tannie64’s BodyBlog

I don’t know why but in the past few months I just can’t seem to find that happy spot I once had seems like why to much has went on. I am trying to eat better right now I am doing ok but I can’t say great. Guess I need to dig deep to find that smile and get going again.

Well since the last time I posted on here was back in July and since then I have gained 20 pounds don’t go to the gym anymore and now find I will be just another unemployed person in a few months because where I work is closing down. Wondering and hoping it will be a good thing in the end because maybe I will have time to take care of me for a bit while at home untill I find out what I am going to do. I do know I am not happy and have not been for sometime with the way things have been going just stopped caring about my weight it just seems like way to much work but maybe this will get a chance to change. I will just have to see where all this goes.

My vacation went very well I did eat things I wanted and gained some weight but I am back at it and watching what I am eating I am sure I will lose what I did gain. One great thing about my vacation is we got engaged but have not set any date. Now it’s time to get back to exercising and to keep working on not binge eating and so far I am doing good on that also. I really feel I have found a middle ground on this whole healthy life style at least what fit for me. I think it’s great to have a fine built body but you have to have the mind to go along with it and that’s where I need the most work right now. I do see myself with a finer body at some point but I what the mind and body to match.

I wanted to come and write a small update to anyone who cares. I am doing pretty good I have finely found my way to lose weight and help myself stick to it so far I am down to 121. First I went out and had my belly button pierced and it helped because I don’t want to gain weight and have a big belly plus I am eating things I want with out over doing. I hope to build muscle as I go after I lose the weight and once I lose the weight really put on the muscle. So far things are going good and I will be going on vacation feeling so much better about me.

Last night wrote about being tired and lazy well I was really tired because I slept through everything that happens in my home from my kid coming home to the BF leaving this morning to go to the gym. Now mind you I can’t remerber the last time I slept that sound I hear everything that goes on and wake up at least a dozen times at night. Now if I could only sleep like this all the time I think my energy level would go up. Mind you I did slepp like this at one time in my life every night but once I hit about 35 things started to change I watched my energy level go down. I hope someday this changes again. All I know is sleep is the most imporent part of who you are and what you can do throught out the day. Sleep does a body good.

I didn’t go to the gym tonight I was tired and just felt lazy These nexts 2 weeks will be hard for me since it’s 2 weeks before TOM visits and my lack of energy hits a low. The gym I know will be a hit and miss thing but I am trying to eat good so maybe things won’t be to bad. Guys have no idea how lucky they are not to have to deal with this.

Well I didn’t do so good food wise I bought to many goodies and of course had to try them all but what the heck it’s a new week and I will get back to work at the gym that is. Because even with all the food I ate I also did a lot of outside work but no not enough to make up for all I ate. Bt I also can’t wait till my P90x comes in I hope it doesn’t take to long. I am kind of excited about trying it. I am going to really try to eat clean this week so by the time my P90x comes in I will feel not so bloated and I would like to give this a good try. Well once it comes I want to really give the 90 days a great try but the only time I will slack off is when I go on my vacation. Anyway I will see once I get it and look things over.

I ordered P90X and can’t wait to try it out I am hoping it will give me some edge on the right ways of working out so I can see more muscle. I am seeing some progress but I am not always sure if I am doing the exercises right. This weekend I am enjoying the foods but not over doing it and I did get on the scale this morning and I am staying the same which I am happy about. At this stage I am just trying to see what is going to work for me and not be uptight with myself because I find when I make it a big deal and thing I have to do this or that I end up hating the whole thing because I feel limited. I just what this to be fun and the minute it becomes work I end up hating it. I guess it’s all for me a mind set and as long as I set my mind to this is something I enjoy doing to feel and look good I stick to it. So here’s to having fun. 

I didn’t lose anything and I know I wouldn’t but I can see things getting tighter and some shape. This morning I did JM 30 day shred video I wanted to do something this morning instead of just sitting here and tonight I hope to go to the gym after work. But I can’t wait till the end of the day so the weekend can begin.

Well this morning I took a few pics there was a bit of change but nothing big. It’s ok though because I am feeling thighter and will keep going. I am not doing as much cardio but trying to keep my heart rate where it needs to be to burn fat. I find that going to the gym 4 days a week is whats best for me I need my rest in between or I just get  way to tired out. As of now I am feeling good and hope to see some changes as the summer goes by.