teenyGreen’s BodyBlog

I don’t know why I am trying to do everything, but study for my test right now.  I’m ahead a few chapters in my study.  I have only 3 more before I review and take the practice test.  Instead I’ve been playing dress up and taking pictures.  Bad ass pics not sexy ones, sorry.  Maybe I’ll post the ones I took in my underwear another time.

I have so much history with this outfit–the jeans and white halter top.  Surprisingly, everytime I wear it out to the clubs or a bar people ask if I model.  Here is the back

Of course, pretend I’m wearing a low back corset underneath, makeup, and heels.  I would probably do my hair different too.  But my point is I haven’t worn this shirt,if you want to even call it a shirt in 6 or 7 years.  That was back when I was skinny.  I hope I’m not getting skinny fat.  I don’t lift as much as I used too.  I’ve been losing weight slowly.  I actually fit into a size 3 dress I haven’t worn in about the same time frame 6,7, 8 years.  Weird how I’ve hung onto my skinny clothes?  Thank goodness, I wouldn’t have anything to wear…My tat is of a starfish, because I bought one for my then boyfriend, now husband, and all my friends were getting tats when I was 18 on a trip to San Diego

I’m wasting time messing around on the internet, it’s time to blog.

I was pissed at Bodyspace and still am a bit, because of the changes made in their transformation "contest" which seems like it will be more like the "Biggest Loser" on that tv network.  Very disappointing that a bodybuilding site wouldn’t allow body builders to participate in the contest.  I see what they are trying to do.  They want to take the average overweight Joe and make him a bodybuilder, but it’s still disappointing that it is going that way and unless any of my friends are picked, I doubt I will follow it.  I have bulking and cutting to do for my show in March.

I have been studying to pass my pt exam.  I’m learning so much info, it’s very exciting for me.  I decided to try to employ some of the suggests listed in the textbook.  One in particular that I thought was total bs was the 1 set of 12-20 reps with 10 different exercise circuit.  I didn’t think that would actually constitute a workout.   I also couldn’t see how anyone could benefit from it.

For yesterday’s workout I did a circuit of 10 exercises 12-20 reps just one set and I stretched the previous muscle trained between exercises.  I did:

20 reps and used 15 lbs dumbbells for each exercise unless listed otherwise

shoulder press

bench press

bent over rows

bicep curl

tri extention

squats

stiff leg deadlift

calf raises (with barbell 135lbs)

abs (no weight)

It was a great pump workout.  It woke me up, gave me a bit of energy, loosened me up, and improved my mood.  Very cool, now I’m going back to study.  It’s mid day and I have 4 more chapters to get through. Later

I’m staying home for Thanksgiving.  I sick of people’s b-s.  I’m staying home for Thanksgiving, cuz I am a mean little b*tch.  (sung to the tune of “I’m getting nothing for Christmas)

Maybe I’ll add verses on my next 15 minute online sessions.  I’m getting my books today so I won’t even be reading ebooks online.  I don’t know if I can handle it.  I love my computer more than any other possession.  I miss my StarStation.  Withdrawal, must remove myself from computer 15 minutes are up.  F it five more minutes, I have to check my email to see how a certain person feels about us ditching them for Thanksgiving.  I just stopped and thought “why do I want to subject myself to my inlaws drama?”  My husband came home 2 hours and 40 minutes late dealing with inlaw drama, other crap drama.  And we had an argument.  I’m dealing with drama over the food I was going to bring even before the day, because I didn’t want to bring more stuff.  Each group should bring one dish, dessert, or whatever, not a few select people bring a meal, wine, and juice, and everyone else bring wine, because someone’s friends are too cool to cook or buy some prepackaged item.  Done with my rant.

I will include my email to unsaid person, because I thought it was quite tactful, and I’m proud I didn’t use any obscenities:

I understand why you are frustrated.  It was a year ago, and I remember it differently.  I didn't mean to offend

you.  I was annoyed some people took the wine home, including what I brought, so I just didn't want to bring

some this year.  I don't drink anymore either.

I'm anxious about all the drama that may happen at the Green Thanksgiving.  I decided to stay home

and cook for my family this year.  I hope they don't drive you crazy, and you get a chance to relax.

Montine

I met my quota.  I really felt like ranting about how much I hate Thanksgiving, but instead I will just write how much I would really like to rant about how much I hate Thanksgiving.  Maybe someone I know IRL will read it.

I always claim I am going to do that.  Well, I’m trying again.  I think 15 minutes in the morning, 15 in the afternoon, and 15 in the evening.  I can’t go cold turkey, I’m in a yahoo group that helps me organize my life, flylady group.  Anyway, I plan on doing my bench workout with my husband again.  I hope I can at least rep one at 135.  A few weeks ago I did two reps at 133 that’s why the site calculated 137 for a one rep max.  But I haven’t been able to do more.  I haven’t been all that consistent either.  Spending too much time sitting on my ass studying.  I feel like my ass is flattening.  What do I do?  I’m going to make a schedule.  Since I finally signed up for the exam.  You have to pay it all up front.  I’m taking it December 4^th.  I’ll find out if I pass and get my ACE certification the same day.  I’m a little nervous.

