teenyGreen’s BodyBlog

I had the best Christmas ever.  I have way too much sh*t for my kids and myself, so I need to figure out what to do with it, but it was stress free and blissful.  I worked out doing my DDR.  I am so addicted to that game.  I have to watch it.  I’m trying to add muscle.  So far it’s not working for me.  I’m just lean and muscular.  I don’t mind, but for competing I need to build some muscle in my upper body.

I didn’t cook, I didn’t clean, and I get to go to work tomorrow.  And shopping with my gift cards.  Woohoo!

I got an early Christmas present from my parents.  I sometimes feel like I’m to old for Christmas presents, but I can’t turn down something so cool.  That was my exercise today.  I will probably be afk for a few days.  My wrist hurts when I use my mouse.  I don’t want to get carpal tunnel, although I may already have it.  Have a Happy Holiday…

I need to get some batteries to take some more pics.  I am totally ripped.  I’m not sure how it happened.  I workout everyday. I lift very heavy usually doing 4-6 sets of 6-8 reps.  I completely stopped doing cardio, except for walking.  I do abs almost everyday.  Today I worked my arms

4-6 sets and 6-8 reps
Bb bicep curls 50lbs

preacher curls 35lbs

Cable curls 30lbs

Skull Crushers 30lbs

Db Tricep kick backs 20lbs

Hanging legs bw 3 sets/12

yoga stretch

I had a fabulous day.  I love my job.  It would be great if I made more money.  I just need to get insurance and train people from home.  I would still work at the gym.  I am loving a free membership.  Can’t wait to post more pics.  I am so solid; it’s ridiculous.  Happy Holidays

I had a bit of drama at the gym with a member.  He seems to think, because he is going to school for personal training he can give people advice, after I have advised them.  I went to help one girl do lat pulldown, then he goes over and had her reverse her grip.  I talked to his ass about it.  He also sings very loud at the gym.  I got on him for that.  I also put him in his place.  I’m with a client she starts doing tricep kickbacks with 15lbs.  She mentioned it was to heavy so we went down to 12lbs, perfect weight for her.  He comes by as I’m switching her weight and says, “damn, that’s way to heavy, I do 10lbs on that.”  The nerve, my reply was “I do 20.”  Which is true and my client was doing 12lbs and she is a very strong woman.  She does very well.  I imagine I will have to deal with this guy in the future.  I am very professional.  But he makes it difficult.  Some men and their stereotypes about women.  Dumbas$$es.

I met with another trainer today.  I kind of feel like I’m cheating on John. I need to get in touch with him.  I’ll hand deliver a Christmas card to his store.  The trainer I met today is awesome.  Arizona ladies pm me if you are competing and want to go to an affordable studio to be trained with diet and everything.  He really has a great thing going.  He’s the owner of a gym I used to go to, back when I was overweight.  He didn’t recognize me of course, but it was really cool to see him again.  He is trained by Charles Glass.  The guy really is awesome, but I don’t know if I will mesh well with his clan.  I’m a lone wolf when it comes to competing.  I don’t know if I could handle being nice to other women that are training in the same show I am doing.  I probably should get over that.  Women need more reasons to stick together, not catfight.  But I really don’t want to go into something were I’m going to be the b*tch of the “family”.

I love my trainer John anyway.  He is all about being number 1.  He kicks my ass and he gets mean.  Until the end getting his “wow you did great” was worth so much.  Plus he loves training me, he said I am a very good student.  I think I will go with him.  Maybe if I don’t place at NPC, I’ll go with the other guy.  I want to get to the USA show in Vegas.  That’s what it is about for me.

New trainer spoke of creating a support group.  Which is awesome, but I thrive off of negativity.  That really motivates me.  I get support too from my trainer, and my brother inlaws when they compete with me, but I don’t want to be supported by my competitors.  I don’t know. We shall see.  I don’t start training until February.  I need to save up money.  We have a lot of stuff we want to do this year.

My workout was good.  I did arms.  I went super heavy for me:

4-6 sets 4-8 reps

45 degree curls 45lbs

concentration curls 20lbs

cable curls with both arms 25lbs

tricep kickbacks 20lbs

tricep extension 30lbs

tricep push down 50lbs

I guess parents still know best.  I’m a bit sick…I went back to my old job today.  I don’t like watching my kids or spending time with them.  It’s mean to say, but it is for some people and I tried to be the perfect Stepford wife that stayed home with the brats, but I was miserable.  I used to binge drink at least once a month.  i would go out with my friends.  I think that’s the only reason I was able to be with them so long.  I find it absolutely intolerable.  I need to make enough money to leave them in daycare everyday.  So that is my new goal.  I’m also going to postpone contest training and do summer shows.  Hopefully, I will have a nearly full schedule by then.

