terash’s BodyBlog

Hey Everyone…

Figured I would update everyone on whats been going with all my knee problems because we all know I have the knees of a 90 year old…LoL

As some of you might know I got xrays and ultrasounds done on both knees. Well I went back to the doctors for the results and they came back clean. Although this sounds good, it isn’t…it just means its a more serious problem that requires seeing a specialist. I told my doctor, the results may of come back clean but there are still days when I get out of bed and I can’t walk so she said she would refer me to a Rheumatology specialist. I was pretty nervous at first because I’ve heard from many people that appointments with these kind of specialist sometimes take up to 6 months to get. So I was quite excited when I found out that my appointment was scheduled for October 27th

So now all I have to do is wait for my appointment and pray for good results. My training is telling me that I mite need surgery but I am trying to be optamistic!!!

So everyone cross your fingers for me…

Hey Everyone,

Ok so it’s Friday morning for me at 7am and I’ve now been awake for 22 hours…obviously must explain LoL

Yesterday I woke up at 9am to get ready for work. I started work at 10am and worked till 5pm. Than I went home and relaxed before going to my next at the bar for 8pm. I than proceeded to work from 8pm until 2:30am and got home at 3am. The thing about it is that I had a bunch of stuffed planned for today including a visit to my doctors, obviously a trip to my gym, than some grocery shopping and back home to make up some yummy food for dinner. Now with everything I knew I wanted to accomplish on my Friday I just knew there was no way that I could go to sleep. If I went to sleep when I got home at 3am I knew there was no way that I was going to get up with enough time to make my appointment at 12:15, plus do all the other stuff I wanted to do for the day…

So I don’t know if it was logical or just the 13 and half hour work day weighting down the part of my brain that would tell me this was a bad idea…LoL

The real test now though is going to be when I get up off the couch and leave in about an hour to hit the gym!! That should be interesting hehehe I’ll definitely report back if my someone finds me sleeping in the corner five hours later

Hope everyone has a great Friday!!

Hey everyone…

This week has been amazing!! I made up my clean eating plan last week and on Sunday went grocery shopping. I than spent all day making my meals for this week So far it’s been a huge success, clean eating has been going really well!!! I’ve been following my eating plan to the T…except for one little slip up Monday night. I was at work and unforunately I work at a bar where there is a lot of fried food. So yes I did indulge in some fries and gravy, but than it was right back on my clean eating plan and it’s great!!!

Also must report that I did finally go to my doctors to get the results from my xrays and ultrasounds. Although this seems like good news it’s actually bad news, they results came back clean. I proceeded to tell my doctor that there is still something with my knees as there are days when I can’t walk. The next step now is that I have to go see a specialist. So now all I can do is wait for my appointment with the specialist, which in Toronto can take up to six months.

So now I all I can do it stay on my clean eating plan (yay!!) and keep working out to the best of my abilities at the moment

Go me…LoL

Hey Everyone…

Monday morning…yay!! I love a new week, almost like any mistakes you made in your training or diet last week are in the past and it’s a brand new start, where anything can happen LoL Yes I am optimistic like this, well I try to be LoL

So woke up this morning with a little bit of a stomach ache so kind of just chilling on my couch right now waiting for it to go away…but pretty much as soon as I am done this blog I am getting my butt off the couch and heading to the gym for some awesome cardio, which I have definitely been craving!!! Then something that has been LONG overdue…I am going to make a trip to my doctors, yes I am finally doing it and once I have my results for my knees I will post a blog and let everyone know…since everyone has been really supportive and curious about how my knees are doing

Thanks by the way for all support I have been receiving on everything from my knee problems and getting back on the fitness wagon You guys are awesome!!

Will definitely report back soon…

Afternoon everyone…

A little sore today from meeting with my training yesterday for my upper body and since he knows I’ve been slacking he kicked my ass LoL Since yesterday morning though my left knee has been killing me for no reason, so when I was at the gym my trainer advised against any cardio, which is something I was really looking forward too

I was hoping I could wake up today and be able to hit the gym for abs and cardio, but after waking up and walking around for a bit the left knee still seems to be acting up so I’m thinking against it…not what I was hoping for today because more than ever I want to be back into the gym and hitting that bike burning off this fat LoL

On a side note…anyone familiar with the product Clenbuterol, commonly referred to as Clen?? My training is talking to me about, but I wanted to see if anyone on here had heard about it and what they’re opinions were on it…

So…I bet you all thought I had fallen off the face of the Earth, but here I am back and breathing LoL

Its been an interesting couple of months and not ones that I say I am proud of. After hurting my knees to the point of not being to work out my lower body I feel into quite a slum…well lets face it, I got lazy and used my knee problems as an excuse to be lazy without feeling to bad about it. It didn’t need to happen because I was more than capable of working out my upper body, but well things happen. Not to mention the fact that my great eating habits which I was always so proud of went out the window…actually I think they went to a different country Lmao

