teenyGreen’s BodyBlog

I’ve been really bummed about my leg.  I’m just trying to look on the bright side.  Thank goodness I didn’t have these problems when I was prepping for my contest.  This leg development does mean I will definitely not do the show in June.  I am looking forward to an NPC show in November.  It gives me plenty of time to pack on some more muscle and learn how to spread my lats.  Why is that so dang hard for me?  I think about it too much.

Monday I started lifting again.  I did shoulders and back.  I plan on doing lower body Friday, just in case my leg gets to the point where I have to go to the ER again.  Hopefully, not I am trying to take it easy, but I refuse to sit around like a lump.  I don’t think that helps blood flow anyway.  Here’s my leg.  It’s mostly the calf that hurts.  It’s a beach.  Oh well, I have to stop feeling sorry for myself.  I’ve been really depressed about it.  It slows me down.  I feel frustrated and angry.  I really wanted my life to get back to normal after all the training. 

I spent most of yesterday in the ER.  I thought I had another blood clot, this time in my left calf.  No, thank goodness.  I’m fine and healthy.  My calf swelled up so bad during my morning run, I had to stop.  The doctor thought it was vein damage. 

It was fun in the ER.  There were lots of flirty cuties.  I recieved many compliments on how tone and muscular I am.  A female nurse asked me if I took steroids.  I don’t think I look that amazing.  What’s wrong with some chicks?  I guess they have to say something shitty.  My mama always told me if you don’t have anything nice to say don’t say nothing at all.  I’m sure she was jealous.  I was getting a lot of attention.  That was fun.  It made my day.   Actually not having a blood clot made my day.

I had a morning mishap, I forgot to mention.  I think I burned the incident from my mind.  Oh the horror.  I put on too much posing oil gel. I was so shiny the promoter stopped me and helped take the oil off.  All and all it was a good experience.  It would have been better without the people.  they all know who they are ’cause they’re going to hell.  Thank gahd I wore bright green. I don’t think you would be able to see me.  I’ll have more.  There were three professional photographers there.  Hopefully, there pics are less dark.  Thanks for your support yada yada.

I love Grace Jones.  I was a little out of my element when I competed, because I was covered in protan, had fake nails on, makeup, and a bikini.  So I thought of my idol for inspiration.  I am so going to be her for Halloween.  I’ll try to get Tom to be Conan the Destroyer.  How hot would that be? 

There’s a hostage situation with the comp pics.  But when I get them I will post them.  It’s very tricky and complicated to put digital pictures on a computer and then email them.  So you’ll have to be patient.  The process is very time consuming and does not take presidence over cleaning a home, which is also very complicated and time consuming. 

I’m feeling depressed.  I had some family drama.  I’m trying to adjust to all the attention I am getting now.  I don’t mean to be so beachy.  I don’t have any pics from my show yet.   That brings me down, because people are pissed at me.  People are jealous of me.  I love the way I look, but I also feel ashamed that people can’t handle it and have to stare.  I don’t think I’m that remarkable.  Anywho…Thank you all for your support and nice comments.  This is one place I don’t feel judged.  I hope it stays that way.  I feel bad for others who are so harshly judged. 

My first experience competing.  Weird.  I have only been paying attention to areas that I need to correct that I didn’t realize how I looked as a whole.  I judged myself too harshly and ending up being to self conscience during the prejudging.  I couldn’t keep it together.  I also was a little off on the timing so I didn’t have time to do my hair.  I’m very proud of myself.  I had the best body of all the figure women.  I just couldn’t display it properly.  I know I will do awesome next time.  I also had a mishap with a sponsor.  Which I suspect is why I was third as oppose to second.  I went to ask the woman about prices on some of her suits.  She proceeded to tell me everything that was wrong with my suit.  The color was bad. It was too big. It was too big, but we won’t go into all of that.  Then she apologized, I think she realized how unprofessional she was being and felt embarrassed.  I just said, that’s fine, there’s nothing I can do about my suit now. I chose the bright green, because when I looked at pics from the last show there were a few women in black and they blended into the background.  The curtains are black.  She said, “No, I put a girl in black today and I’ll show you with the stonework it doesn’t blend in.”  She showed me a picture she took of a white girl with a black suit on, and black hair in front of a black curtain with very minimal stonework on her camera, and she didn’t say anything. I said okay. The girl of course did not stand out against the background.  I don’t think I was in anyway rude.  But obviously this woman felt attacked.  This all occurred in front of a group of people.  She didn’t say anything to me after that.  She was backstage helping the girl in the black suit glue on her suit.  I don’t care.  I have much bigger dreams.  I want to be in a more competitive setting. 

