Mosaic’s Journal

Yum!!!  Thats the first thing I grabbing walking in the door from working out.  Great stuff!  I had to take a few days off from the gym, I suffered and still suffering a head cold.  4 days I was gone, my body weak and my nose sore, all I did was just rest with very little sleep.  Turns out I keep hubby up all night from the snoring (sweet).  Today it was all about legs, I worked them so hard when I was walking up the stairs they were shaking, it was awesome.  Walking down the steps after doing abs was a challenge, I had to grab onto the rail and take baby steps down.  Thats how I roll, I give 200% to my workout and nap all day

Waking up this morning I was ready to work out.  I left my home around 930 am, and hustle on over there.  I’m still getting use to the new gym and all of there equiment that I have never seen.  But the work out is good, but I have notice one thing.  I normally use a 20lb dumbell for curls, and my arms just could not do and had to drop to 15.  Same thing with the tri’s I had to drop down to a 10lb dumbell.  I think its lack of working out for a month and my body needs that shock factor again.  And thats what I did and will be doing this month.  Cardio is getting easier and I’m still not liking it, I have to work my way up to the endruance I had before.  Tomorrow is shoulders!

I don’t have the motovation anymore, I just make myself go.  I have done this for 2 years and now I just don’t have it in me.  Just the mere fact that I’m paying for is the only reason why I’m still going.

After taking a month off from the move I will be changing things up.  I have always added weights during my lifting session, now I won’t and let it be consistant.  I’ll give this a try for a month since I do change my work outs every 4-6 weeks.  I am still getting use to my new gym, I think the regs there are still trying to feel me out.  I always have this pissed off look on my face when I do work out.  But I’m not pissed off just concentrating, I don’t like to talk I just want to get in and do my time and leave.  I’m still on the big boy side of the gym, lots of "meat heads" and they are so yummy well some of them are.  I have been very stress to the point of having chest pains.  Lots of personal battles, and being called not so very nice things.  I know they say crying is a good stress relief, but dang I can only cry so much before its just dry tears. 

I started smoking again, after being dry since May.  Things are not good here in my personal life.  I threw away the lighters and will stop once more.  I just wish things would be easier for me, I’m tired on trying to please.

Sorry for the vent  I will post new pics of me in a few days, or atleast die trying

Its been a long time since my last post.  I have moved, changed my diet again, and another gym membership.  Now I live in Savannah Ga and I love it here, I became a vegitarian about 6 weeks ago.  The one time I ate meet I was bellied over in pain, never agian.  The gym is ok, I feel out of place being I’m the only black girl there in the morning.  I was just doing my thing and its full of big guys working out.  This is my 3rd time in this place and still trying to get the feel of it.  I think it was cause I’m new and wondering why I am not upstairs on the pansy machines.  :rolls eyes: