taylorha’s BodyBlog

Hey all,

It has been a really long time since I have written anything.  I had a huge family tragedy in February.  My brother was killed in a car accident on February 28.  That was the worst day of my life.  Needless to say I have not been the same since.  I took a bit off from the gym to take care of myself and my parents.  I tried to get back into it in  March but i just couldn’t concentrate!!!  It really sucked. I thought that the gym would be the one place that I could get away from it all and focus all my anger and emotions on lifting but it turned out to be a place where I would get into my head and start thinking too much!!! 

Things are going a little better now. I have been going at least 4 days a week for the past three weeks and I feel great!!!! The weight has continued to come off even though i was not working at it that hard!!  I am just hoping that this sadness will eventually either go away or get a lot less!!!

This whole thing has also made me look at my life in all aspects and made re-evaluate what is important to me!!!  I know there going to be some tough decisions ahead but i am prepared to do what ever it takes.  It has also made me realize that I have been focusing on everyone else but myself and that if I am not happy then… nothing else matters.  It has also made me realize that I can’t give up on my goals!!!!!

So…. I am going to work my butt off and get my self on stage in the next year.  There are no excuses this time!!!! I want to make my brother proud of me!!!!