So here I am trying to get my life back into order, I’ve talked to my trainer and explained to him that I am ready to start over, which is what Ill have to do because well lets just say my body got a little jiggle back to it…LoL

There are still some things I need to work out, the biggest one is figuring out what is wrong with my damn knees that act like they belong to a 90 year old woman. And don’t yell at me LoL, but after I got the xray and ultra sounds done I never went to get the test results…so obviously this is number one on my list. My doctor is back from vacation on July 14th and trust me I will first in her office to get these knees fixed once and for all. Once that happens I’m hoping that everything falls back into place. And I believe it because I want it to so badly. I want to be in the gym again and eating healthy and all that jazz.

So here I go…wish me luck And obviously advice is always welcome and probably needed

Ok…so I just finished at the gym and I had to write another post because today during and after my workout I feel AMAZING!!!!!!!

It was like the old me in the gym, actually even better!! I felt friggen amazing and confident and it was yeah just AMAZING!! LoL I don’t know why I felt that way the other day but everything today has changed and I know realize that I am going to accomplish anything I put my mind too and nothing is going to stand in my way!!

So I know this is short, but definitely sweet and I just had to share the good news!!!!

Since my last blog things have gotten better

I did some research and found a competition that’s going on in Toronto in July. This competition makes so much more sense for me to do for a few reasons…one, it’s in Toronto so I don’t have to travel!! and two I now have twelve weeks to prepare instead of eight weeks which calms my nerves!! Changing the competition has definitely made me feel better because I didn’t want to pull out of competitions completely, but I started to realize that I wouldn’t be happy if I only gave myself eight weeks to prepare…so this works out…IDFA Toronto Classics here I come!!!!

Also I went grocery shopping yesterday and bought all my food according to the clean eating diet from Tosca’s book. It was definitely different going into the grocery and spending 99% of my time on the outer walls of the supermarket. Once I realized that though and all the fresh food I was getting it make me feel good!!! Then I came home and made up meals for the next three days Being prepared like this is making me feel good and making me feel like I can actually accomplish this!!

Now I’m off to the gym to hopefully kill it with my leg workout!!! And then come hell or high water hop on that tredmill and KILL IT!!!!

So Im hoping writing this post will make me feel better cause it will get some things off my chest!!!

I entering into eight weeks before my competition and I have definitely been telling everyone who will listen about the upcoming date…so everyone I know knows about this competition!!! This week has been ok…I’ve been hitting the gym hard and getting my diet in order. The problem that I’m running into is that because of the upcoming competition I’m judging myself harder than ever. Before I decided to do the competition I was happy with the way things were coming along, which is why I decided to enter into the competition, but now that I’ve made the final decision to enter the competition and have basically told everyone I know I feel myself doubting my body. I’m getting it into my head that I can’t do and that I’m fat and am basically stupid for even thinking I would be ready for a competition in eights weeks!!! Since I’ve start getting these thoughts in my head and thinking that I’m fat and can’t do it my motivation level is dropping…rapidly!!! I feel unmotivated and even starting to feel depressed!!!

So basically this could not come at a worse time…I’m eights weeks from the competition I am suppose to do and I can’t even find the motivation to get on the tredmill to run off that fat!!!! This is a BIG problem and I don’t know how to get past it Everything seems to be coming a part faster than I can pick up the pieces and put them back together again…again I’m lost and I don’t know how to fix it!!!

 And instead of this blog helping to calm my nerves and get things off my chest…I know feel worse than ever and basically almost in tears Great…

So everything this week has been going really well so far

I got to the gym both Monday morning and Tuesday morning. Tuesday I did a crazy leg workout that has left me pretty sore today, but still going to get in an arms workout later today at the gym!!!

Other than the gym though, some big have happened!!! I made the official decision the other day to enter into my first competition!!!!!! The competition I’m entering into is the 2009 FAME World Championships. Its June 12-14th in Montreal which means I have 8 weeks to prepare for it.

It was something I’ve been contemplating for awhile and then the other day I was doing research and found this competition in Montreal which is very accesiable to me. Then I started talking to one of my really good friends who has been doing compeition for years and she thought it was a great idea and even offered to help me prepare for it. As soon as I knew she would help me prepare for it I was set and made the decision that I was going to do it!!!

I have to admit I’m pretty nervous because in real life I’m kinda shy!!! But this will be chance to show everyone what I’m made of and I’m pretty excited for it!! Lets just hope I don’t slip and fall on the stage hahahaha

So thats all the big news for now…will definitely keep my blog updated now cause I’m sure I want to rant and rave about all the crazy things that I’m doing to prepare for this competition…Oh yeah there is already one…I have to give up alcohol for the next two months bah!!! LoL