teenyGreen’s BodyBlog

I would love to just have 15 minutes where I don’t get pissed on, or sit in pee, or step in pee.  I am so sick of eating and planning my diet, and so are my kids.  They are being li’l “bas-tards”.  Anywho, I am so happy I get to eat 4ounces less of chicken today.  Woo who…I need to stop being lazy and find out were I can get some cheap ground turkey.  I’m not a fan of turkey cutlets.  I also don’t want to cook a turkey, Thanksgiving style.  I think I can do a ground patty.  I’ll pretend it’s a burger.  I cut my hair pretty short for me.  My husband’s is pissed.  I love that he thinks he has a say in my appearance.  I don’t have much of a say for him.  He usually doesn’t do want I would like him to do, but he will change his clothes if I think he looks tacky.  I appreciate that.  Even if I’m not with him I want him to look good.  I don’t want people at his work talking about me letting him leave the house wrinkly and uncoordinated.  Anyway, I was sick of my back pic.  So this pic is very temporary.  I want a good picture for my avatar.  Other people have really cool pics and mine are lame. 

Meal 1 oats and chicken

Meal 2 rice and chicken

Meal 3 apple, chicken, salad, and almonds

Meal 4 oats and chicken

Meal 5 chicken and rice

Meal 6 rice and chicken

Totals 1734 cals, fat 20 grams, 221 for carb grams, and 179 for protein grams.  I’m trying to get perfect numbers, less than 20 for fat, 220 for carbs, and 180 for protein.  I’m going to see John and Robin today.  I was really lazy this week.  I should have gone to their place each day.  It’s just so much work.  I just want to eat, sleep, and workout.  I’ll be more motivated not to be such a shut in when I get some sleep.

Meal 1 chicken and oats

Meal 2 chicken and brown rice

Meal 3 chicken and oats

Meal 4 chicken and brown rice

Meal 5 chicken and brown rice

Meal 6 chicken salad

I’ve been a grade A b.  I feel a little better today.  I have so much to do.  I need to plan.  My oldest daughter was so cute this morning.  We were playing superhero in the mirror, that’s what she calls it when I flex, she’s three.  I did a side pose and was flexing my right shoulder looking at the beautiful vein popping out.  I said to Bree, “Look at mommy’s vein.  Do you see that honey, that’s called vascularity?  Can you say vascularity?”  She’s all “no”.  It made me laugh. 

Meal 1 chicken and oats

Meal 2 chicken, green apple, salad

Meal 3 chicken and brown rice

Meal 4 chicken and broccoli

Meal 5 chicken and broccoli

Meal 6 just plain damn dry shredded chicken

Totals 1277 cals, 16 grams fat, 99 grams of carbs, 189 grams of protein. 

On the pics, I know my arms are off.  I need more practice.  It’s so hard when you’re not in front of a mirror.

I’m in a bad mood, so I am going to complain about everyone.  My kids just peed on the coffee table and started swimming in it.  My husband called to ask me a stupid question.  I don’t remember what it was, but it really pissed me off.  My bil, Mike, still hasn’t dropped off the copy of Muscle Mag.  He said he would two weeks ago.  My sil doesn’t return my calls, and is a jealous b.  My mil is just crazy, and expects us to go to some stupid party next weekend to spend time with her family from out of town, and watch them stuff their guts like pigs.  I don’t even know what’s up with my friends.  Whatever they suck. I just don’t feel like doing anything but sleeping, eating, and working out.  I don’t have time for your drama, and I really don’t give a sh*t.  Then telemarketers,  I will beat you down if I ever see you.  I will beat you down.  I’m so not kidding, I hate telemarketers.  The bank, what the hell, I’m getting emails about my account at Bank of America.  What is that?  I don’t have an account with Bank of America.  The emails say, don’t reply to the email.  What…

I am so psyched about my contest.  I met with Robin and John for three hours yesterday.  I now know the proper way to pose.  I should have taken pics.  Oh well.  I still have more practice to do.
I’m cutting practically everything from my diet.  I’m just eating chicken, green apples, brown rice, yams, oats, almonds, turkey, and veggies.  My supps are now CLA (again) and L-Carnitine, before cardio workouts.  I totally have my confidence back.  I was so down over not meeting my expectations.  I realize now, I held back.  I should have pushed harder.  I guess I just let people talk me into doing crap "their way".  I wish I just went with my instincts.  Most of what Robin and John pointed out about my diet that was wrong I knew.  I just didn’t know how to fix it.  Training was dead on.  So I am so glad I do cardio.  I’ll probably spend a lot less time on the boards now.  What works for some people, definitely doesn’t work for me.
My diet will be very bland and boring.
Early morning run 1tbs L-Carnitine
Meal 1 chicken, CLA, and oats
Meal 2 chicken, salad, apple, and CLA
Meal 3 chicken, almonds, and brown rice
Afternoon cardio 1tbs L-Carnitine
Meal 4 chicken and broccoli
Meal 5 chicken and broccoli
Meal 6 chicken

