teenyGreen’s BodyBlog

I’ve been looking for a clip that use to be on Youtube, but it’s no longer there.  Mad tv did a parody of Boy meets boy.  The part were Michael McDonald, dressed like a blonde chick with really bad fake boobs, says this is bullsh*t and runs crying out of the room, cracks me up.  I feel like that on no carbs days.  I’m just like this is bullsh*t, and I’m not competing.  Sometimes I just want to cry.  It’s so hard.  It’s not the food, It’s my body.  I get so moody, and my brain has the hardest time.   I can’t take critism, or comments.   My husband asked me if I worked out during the day, and I nearly bit his head off.  All sorts of drama didn’t help either.  But it will get better.  Just 7 more weeks.  I only have 2 to 3 no carbs days a week.  You think I would be over it.

Meal 1 eggs and broccoli
Meal 2 pro shake
Meal 3 chicken salad
Meal 4 pro shake
Meal 5 chicken and broccoli
Meal 6 chicken

My totals were 1024 calories, 79% from protein, 11% from carbs, and 12% from fat.  When I looked over my diet, I checked it a couple of times to make sure it was right.  That seems off to have 1024 cals and only 12% from fat.  I forgot to add my peanut butter to my protein shakes.  I really screwed up there.  Oh well. The kids are sick, and I haven’t been getting much sleep.  I’m just glad I remembered to eat every couple of hours.

I had a great workout today.  I did legs and arms, high volume.  My brothers inlaw suggest I hit each body part twice.  One time go lower volume, heavy weights, and the next high volume, lower weights.  I thought the high volume days would be easy, because back before I knew how to lift properly, I did 3 sets of 15 reps.  I never fatigued my muscle, I pretty much got a good cardio workout.  Well, brilliant new me now, knows how to fatigue the muscle with lighter weights too.  I’ve gotten good at guessing what weight I need to achieve this.  I did my 12 reps with 4 sets.  The last two reps for each set really killed.  I was surprised.  I thought I would have to go higher than 12.  (4 sets 12reps)

Standing curls 50lbs
Reverse curls 30lbs
Close grip bench 55
Seat tri ext. 30
Leg ext. 66
Front squat 50
Abs 2 sets upper and lower

It felt like the longest workout ever, but it only took and hour.  My new split

Monday Tuesday Wednesday Thursday Friday Saturday Sunday
Chest and
Shoulders Legs and Arms Shoulders and Back Legs and Chest Back and Arms

So far so good:I’m so happy to get emails that I inspire people.  I try to help people that are in my life that struggle with weight issues, and I have failed.  In fact, I feel like I feed the problem.  I really don’t care.  I don’t think everyone has to be fit and thin like me.  I don’t look down on people who are overweight and think they’re bad.  I used to be overweight myself.  I’m the same person I was then.  I just look different.  I feel so bad that anyone close to me could resent me.  I’ve had a hard time dealing with it.  My husband suggests not to talk about my competition so much around people who are trying to lose weight.  I’m going to do this.  I just don’t think I should have too.  Anyone have these issues?  It’s so incredibly stupid, I know, but it has become somewhat serious and has led to some unbelievable drama, that I really can’t say, because I shouldn’t even know.   I don’t know how to deal with it all.  I know it’s not all me.  People have their issues.  

I haven’t had much sleep in the past three days.  Both of my kids are sick.  My husband and I are next.  I can feel it creeping up in the back of my throat.  That’s annoying.  They have been so horrible.  I wish they would just take a nap at the same time so I could get some work done.  I can’t believe I have still been able to get my workouts in.  I have a new split.  I working everything twice a week.  Pretty ambitious.  I’m also doing cardio twice a day.  After posing and ab work, I workout 2  and a half hours five days a week.  Wow.  I worked up to this, it’s shocking to me.   I used to think I didn’t have time to workout.

Meal 1 pro pow, oatmeal, peach

Meal 2 2 multi grain tortillas, pastrami, dried fruit, and nuts

Meal 3 pro shake

Meal 4 chicken and broccoli

Meal 5 oatmeal, pro pow, raisins, pb toast

Meal 6 pineapple and eggs

My totals were 1845 calories, 37% from protein, 47% from carbs, and 19% from fat.

Saturday was my second legs day.  I still haven’t figured out how I can repeat my other body parts.  I need to do some more research.  I did:

stiff-leg deadlifts 78 two sets

            89 two sets

            111 three sets  great weight I could feel it all over

lunges bodyweight three sets

leg curls 66 one set

            61 two sets

abs with stability ball four sets

I love dead-lifts almost as much as squats.  I really killed my legs.  I’m so sore today I can barely walk.  I love it.  I did full lunges to, all the way to the ground.  I’m usually careful with lunges, because in my high school days.  My weight lifting teacher would have us do “dead walks around the auditorium.  On many occasions I wasn’t able to walk the next day.  I had killer legs in high school.  I want them back.  My ten year reunion is in May.  That will be interesting.