I’m looking forward to Thanksgiving this year.  We are going to have Thanksgiving with the inlaws, but I am prepared.  I have been seeing a counselor, she’s really a life coach and psychologist wrapped up in one.  We’ve been doing assertiveness training and reversing my “people-pleasing problem”(say that five times fast).  Thanksgiving in many ways will be my assertiveness, recovered people-pleaser exam.

This was the first night in a week that I’ve lifted weights.  My “unconventional” workouts include some strength conditioning so I wasn’t concerned about lifting.  I am getting weak in the arms.  I need to build those puppies up.

Tonight’s workout was a poor attempt at a full body workout.  I ended up leaving a ton of exercises out.  I did incline bench, bent over lateral rows, leg ext, and leg curls, plus I did wall squats in between sets.  Killer…Then I did “strippercise” for 30 minutes.  That sounds better than “unconventional” workouts, “strippercise”.  I secretly want to be a stripper.  The secrets out.  I haven’t been feeling as “randy”.  I think there was something in the water, or someone was drugging me.  I feel pretty normal, back to the 2-3 times a week, and I’m happy routine.  My husband is so disappointed, but he was happy again when I reminded him I no longer have the 7 year itch.

True story…A friend of mine thought I was anorexic.  She actually convinced me I was, and I needed to see a counselor that specialized in eating disorders.  My friend is an obsessive eater.  I am the opposite of her.  I eat to live, she loves to eat.  She can’t do normal portions either.  It has to be the whole bag of chips or cookies or cake.  I eat small frequent meals with protein and complex carbs.  I don’t really enjoy eating and much of the time I am so stressed out dealing with my kids, I don’t have an appetite.  But I eat, no matter how small an amount I eat.  I’m not obsessed with being a certain size either.  It’s pretty crazy that I led my self to believe I had an eating disorder.  She’s a friend, was she trying to help me.  Was she trying to sabotage me, or make me feel bad about myself?  She actually suggested I just force myself to eat more to “stretch” my stomach.  I don’t know what to think.  I recently found out she hasn’t been honest with me.  We’ve confided in each other about marital issues.  I feel kinda betrayed, kinda bummed, and kinda pissed.  I don’t know if she is full of shit and is just a manipulative b, or if she is a person hurting on the inside that is reaching out for help.

I saw her this weekend.  I didn’t recognize her.  She looked a lot bigger than when I saw her two weeks ago.  She told her husband she lost 5 pounds.  I think she gained weight.  Not for me to criticize, but she could not possible have lost weight.  I don’t know what to do with her.  I’ve talked with her husband about her weight problem too.  It seems like they are headed for divorce.  I hate being in the middle of their problems.  I feel like they are using me, because they don’t want to talk to each other.  What’s a girl to do?

I worry too much.  It’s not my problem.  It’s also not my place to let my friend know she is getting larger.  She knows…

It was a great game.  We won for those that didn’t watch.  The Suns haven’t been this good since I was a kid.  I actually watched the whole game.  It helped that we skipped the buffet.  I should count all the stairs we climbed as cardio.  Everywhere we went we took the stairs.  They should paint them.  Bare, gray concrete just looks dirty.

I am feeling a lot better.  I’ve been increasing my fluid and food intake.  I’m just studying.  I actually find myself surfing the web and Misc instead of studying.  It’s so cool I found my personal training manual in an online library.  I still want to get a hard copy for reference.  Technology has grown a bit since I was a kid.  I remember good ol’ DOS and 5.5” floppies.  Anyone remember when “the mouse” came out.  My mom had a little stuffed mouse that she kept by the computer.  We called it a computer mouse.

My husband and I were talking about what to get the kids for Christmas.  Then we realized how lucky we are that our kids are to young to want expensive presents.  If I had a teenager, I would go nuts.  You hear about kids getting coach purses, i-phones, and little dogs for Christmas.  I don’t think our kids would notice if it’s Christmas or not.  So I don’t plan on doing all of the extra crap I do every year that stresses me out, and leaves me pissed at my inlaws.  This holiday season will be like any other time of the month.  I’m not cooking we’ll go to other people’s houses for dinner, and I won’t bring an entire dinner with me.  No hosting any parties for me, unless, I negotiated with my husband, he cooks, plans, and cleans up everything after it, and I don’t have to be present.  I’m not doing presents for people either.  I might bake, only because I enjoy it, and if I ate all the food I baked I would gain 10 pounds.

But I am doing better, I have a larger appetite.  Lately, my meals have been:

M1 egg whites and veggies

M2 fruit smoothie

M3 soup and yam

M4 tuna and nuts

M5 chicken and rice

No workout today…I’m going to a basketball game.

I was in the hospital again.  This time it was from dehydration.  I lost a lot of fluid and passed out.  No workouts Sunday or Monday.  I’m disappointed, but it’s best not to lift weights when I feel nauseous.  I didn’t eat much either.  Hopefully, this little set back won’t affect me too much.  I need to lean out my legs and pump up my upper body.