Lots and lots of my favorite, boiled chicken.  The totals are 1259 cals, 15 grams fat, 96 grams carbs, and 188 grams of protein.  I’m trying not to exceed 20 grams of fat, 90 grams of carbs, and 180 grams of protein.
My training is just lift hard and heavy every day.  I like doing the push/pull thing.  I’ve just been alternating every day.  I skip the body parts that hurt.  I didn’t lift on Sunday.  I’m doing okay energywise.   We’ll see how it goes the next couple of days.  It’s sink or swim.
 

I had a mini meltdown after seeing my a$$ yesterday.  It’s not so bad.  It’s getting better.  I’m not posting the comparison pics, because I was in a thong.  I’m feeling much better, because I am meeting with John and Robin this Sunday.  I’ll be seeing them every Sunday until my contest, probably not Easter Sunday, so I’ll see them that Saturday.  We will work on posing, diet, and training.  I need help.  I really need someone that knows figure comp prep.  Bobby and Mike are great.  I’m so glad to have them.  I just need professional help, and they are giving me a great deal, because they’re friends with Bobby.  So excited.  So motivated.  I ran two miles this morning, was about to do three, and had to restrain myself. 

Today is a lo carb day, yesterday was no carb, cardio, which would explain the melt down. 

Meal 1 eggs and broccoli

Meal 2 pro shake with ab (almond butter)

Meal 3 chicken salad with dressing

Meal 4 chicken and broccoli

Meal 5 pro shake with ab

Meal 6 4oz pastrami

around 1200 cals 70% pro, 10%carb, 20% fat…forgot my fish oil, I only had 3g.  

Scratch the upper/lower body split, I’m going to try push/pull split.  I’ll work my legs every lift day.  Push exercises are bench, military press, squats, and lunges, and pull exercises are deadlifts, leg curls, arm curls, upright rows, lat pull down, chin ups, etc. 

I had a mini breakdown.  I called my husband and he’s like, "I love you just the way you are and you look great."  So I called my brother inlaw to get some real advice.  I suppose that is how husbands are suppose to be.  I just don’t care how great everything else looks my butt looks like sh*t.

No cornbeef, potatoes, BEER, or soda bread really sucks.  I hate dieting.  I can’t even deal with the temptation so I’m not even going out tonight.  My husband is.  I’m a little jealous and resentful.

My shoulder is much better.  I did chest and back today.  I didn’t lift a single weight it was all variations of pull ups and push ups.  I think I’ll be pretty sore.  I still have to do cardio.  I’ve been putting that off today, because my quads are so sore from the squats.  I’ve been dragging all day.  I ran out of coffee.  We bought some more beans, but we forgot to grind them. 

Yesterday was great.  I took a much needed rest day.  I had a lot of energy despite it being a no carb day. 

Weird, a no carb day, but I feel really good.  I messed up my left shoulder.  I hope I didn’t tear anything.  It sucks, there are so many exercises I can’t do.  I tried doing back work, but everything aggravated it.  Today I had a really great leg workout.  I may have to do legs or cardio tomorrow.  What else can I do without using my shoulder?  Maybe it wouldn’t be so bad to just work my right side.  That would probably make me uneven.  Anyway, back to my leg workout, Bobby stopped by and worked out with me.  It turned out to much more valuable than I ever thought possible.  I would have never guessed there are so many variations on the squat.  That’s all I did.  I really fried my legs.  Full squat, wide stance squat, and narrow stance squats, everything was burning.  Plus I learned about negatives, and I’m so cool and buff I did a couple of pull ups with a wide grip.  What are those called?  I’ve seen men do them all the time at the gym.  I never tried it. 

Contest prep is going along swimmingly.  Today was a no carb day, but since I ditched the fat burner, I had energy and no bowel problems.   I hope this lasts.  Maybe it’s that my husband and I have been celebrating our wedding anniversary all week.   I suppose I should be passed out now, but I thought, “I haven’t blogged in a while; I should before I forget what I did today.”

Meal 1 eggs and broccoli

Meal 2 tuna and salad

Meal 3 protein shake

Meal 4 chicken and broccoli

Meal 5 protein shake

Meal 6 chicken salad and dressing

I supplement with fish oil now, just 6grams a day.