The Kitty Gato’s BodyBlog

Can I do it…pfff of course you can do it! Never for one second ever second guess yourself or doubt that you can do anything. If you put your mind, heart and soul into something you CAN do anything! Once negative thoughts and doubts come to play, they tend to overpower your goals.

Last night while promoting suppliments for my sponsor I sat there and thought to myself..can I do this?? (meaning, will I be ready for the comp)  This Saturday 7/26/08, I will be 12 weeks out till my competition. Reality really sunk in last night as I had time to think about it. "12 weeks, 12 freaking weeks is all I have to get my ass in gear and really lean up!" I almost started to doubt myself for a minute. I honestly had to step back and have a one on one with myself. I have come this far..training days and hours on end at the gym, giving up all the crappy food that I love, stopping the partying and social scene..all for what?? ALL for me…and only ME! This is what makes me happy, this is my drug. HELL yes I can do it! I might have to turn the gears up a few notches and really mentally be ready to diet, and I mean diet hard for 12 weeks. Don’t get me wrong I eat really really well now..but now is crunch time. There is no small bite of something sweet and delicious, or a cheat meal here and there..this is it, time to get serious! Think about it..what is a small 12 weeks of your life to sacrifice stupid indulgences?? 12 weeks is nothing…I CAN and I WILL do this!

Wish me luck

Not to mention here is my horoscope for today, how ironic

"Today is all about you and your goals. And yes, you do have some! Keep moving forward and don’t worry about the competition, if there is any. Things get better and better — they always do for you. "

I swear I am always a happy camper and always loving my life. Honestly I think I need to go to the Dr. to see why I am never moody or never ornery…weird I know..especially weird because I am a female. I guess it could be a number of things that make me soooo happy:

First and foremost I got my ass up early on a Saturday morning to do yoga…but I was super energized so I opted out of that idea and worked shoulders and back instead…and just got a freaking killer workout in….to top it off I still had energy after so I went roller blading…it relaxes me to put my headphones on and get in my zone.

Second, I cleaned my house from top to bottom..she looks good..I mean talk about sparking spic and span!! Not only am I happy that I have a clean house..but everyday I am so greatfull to be an independant woman. I don’t know many 23 (almost 24) year old women that own a house. I still don’t know why or how I did it but damn I love it. To know that I can afford my own bills with a nice house, nice car, decent things and do it on my own..is AMAZING!! Not that there is anything wrong with women that have a man in their life to help…I just appreciate my life and my situation.

Third, I just got home from a nice sushi dinner with my sister. It definately hit the spot..and I love every minute I get to spend with my sister/best friend..we just have a riot when we get together…she puts a smile on my face everyday.

Fourth, it is still the weekend and I have another day to do nothing…I have no idea what is in store for tomorrow, I am just glad it doesn’t involve working.

Well I’m just sitting here in my living room watching the movie 300 (having this feeling of euphoria, and drooling over the killer abs in this movie) I think I will call it a night.

Do you ever wish that you looked different?? Wish you were taller, had a different body type, whatever the reason?? Well for many years I always questioned myself and was so mad that I didn’t have this or didn’t have that, in my physical appearance. After many years of not liking my body I have finally come to the realization that, I am who I am. I use to always flip the Victoria’s Secret catalogue and think..”oh I would love to look like them”. I always wanted to be tall, skinny, slim and slender. Instead I was always short, stocky, muscular and had a little more junk in my truck then they did. It took many years to finally come to the terms that I am built this way; God gave me this body for a reason. I haven’t always loved myself, in fact I use to hate my body and my legs and my butt… I could go on an on. There are still things I wouldn’t mind to change..but that is why I work so hard..to make the best out of this body that I can. I think I look good..I am not as skinny as I was 3-5 years ago, but then again I was young and still growing and had a faster metabolism. I can say that I am a lot healthier and I feel the best I EVER have in my life. I have a great satisfaction now because I feel so healthy. When I eat crappy foods and when I don’t workout, I can honestly feel it. I feel unhealthy for a few days after, until I get back in my groove and back on track. If you have a positive attitude about your goals and your body good things will follow and you will be happier and you WILL achieve your goals! 

So the bottom line is..it’s not how skinny you are it’s how you feel about yourself and being comfortable with your body and in your own skin and the health benefits that go with all of it.  

4:30 am-Wake up and get ready for work

6:00 am-work 

4:30 pm-off work 

6:00 pm-gym 

8:00 pm ish-home 

9:00-9:30 pm-bed 

That is right that’s my life, and some people think I am crazy for working 10 1/2 hrs a day then going to the gym for another 1 1/2-2 hrs. I don’t think I am crazy at all, in fact I enjoy my life and I am one of the happiest people that I know of. I have adapted this lifestyle because I have been doing it for so long. I have taken time off here and there and I haven’t been as strict with my diet but when I look back at those times I was less energetic and less happy and less motivated. The highlight of my day is when I get off work knowing I get to go to the gym. It has almost become an addiction, I crave the feelings I get during and after a phenomenal workout. The gym is my second home and the tremendous people I have met there are like my other family.   

I come to work in the mornings and my co-workers ask..how was your night, what did you do? Ha..do you even need to ask this question..you know what I did..worked out! And some of them think I am crazy because I love working out so much..and they honestly don’t understand it. I have tried to explain it, but to truly appreciate the greatness from working out, you need to experience it on your own level…it really is a mind and body high. Working out is a mood regulator and the best anti-depressant anyone could ever know.  

My family laughs at me because I am always on the go. My cousin always asks…can’t you just sit down and do nothing..why are you always so active and constantly going?? And the answer to that is because I have to. If I sit down and be lazy I start getting anxiety..it is weird I know..but I love to constantly be doing something. For example my parents live about a mile and a half away, and instead of driving I will walk or run to their house. I just think as American’s we have formed a habit of laziness. Ya it might take 1 minute to drive to my moms..but that 15 minute walk is so relaxing and such a stress reliever, it is my chance to be alone and enjoy nature and just think.   

Lately a few of my friends want to go out and party every Friday and Saturday. I have some goals I am trying to achieve so I gave up alcohol and partying till my birthday..which is at the end of March. So my friends ask every weekend..lets go to the bar..and each time I turn them down….and I just nicely tell them “no, I am waking up in the morning to run bleachers or go to yoga….but thanks”. It is a greater satisfaction to me to get up when the sun is rising and get a good workout in, rather than coming home when the sun is rising and still being half drunk feeling like a pile of crap. I hate it when I am out late drinking and I spend and waste the whole next day catching up on sleep and feeling sick.   

What makes me happy is when I inspire other people and love to be an example to others. I love educating friends, family, random people and telling them my experiences and what workout I did the night before or what I ate or how I feel. I love to push people and make them a better person and really love who they are. You are born with one body and it might not be perfect, but you can make it be the best that it can be..with smart choices and healthy decisions.  

I think that being in a bad mood or good mood is all mental. I tell myself everyday that I am happy and I am in a good mood. I have been through some rough times in my life and I DO NOT dwell on it..I embrace it and think of them more like learning experiences. Life is too short to always be ornery or have pity parties. All it takes is positive thinking and be greatfull to have the things you have, to have family, to have friends, to have health..EVERYTHING!! I can’t stress being positive enough..just try it..you will see. When people ask how you are doing…don’t go on about how horrible something is…simply say I am doing great, fantastic, phenomenal..whatever it is…it will rub off to the next person..I promise.

Ok sorry I am done ranting about being happy..I just love life and love everything about being happy. And that is my life..sorta

Kat