goldengirl’s BodyBlog

So, I obviously know what type of site this is, have seen tons of profile pics& so have an idea of the ppl on this site. Having said all that, I also know that everyone has had something they’ve had to get past, to fight. Right now mine is smoking. I know, I know…I’ve worked in healthcare for the past 5 years now. I’m a smart girl. I’ve seen what it’s done to my body, on the outside at least. I don’t like the smell, the taste. I hate that my husband hates it, BUT….it is SOO hard to quit!! I have been working towards quitting for a few weeks now though. I have tried cold turkey before and that didn’t take so this time I’m doing it abit more conservativly. (& i can’t spell…got it) So, like I said, I know that most ppl on this site probably can’t relate to my problem, but if you can any feedback right now would be nice. I’m seriously working on it, but my only support so far is my mom & I could use all the help I can get on this one!

I can’t believe it took me this long to get back into the gym again. I was doing good til Tony visited for a couple days. Then it took me over a week to get back on track. Well, I love it again. I’ve used a couple new pieces of equipment, and am trying a different program. Only problem is having to wear my flack vest for 9 hrs a day still. That def doesn’t help the soreness! I run after work and lift in the mornings before work. I’m actually getting up in about 5 hrs (it’s almost 1 am here now) to get in my shoulder workout. We’ve got a 9mm range tomorrow before we go to the ecp (entry control point) so I gotta make it early. On that note, I’m going to bed!

you may or may not have noticed that i don’t have any workouts on my page after 30 dec 07. that’s cuz i haven’t worked out since then. i was supposed to start again on the 1st. but the new schedule and wakeup time kicked my ass that day and the next, slept right until it was time to eat, shower, and sleep. yesterday i went at 1545. cody said he’s usually there at 1530. no cody. and when he wasn’t there i didn’t know what to do….it made me feel mad and pathetic. i don’t NEED to have anybody else there with me to workout!! what is my problem?! when we talked before and basically decided to throw out my whole workout program, i was willing to do what he said. but i didn’t think about when he wasn’t around. i found myself not sure of what muscle groups even to exercise! had to work tmc today. hopefully cody is there tomorrow, so i can learn more about this new program. need to look up abit too. do my own homework from now on!!! i will not get this frustrated about stupid crap like this anymore, that i CAN fix! so what if what i was doing got scratched? i can figure out new, better ways too, without having to depend on somebody. this is all about improving myself and learning everything i can!

damn it…my ipod plug broke on me. i have the new ipod shuffle; the one w/out a screen that clips on. the plug for it broke. good thing is i just got a package from my mama and it only took 6 days to get here.

alrighty now that i’ve had my nice lil break and got to see my husband (if only for a couple of hours) it’s time to get started again. tomorrow i will be at the gym at about 1515. it’s later than MY normal time, but i’m fixin to try it with this lt.  his 1st name is cody so i can quit calling him the lt ha ha. i’m gonna do a warmup again and i plan on doing cardio afterwards on most days. i finally got my schedule. i’m at the ecp all days except 2. 1 day i’m at the tmc and the other i’m off. while at the tmc i don’t get off til about 2000 so that will be one of my workout days off. other than that i’ll see what cody’s schedule looks like and try to cordinate with him best as possible. so i got to see tony and pin him yesterday! it was pretty cool. i had someone record it all for me. it was pretty nice to hear him thank me too. lol so now with all that extra money i should get another couple pairs of shoes…lmao joke!

as i write this i’m going through my music to make a better motivating playlist for workouts. i was listening to the same 15 songs for the last week! went to the gym today to do abs/glutes. was attempting to do weighted side bends when someone came up to me to give me some pointers. i usually get REALLY annoyed if someone tries to talk to me or interrupt me at all. but i listened..and thank goodness i did! after tryin what he showed me i could definatly feel the burn in my obliques. i always felt a lil "off" when doing those! lmao guess it was good that i had that humbling experience cuz then i had someone else come up to me. this was one of those big, good looking guys that i would’ve said was a little dicked bone head. plz realize that i’m attached to an all male battery right now, they all think they’re badasses; turns out most of em are pricks. so anyways he did have some good information to share. he has won a couple army bodybuilding contests. then he also offered to be my workout partner. i’m pulled between saying yes and no right now. i really do think that it would benefit me in transforming my body. on the other hand, having already spent a year + in iraq i know how many rumours get started when you spend any amount of time around a male. i think i am going to try it. this is for me! i did make sure to mention Tony a couple times though..gotta set the boundarys. just found out today that i DO get to go pin my husband! i’m so proud of him, i know how much he’s put into this. he makes a great nco. i really appreciate everything our units have done so far to help us out. oh! that reminds me….i’d like to thank everyone on here who has even checked out my page. everyone on here is SO encouraging. i wasn’t expecting that. it really is a GREAT motivator. so, thank you yall, i won’t let you down!

