taylorha’s BodyBlog

Hey all,

It has been a really long time since I have written anything.  I had a huge family tragedy in February.  My brother was killed in a car accident on February 28.  That was the worst day of my life.  Needless to say I have not been the same since.  I took a bit off from the gym to take care of myself and my parents.  I tried to get back into it in  March but i just couldn’t concentrate!!!  It really sucked. I thought that the gym would be the one place that I could get away from it all and focus all my anger and emotions on lifting but it turned out to be a place where I would get into my head and start thinking too much!!! 

Things are going a little better now. I have been going at least 4 days a week for the past three weeks and I feel great!!!! The weight has continued to come off even though i was not working at it that hard!!  I am just hoping that this sadness will eventually either go away or get a lot less!!!

This whole thing has also made me look at my life in all aspects and made re-evaluate what is important to me!!!  I know there going to be some tough decisions ahead but i am prepared to do what ever it takes.  It has also made me realize that I have been focusing on everyone else but myself and that if I am not happy then… nothing else matters.  It has also made me realize that I can’t give up on my goals!!!!!

So…. I am going to work my butt off and get my self on stage in the next year.  There are no excuses this time!!!! I want to make my brother proud of me!!!!

Hey All,

I am back on nights again!!! I hate working nights but the one good thing about them is that i can get to the gym a lot more!!!  My workouts are going great.  I have been going up in most of my weights.  One big thing that i have done lately is decided to not "baby" my legs.  I have done that for so long and i finally decided that I need to just suck it up and go heavier!!!  Since i have gone heavier, i have noticed a large gain in my leg definition!!!!  I am also noticing a lot more definition in my whole body.  The only area that is still stubborn is my stomach.  I still have a little bit of a belly but i know that if i stick with my diet and exercise it will be gone!!!  I am really excited about starting a new program on Monday.  I will let you all know how it goes.  

One last thing that i wanted to say is that i am very proud of myself for sticking with it.  I usually start to slack off at this point, but i am determined not to do that this time!!!

Thanks for all the support!!!

Heather

Hey all,

Sorry that i haven’t written in a while but i have been extremely busy… but i am happy to report that the workouts and eating are going amazing!!! I am also happy that i am finally out of the the 170’s!!!!!  That was a huge goal for me and i finally reached it!!!!!  Reaching my first goal has made me want to work even harder to achieve the ultimate!! I have more drive than ever.   I am aslo loving the compliments that i am getting from everyone!!!

I am thinking about changing my routine up soon but not for another 2 weeks or so

I will keep you posted on how that goes!!!!

Later 

I am very proud of myself.  I had to work all weekend and with that comes a lot of temptation.. At my work, there is always junk food around.  We also cook big meals on the weekends.  I was able to control my cravings and stay away from the foods.They also made food espically for me so that I could join them. It was a great feeling to be able to control my cravings for the junk!!!!  I also took a few days off from the gym this weekend to let my body rest.  

I am very proud of myself for being aboe to stick to my diet since in the past this has been a huge problem in the past.  

I will keep you all posted on my prgoress after my workout tomorrow

Heather

Ok… so I am offically frustrated.  I have having a hard time dropping the weight.  I really don’t know what I am doing wrong.  My workouts are going great and i am seeing results but the scale is really not changing.  I know i shouldn’t be concerened with the scale but for some reason i am.

HELP!!!!!

Just got back from the gym.  It went really well today. Went up in most of my weights.  The only problem that I am having is with my elbow.  I have pain in my left elbow that limits me form doing certain exercises.. skull crushers for one and i love that exercise.  My weight is down another pound and i am happy with that.  I jut wish i could see the weight go down a little faster.  I am happy with where i am but at times it gets really frustrating.  But as they say….. "Slow and steady wins the race"  I am going to take it slow so that this time there is no failing at my goal.  I know for me that if I change too much too quick… i will not stick with it.  I know I need to increase my cardio but for right now i don’t want to push myself too much.  Going out for dinner tonight with friends and i am not going to cheat.  All good stuff for me!!!!!

Well I made it throught another set of night shifts and kept the eating really clean.  I find that these are the hardest sometimes cause at 3am… the last thing I want to eat is chicken, sweet potatos or salad.  I have found that if i keep my protein up during the night…. I am less likely to cheat.  I have also been really good with the training during these shifts.   I am seeing some gains…. they are small but they are motivating me.  If I can see them with only really sticking to clean eating for the last month… than I am totally pumped for what the next few months will bring.

   I am off to the gym after I get off this morning…  around 7am.  Should be interesting!!!!

I will keep you posted!!

Hello All,

I am currently sitting at work on the night shift… eating a spinach salad and drinking water.  I am finding the first little bit of my training and eating hard but i am slowly easing into it.  I am happy with my progress with the weights but sometime i wish that i could see the instant results, even thought i know i can’t.  I hope that this time i can acheive my goal!!!