The women I competed against were skinny fat.  No cuts in their legs.  It annoyed me, because I worked so hard to get my legs so cut, and they treated it like a bikini contest.  I obviously looked too hard for this show.  I plan on working up to NPC.  I’m thinking of ditching the whole natural show thing.   I can be natural and compete in a non tested show.  I find it hard to believe all NPC figure women take illegal products.  I don’t think that is likely at all.  People just assume, because the figure women in NPC look like athletes instead of bikini bimbos that they must take steroids.  I’m sure every show is different.  But I know I’m not a “bodybuilder” but compared to the women I competed against I looked like one.

I think I might have been too dry.  I don’t know.  I haven’t seen many pictures.  I’m hoping my sister inlaw will have them for me soon.  She took a ton.  She was so helpful.  So I’ll post them when I get them.  I’m tired and trying to recover from starving and being dehydrated.  So please forgive me when I type, leave me alone, I’ll post pics later. Thanks

I did a mock competition for a small audience.  It turned out to be very helpful.  I usually pose in front of a mirror, that’s my crutch.  I’m up early.  I’m off to do cardio and run errands.  Hopefully, I get my suit.  I’m trying not to stress about that.  I will explain what happened with all of that later.  I’m just trying not to freak out.

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I guess the low amounts of food and tons of water are not so bad.  It’s a lot easier when I eat some sweet potato with everything.  Thursday and Friday will suck, low water and no carbs.  I just keep thinking of chocolate chip pancakes Saturday morning and an ultimate cheese burger.  I was trying to find a package of dove minitures.  Couldn’t find them anywhere…wtf.  I have to get some by Friday.  that’s the only thing that is keeping me going.  Training was great yesterday. I was at the gym for just 2 hours which was a nice change.  I only did upper body
4 sets 30 reps

1. Cable crossovers 25lbs
2. Tri push down with ropes 20lbs
   
3. Lat pulldown close grip 50/40
   
4. Tricep kickbacks 10lbs
   
5. Preacher curls 25 lbs
   
6. shoulder lateral raise yellow bands
   

elliptical 40min
 

Today I will do lower body in two sessions

1. SLDL
2. sissy squats
3. Leg curls
4. Leg extention

5. Abductor
6. Adductor
7. seated calf
8. butt push
9. Hanging leg raises bw
10. decline reverse crunches

elliptical 30 minutes

I’m less motivated about the show.  I’m not sure why.  I have the training and the diet down.  I’m on auto pilot, but I’m not very motivated to do the last minute crap for the show.  Hopefully, that will change.

I’m not to happy about my meal plan for the next week.  John usually just tells me the totals in grams.  170 for protein, no more than 12 for fat, and 60 or less for carbs, he wrote on my week calendar.  I’m not very happy about that.  I’m also not thrilled about adding another cardio session in the afternoon.  Not very pleased about the no carb days coming up, real zero carb days.  I’m not looking forward to cutting my water from 3 gallons to 1/4 of a gallon.  Pretty disappointed about that.  I’m also suppose to keep up my lifts and posing.  That’s enough b*ching.  I’m not going to bother writing out what I will eat, it’s practically nothing.  More b*ching…I look fantastic.  I’m really happy with the gains I’ve made.  I’m still hopeful that my butt will come in better.  The tan covers a lot of the cheese so does my suit.  It’s funny everyone at the gym is doing wall squats now.  Side note there, I do wall squats for 30seconds to a minute between every single set no matter what I’m doing.  It works well and it keeps my intensity up during my workout…I’m stalling.  I really don’t feel like running.  Gahd, I run twice a day for 30 minutes. It’s killing me.  7 more days, chocolate pancakes for breakfast and candy the morning of the show.  that’s right haha.