say Fcuk YOu you Pray are you Nuts ? when in reality I was just Living, I got sober with Hardcore recovering Alcoholics & addcits, no mercy lots of love though thank God, never went to one of those High class jitter joints other than to visit and go to meetings, but thats me and whatever works for me doesn`t work for all, many day`s & nights of smoke filled Coffee brewing basements of Churches and such, Saw many people go back out and NEVER come back ! I don`t question why not me, but rather better them than me, I have lived and experienced the devastation and insanity of Drugs up close both under the influence and as well as sober throughout my Life, and I cannot put a sane twist on a Insane disease, I certainly don`t listen to the suedo Psycho Babble from the barstool Philosophers or the talking heads on TV, I generally pay stricter attention to the ones who have been where I have been, the insight is certainly more attuned to what I think or have experienced, I know that there is a merciful God in heaven as well as very good & decent people right here, I believe in Good & Evil in its most basic form, I like to live in a world of Black & White, at the very least I know where I stand & can make a decision based on whats good for me & my family, and I cannot and in fact Tolerate for very long People who are Politically correct and have no balls or brains and cannot think for themselves and are like robots with no heart or brains, I take risks some are not calculated, life is not calculated ! I truly try and remember One day at a time and that is all I have, to LIVE for all it`s worth, I make mistakes all the time and some more than once, But I am responsible and am man enough to admit them, Apologize, rectify if possible and move on, I get one shot at this Life and It has been an amazing journey to say the least, I am happy & grateful for the Life God has given me & all the choices in my life I have made have brought me to this point now, and has given me a more keen awareness as to just how Precious and wonderful life is !

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