tannie64’s BodyBlog

Well first off this week has been ok but not to good either. 1. I am pmsing and because of this I am always hungry and I am so tired sometimes being a woman sucks but anyway. 2. I got on the scale and looks like I have gained now that could be from bloating like a blow fish at this time. 3. I don’t think I am eating right most of the time and not because I have been eating bad but at this time of PMS I really feel it should be different but don’t have any idea on how. One good thing is I migh have gained weight this week but I can see my body looks toner so I think something working at some point. I will be glad when aunt flow shows up so I can get on with things.

That’s what I did this morning first had breakfast then went to the gym I love going but hate going because my BF comes with me and he just drives me crazy. I like to really workout and he does to just not on sunday he just goes with me to go with me so I feel I have to hurry. But I did get in a good workout anyway. Then off to the store and did pretty good there to. Got vegs and fruits and almost no junk foods. It was mostly for my son he doesn’t want to give up his stuff and that’s ok for me he will grow up and I think eat better. The one good things he doesn’t eat is meat of any kind and he is fussy so you can imagain his foods are limited. I am doing pretty good after my mess up yeasterday but I do find the weekends harder.

Today I slipped and ate a box of sugar fat free pudding with about a cup or so of peanutbutter chips not good I know but after that got back on the game and had a healthy salad for dinner. I will not slip tomorrow. I also went for a nice hour walk his morning then cleaned the car inside and out so at least I did get a bit of exercise. I know I will have my slips but if I can get back in the game without letting it go on and on I know I will do ok.

This morning when I got on the scale I didn’t think I would really lose anything but when I got on I have lost another 2 pounds I almost cried I was so happy. I don’t know why but this time I think is different because I want this so bad and really trying to work at it. I can’t understandy why I want this so bad it’s not like I care if my body is perfect or bodybuilding material I just want to feel like I look good in my cloths I want to feel good in my own skin I don’t know the reason I just know there is a different feeling inside me about this.

Today I woke up and had a headache and it didn’t go away till sometime around noon which in turn draged me down and was so tired all day. But sucked it up and went to the gym did 20 mins of cardio ( HITT ) and did back and shoulders.

I feel like I have been trying to get the last 10 pounds off forever now and I have come close at times but then something happens and back up I go. I can do so good for about 2 weeks then hormons take over and I am either hungry or I have no energy or it’s both. So how does a person over come this. When I was younger I wasn’t like this oh maybe once in a while but nothing much but as I get older it gets worse. I exercise and try to eat good but when this hits the sugar monster shows up and it’s like someone else takes over and my mind tells me have sugar it will help and I have tried eating fruit when this happens but it’s like I could eat 5 oranges to one cup of sugar coffee. So what’s better to do? Does anyone else out there have this problem? If so how and what do you do about it.

Ok it’s catching up with me I am hungry today since last week I wasn’t. Plus I am tired an craving sugar it sucks I had one of those gerenal international coffees with tons of sugar I was mad and dissappointed in myself. I went to the gym and did a leg workout but no cardio but my workout was good. I need to put my plan back in my head and keep say it so I don’t fall back in to the sweet sugar stuff I want so bad to do good.

It now almost time for bed and I did good this weekend since weekends are so hard for me I feel even though my eating wasn’t clean all the way I still did good because I didn’t binge the weekend away. Plus went to the YMCA today and since it was my first time there just tried things out so now I will be going every sunday there to so that will be added to my 3 days I go to the gym at work ( the gym at work isn’t open on weekends ) so I am glad I can have another place to go. Well now on to the week.

Ok this weekend so far is ok but since yesterday I am having a hard time getting in my calories because I am just to tired to eat. Now this doesn’t happen very offen, but my workout was intence and today I was up early to go to work for some OT and whenyou eat healthier like fruits and vegs it’s harder to get in all your calories. Plus with feeling tired I find it hard to tell if I am hungry or just tired. It;s now almost 9 pm and I feel hungry so I think I will try to find something to eat. Hopefully I will get to go to the gym tomorrow. 

I went to th gym and had a good workout had the amount of calories for the day. I am feeling really pretty good I think this time might be the charm. My hunny is also working out and eating better so it makes it easier to stick to this because I can’t let him get the better of me,,,,,,,LOL.