So i took my 1st set of progress pics today. the camera sure doesn’t lie but i wish it did! lol i’m actually alot more optomistic though. i know i have been eating a ton healthier than i had been in the states. once i got my butt in the gym & did some stuff i remembered why i love doing it. that makes it alot easier to continue. i realize that i’ve only done about 6 workouts in december, and that i still have over 14 months left! ha ha even though they were still embarrassing it kinda feels good to take pictures, just to track progress, or lack of. i noticed that i need to make a workout playlist for my ipod. i’ve been turning it to the same couple songs every day. i like the dance stuff (britney spear’s Blackout) and pretty heavy stuff (bullet for my valentine). i’m almost through my 1st week of consistantly exercising. tomorrow is ab/glutes. then sunday’s my off day this week. my husband, Tony, is getting pinned his e-5 on the 1st. it’s in the works right now for me to fly there to pin him. i’m really excited. he’s worked hard for it and definatly deserves the pay raise. (i don’t just say that, i’ve worked with him lots) the only part about it that i’m not so excited about is the interuption in training. just gotta make sure i get right back on track as soon as i get "home". also i weighed myself today. 162 to 173! but i think i realized my mistake. i weighed myself on a scale before, so i possibly just screwed it up. the scale today was digital. but from now on i will be using the same scale so i can notice differences; human error or not. lol  i feel kinda retarded for that one, but i would be more happy if i just screwed it up rather than having actually gained all that weight! hopefully more progress next month!

christmas over here is very depressing. stuck working ecp’s in the iz, which is totally gay. if that’s all we’re doing why are we here? haven’t seen tony in a lil over a week and no talking on the phone. so i had to push myself to go to the gym yesterday. oh man it was great! i can’t believe i waited that long to get off my ass and go! only prob was i forgot my ipod. that’s essential with no partner and being the only female in the gym lifting with all the guys. blah. i love pushing myself. now that i’ve improved on my form over the last year i feel more comfortable going through my sessions with myself. i could definatly feel the burn in my chest, legs, and back before i was even done. i got pretty excited when i saw a fit/buff guy doing straight-legged deadlifts; one of the exercises i’d just done! freakin’ love the endorpines!!!

today i went again. and remembered my ipod. lol. takes me almost 1 1/2 hrs to finish. noticed at least 4 guys staring today. wish there was a female only gym! makes me so self-concious. esp cuz i’m weak as shit. had some problems lifting even just the bar today  ha ha. that’s prob 3/4 of the reason you don’t normally see females lifting weights. damn males…those stairs in the palace are killer! it’s 9 flights to the 3rd floor! i was proud of myself on that too; was going pretty fast, wasn’t as super hard as i thought it would be.i’m definatly loving the time to myself. gotta have a way to vent etc out here!

Ok, so 28 Dec coming up in like 5 days. that’s the day a month ago that i took my first disgusting pics. i’m already feeling a lil down cuz i haven’t noticed any differences. i was actually working out and lifting while in kuwait. i stopped during the travel of course, but haven’t pushed myself enough to get started now that i’m here in iraq. we should get our schedule within this week and that will help me to plan for my workouts. i have been eating a TON better than i was in the rear for the last 23 days now. supposedly after you do something for 21 days it becomes a habit. now i just need to start eating even more healthy than that. i know most of the areas that i need to improve on…now it’s just doing it. my main goal is really to get rid of my love handles. i could even deal with a little bit of a tummy.i know that i will tone overall while consistanly working out. so right now my only problem is actually getting started and motivating myself. that’s why i started this whole profile though so……