teenyGreen’s BodyBlog

I’ll probably end up having surgery in a few weeks.  I don’t know how I feel about that.  I just hope I will stop having to deal with blood clots and shit forever.  That would be great.  I got a prescription for compression stockings.  I don’t look like such a weirdo anymore, with one white stocking.  Now I have nude hose.  I can fit in shorts again. 

I have a new love, SO delicious icecream.  It’s organic and made with soy instead of milk.  No sugar either and macros are good. 120 calories, 3.5 grams of fat, 23 grams of carbs, and 2 grams of protein per 1/2 cup.  It’s pretty tasty too.

I need a dietitian.  Five doctors have told me I have IBS.  I don’t really believe the diagnosis.  Medication has never helped me; it’s exasperated my problems.  I’m trying to eat clean and eat well for my condition.  I am usually bloated and constipated all the time.  Now I am retaining water in a ridiculous way.  I can’t seem to get the extra water off.  I’m going to break down and take a diuretic.  I don’t like doing that, because I think the water will just come back, but I feel like crap and am just not motivated.  I’m not even keeping track of what I’m eating.  I maybe ate three times yesterday.  I try to drink lots of juice for the calories and to stay hydrated. 

I’m having the hardest time finding out what is wrong with my leg.  I think there is a clot.  It hasn’t been confirmed by a doctor, so right now I have a time bomb in my leg.  I’m not on any blood thinners.  It’s driving me crazy.  The kids are out of control.  I don’t even have the time to focus on me.  I hope this gets better.

For now, I just pretend like nothing is wrong.  I’m going to run and do deadlifts today.  Tomorrow I have an angiogram.  They will put a catheter through my arteries and take X-rays.  Maybe then they will have  a clear picture of my leg, so they can do something about it.

It’s been two weeks since I’ve blogged.  That went by fast.  I’m not sure what happened.  I’ve been busy with the kids and their swim lessons.  They want to go swimming everyday.  I don’t love swimming.  I would probably hate it if it wasn’t so damn hot outside.  There’s really nothing else to do outside when it’s 116.  Gotta love AZ.

I’m still working out, I’m still running, still eating fairly clean.  I had some carob covered coconut bars and Soy ice cream.  It is surprizing how much this stuff tastes like the real thing.  Especially the soy cream. 

 I’m off again, but I think I will try to be around more.  When I blog my diet and training, I tend to be more motivated and focused on my goals.  I haven’t weighed myself in two weeks.  I probably haven’t lost a pound.  It’s frustrating when you have one fat leg.  My right leg is so slim and lean, but my left leg is swollen it looks like fat.  I wear this really great white stocking over it to keep it from swelling up even more.  It’s so great people stare at me like I’m a freaking weirdo.  I have a couple more procedures to go through this week.  Then hopefully next week when I speak with the surgeon, he’ll have something constructive to tell me.  I think I might have to give up the notion of competing in November.  They are moving so slow I don’t think my leg will be in a better state by then.  I might have to wait until March.  That won’t be the end of the world.