Yeah, the house is destroyed.  I have no will to do anything.  I just kind of zone out when they are being really bad, because I try to relax, I don’t spank them.  They have most of the ornaments off the tree, they keep playing with the wires, they’re pulling down vertical blinds, jumping off the furniture, kicking the tv, they are just being little animals.  I don’t get why I ran the hell out of them earlier, they biked, we played all the stupid kids game Hokey Pokey, etc.  They just got up from a "quite time nap".   I’m just not happy doing it.  I would rather not be around kids.

I didn’t like kids before I had them.  I guess I don’t like my children either, I love them.  But yeah I’m sick of the little ones.  I’m not angry, just unhappy when I’m with them alone.

Today I wrecked my legs.  I’m sure they will be nice and sore in a couple of days.  My lats are still burning from Thursday’s workout, or was that Friday?

Squat 100lbs 4*15

SLDL 95lbs 4*15 (i might be wrong on the weight, but I think I have 25’s on each side)

45 degree leg press 100lbs 4*15

seated calf raise 60lbs 4*12

superset adductor and abductor 70lbs/50lbs 4*25

lower abs 4*10

I warmed up with the Stairstepper for 20 minutes.  That thing is a b*tch.  Hopefully, it will give me an ass.

I ate more today than I have eaten all week.  Smoothie for breakfast, nuts, grapes, V8, rice, and a big bowl of Gumbo.  I think I’m going to talk to my doctor about my lack of appetite.  It seems to happen when I get stressed out.  My family is not having an easy time adjusting to mommy going back to work, not being an f-ing doormat, and cleaning up after all of their lazy butts.  Well I can’t expect much from the children.  I’m really just pissed at my husband now.  He’s still not home.  He’s going out with his buddies.  I just wish he would let me know a few hours in advance.  I know every Monday and Wednesday night is Ju Jitsu, but he can let me know before he leaves if they are going to a bar afterwards, right?

I didn’t go workout today.  I had to help put up the Christmas tree.  What a pain in the ass?  I would so do without it if I didn’t have kids.  I’m so not in the “Christmas spirit”.  I’m actually listening to Adam Sandler’s Hanukah song.  He’s so funny.  But aside from that.  I’m sick of doing crap for the sake of everyone else.  I’m just pissed, my family is driving me nuts.  They aren’t adjusting well to mommy going back to work.  I think my husband has the hardest time of all.  He expects me to continue cooking, cleaning, and watching the kids.  He has not been very helpful around the house, but I must say he has been helpful watching the kids.  Unfortunately, he lets them wreck the house.  I don’t even know where to start with the cleaning.  It just seems overwhelming.  So I went in my room and started there.  Now I’m on the internet…

And wtf my parents made Gumbo today, and didn’t invite me over.  What the hell?  They claimed they don’t know what I eat now.  I am gluten intolerant, but there isn’t a whole lot of flour in Gumbo.  Oh well, my dad will drop some off tomorrow.  I can’t b*tch to much…

I love my job so much I’ve been working for free.My manager had to let me know I need to “clock in”, but he’ll reimburse me for the time I was training.  I’ve just been hanging out and talking to people, trying to find some clients, and working out.  I need to fill my appointment book so I can make some money.  I had a killer lat workout.  One of the trainers I work with has been with the gym for 6 years, and he gave me some pointers.  Nice guy.

I did:

Bike for 30 min

Bent over row  60*6 50*8 50*8 50*7

Cable bent row w/curved bar 50*8 50*8 50*8 50*8

Lat pull down 87.5*8 87.5*8 87.5*8 80*8

Upright row 40*8 40*5 30*8 30*7

I have a good burn in my lats.  I also did posing in between my sets and stretching.  I’m going to continue with that.  My back pose was lacking and probably why I didn’t place well.  I’m hoping to bulk up my upper body.  I need to eat more.  My diet was to pitiful to list.

I’ve been up and down, stressed, and horny.  But now I feel calm, peaceful, hopeful, loved, blissful, radiant, sexy, confident—happy.  I’m just hanging out at home doing some internet networking, waiting to hear from my Supervisor.  He’s such a cutie, I would love to tie him up and …I’ll probably train a few people today, go shopping for some new workout clothes, go workout, run some errands without the kids.  They are at daycare.  It’s so great.  My youngest’s teacher is potty training her.  I think I did it perfectly.  I kept them home until I couldn’t stand it anymore.  Five years…They flew by.  I miss when they were babies.  I definitely need to enjoy the break, and then enjoy spending time with them again.  I am going to stay with them two days a week and Sundays to keep the bond until they go to school.

Gahd the only way life could get better is if we get out of debt and find the perfect house in our price range.  It used to be you could get a huge house in Tempe for 250k.  Now you get a shack.  It’s getting better though we actually saw some decent houses for 225k.  It just sucks we have high standards, because we know what the prices used to be. But I can’t complain.  My blood clot is stable.  I look great, I feel great, Blessed by God this is what happiness feels like…