Meal 1 eggs broccoli

Meal 2 chicken salad

Meal 3 4oz chicken

Meal 4 pro shake with pb

Meal 5 tuna and broccoli

Meal 6 pro shake and pb

            *Diet ginger ale

My totals were 1194 calories, 69% from protein, 7% from carbs, and 24% from fat.

*Of course this has zero calories, but I cut it out, even though it is one of my faves, because it left my bloated the next day.  To counteract the affects, I didn’t screw the cap on all the way.  So it was flat diet Ginger ale, but it’s still sweet, cold, and tasty.  I tried mixing it with crystal light when it was fizzy.  It still bloated me out.  So I have to drink it flat.  Boo who:I didn’t workout on Friday.  It was a scheduled day off.  I’m trading Friday for Sunday.  Sundays will now be lo carb days, and back and calves.

On another note:  I’m totally psyched my mom is flying in from Denver to see my show.  That’s very cool, she’s so supportive.  Unfortunately, or fortunately, I haven’t figured out how I feel about this, my father and step mom will also be attending.  Hopefully, it won’t be weird like it was at my wedding.  It’s really my dad’s issue.  No one else’s.  Everyone else can place nice.  I don’t need the stress.  So I don’t care.  They’ll have to deal with each other. 

I found a new favorite exercise.  I almost like it as much as squats€”stiff-leg dead lifts.  Damn, after those I could hardly walk.  I felt it all in my back and forearms too. 

Meal 1 pineapple, protein powder, oatmeal

Meal 2 eggs broccoli

Meal 3 broccoli and chicken

Meal 4 rice, pineapple, and chicken

Meal 5 rice pineapple, and chicken, 2 toasts with pb

Meal 6 All bran and protein powder

Okay, I need to get back on track and post my diet. Surprisingly it helps me. It makes me evaluate the way I eat each day. Plus putting everything into fitday lets me know exactly how many calories I burned and consumed. Very cool. So yesterday was a low carb day.

Meal 1 oatmeal, pb, protein powder, peach

Meal 2 rice, corn, pineapple, chicken

Meal 3 CLA chicken and broccoli

Meal 4 All Bran, pro powder, and an apple

Meal 5 eggs

Meal 6 chicken, ½ pro shake and pb

My totals were 1840 calories, 47% from protein, 38% from carbs, and 19% from fat. I made the mistake of taking 2 Stim Xs at once. I was out of it all day. I didn’t feel jittery though. Just out of my mind. I received a creepy phone call at 10pm. Some little kid asking to speak to her mommy. When I told her she had the wrong number her voice changed, and she started to say, ” No I don’t. I hung up on her. It creeped me out so bad I stayed awake for another hour. Weird. I’m feeling a lot better. I can’t stop flexing in the mirror. Now I will focus on getting my lower body together. I want to train them at least twice a week with weights. It’s hard. I feel like I workout all day long. I run in the morning. Do cardio in the afternoon and try to lift then too. Usually, it’s just the cardio. Then I lift and practice posing at night. Plus I need to fit in ab work.. When: I don’t like my workouts to go longer than an hour. I have two kids that are jumping up and down all over me when I workout too long. They don’t take a nap anymore either. Which, thanks to StimX, I don’t either. That sucked when I would fall asleep on the couch and wake up to kids jumping on me without training pants on. Other parents will know what that means. I won’t go into details. Not fun. But I have to go, because it is 7 o’clock and I have to pump up my shoulders and biceps.

I need to take more pictures.  I get so down on myself sometimes.  I was practicing posing, and I usually just half ass it through the back pose.  This time I decided to use the medicine cabinet mirror, so I could actually see my back.  I was blown away.  My back has never looked like this.

If only I could do the poses right.  I need to find someone to help me.  When my arms are down, I don’t know how to flex my back.

It still looks mighty fine too me.

I’m trying to spread my lats here.  I need help.  I’m pretty proud.  That’s a milestone for me.  Eight more weeks of this, I can’t imagine how awesome I’ll look then.

I feel like I’ve been doing everything half assed lately.  This past weekend sucked.  It really put on damper on my training.  I’m sticking with it.  Still eating, still training, it’s so hard.  I just want to sleep.  I’m sick of food.  I haven’t felt like eating.  Everything tastes like crap.  I hope it will pass soon.  My husband and I argued, it feels like it’s been a year.  I think we’re past that.  We understand each other a little better.  I can’t believe I have eight more weeks of this.  I don’t know if I can keep this up. I’m going to up my Stim X to two pills.  I didn’t take it over the weekend.  Maybe that’s why the energy is so down.  But on a very positive note, my mom is coming out from Denver for my show.  I think that’s the only reason I’m still eating.  It’s probably not so bad.  It is a no carb day.  On no carb days I would rather not eat at all.  I hate eating a little bit and then still being hungry.