tannie64’s BodyBlog

My workout tonight was a good one now if only I could get my diet down things would move along but for some reason ever since the middle of Feb I just can’t stick to a clean eating routine I want something sweet all the time. Why can’t I get this together. Please someone halp  me any advice out there from anyone who has had his problem and found some help I would like to hear it. 

Guess I am one of those people that knows whats good for them but have a hard time sticking to it. Thing is I am not sure why. I start doing well then end up blowing it. I know many would say it’s because I don’t want it bad enough but that’s not it at all. I am not sure why I do this to myself is it that inner girl that maybe doesn’t think I can do it or is there something more? Of course many have there own ideas or thoughts to why this happens to us but I think some of us what it to much so we drive yourselfs nuts looking for the perfect body only to come up short no matter how good we do or look it’s still not enough because some where along the line we grew up all wrong in your minds. I know deep thoughts but I think women tended to think more about how we can take care of the people around us first and ourselfs last and then look and wonder why we are not happy. Plus there never seem like there is enough time in a day to do everything you need to get done. So by the end of the week you feel you fell short and your tired out. One thing I know about me is I never feel like I have enough enegy no matter what I do I can eat great and have the best week of exercise and yet I still don’t feel like I have the energy I should have. I do have depression and take meds for it but I forever feel like I am running on empty. I see people around me not do anything for them selfs as in eating right or exercise and have ten times the energy I have. I so many times wonder why is that? If anyone could tell me why that is I would love to here from you.

How does a person go from feeling great one week and feeling like shit the next. Last week was a good week and was happy with all my work just to have the weekend come and eat all types of junk so now I am starting all over again. But I am home sick today. I have to find a way to keep on my game during the weekends.

That’s me I am back up and going again. Yesterday was a sad day but once your down there is only one way to go and that is up so here I am today. I went back to the gym and I so much love it. Funny thing is I hate getting started but once I am done I am so gald that I went. My body feels so much better. I don’t even care anymore if I have the perfect body I know I will never have the bodybuilders body only because I don’t want to work quite that hard but I do what a fit tone body and that is what I am working for. I have now been taking Lipo 6 her’s for almost 2 weeks and I cn’t say for sure but I feel like it’s helping in some way. I don’t know how to explain it but I got on the scale and even though it read 127 I kept looking at myself thinking but it doesn’t look like I weight that much. It’s like there is fat gone. Now weather it’s the Lipo doing it or my work out I don’t know but today is only day 5 of going to the gym. At this point I don’t care I just want to feel good about how I look and feel which right now isn’t so bad. I guess the thing is I hve to remerber is no matter how many times I get knocked down I have to get back up and fight.

This morning I found my kitty braxton had been hit by a car and killed. I cried most of the day and no I didn’t eat so good. I didalmost nothing all day but sit around and feel bad. But I guess I get the day to feel bad I know some people don’t understand the hurt you can have when one of your animals dies. I know tomorrow I will get back to doing the right things but for today I just didn’t care.

Weekends are tough there is always something going on or nothing at all and with either one it makes it hard to stick to good eating. On saturday we hd my sons b-day party and we of course had cake and ice cream well in order to not go over board I got him a cupcake cake. So I only had one cupcake and a scoop of ice cream plus we had pizza and only had one slice of cheese so I was good on saturday but comes sunday. Well I can’t say I was really bad but not so great either. I am my BF had to go work on his montier at his house and by the time we got to eat it was late in the afternoon so we went to wendy’s. I had a cheese buger and some fries then had there famous frosty a small one well that was all well and good but then I got home and was tired and board so I had more ice cream tht was left over from the party and some chocolate. To say I was really bad I wouldn’t but it wasn’t all the best. Anyway I did take a sneak peek at my weight this morning and it looks like I lost 3 pounds but I will see for sure on friday.

Well I got throught my first week and I did pretty good I went to the gym 3 days and each time I felt great after. I still have not weighted myself and I won’t till the end of next week. As for the Lipo 6 I am taking to say I feel and difference taking it not really. But it’s ok for now because I want to take things slow this time and not make this the most imporent thing in my life because I tended to go over board and all I do is end up unhappy. So this time I am making it different so I will stick to this and have great results.

Well today my stuff I ordered came and tomorrow I will start using it. I am not looking to lose big just some help to lose some of this weight I know I need to. There are days it just seems so hard to stay on track no matter how good I eat so hoping this will help. Well I will have to wait and see and give an update in a few days.

It felt so good to be back at the gym I didn’t do much just 20 mins on this machine that kind of looks like a elliptical but is kind like a glider the name on it was Arc trainer. Then I played around with the weight machine just to get comfortable with it. This week I will do 3 days and maybe next to I am not sure. I want to take a bit of time to get back into the cardio since I haven’t been at the gym in over 2 months. Plus I want to get down a weight program I am going to like and stick with. I can’t believe how soft I am doesn’t take long for that to happen. But I am also hoping my body remerbers the muscle and it won’t take to long for it to go back to having some.

Well I just put in my order for Lipo 6 for women and chromiun picolinate I am tired of getting on th scale and seeing the numbers going up because I just want to eat all the time but I think it’s time for some help so come monday I am hoping to be back at the gym and once I get my order from BB I will do what I can to see myself get back to a good weight and eating right again. I guess I am a bit scared about trying this since I have never used a fat loss pill. Also I guess I am just not sure about this but I know I need to do something now so I am going to put what I know and have to work for me and see how I do.