tannie64’s BodyBlog

Why are the last 10 pounds so hard to lose. I have been fight them now for over a year I get into the teens and get so close then it’s right back up. I sometimes think having more weight to lose is better of course those of you out there that have more then that to lose might not see it that way. For me it was like I stayed with all the things I need to do during that time and my motation was high now it’s just hard for me to keep at it. I wonder why that is?

I have decieded this is it this is me since I like to enjoy food and I know now I will never be able to eat what is called a clean diet to have that non fat body I feel I am looking at who I am and no more trying to get that body I know I will not have because I can’t or will not stay with the clean diet you need to eat to have it. I do exercise plus lift weights so I am a fit person. Guess I am just tired of feeling bad about myself because I like my food to have flavor or knowing I love chocolate and have a tough time staying away from it. I am not giving up I will keep working out and eating as good as I can but no longer will I drive my self nuts and feel bad my body will not be a 8 or a 10 I will be a 5 or 6. You will never see me on any front pages or front web pages but not all of us can be. My hat goes off to those of you who can stick to what you do to have that great body it takes a lot of work. For me I just want to be happy and I am not happy right now always feeling guilty for liking my food. I think for me anyways it’s better to be happy then to always feel disappointed in myself because I don’t feel I keep up to what I see other be able to do. I hope this sounds right because I am not giving up just to gain weight just what to be happy with who I am and being ( my ) healthy.

Ok I maybe already know the answer or maybe I should but I need to ask. I know I have put on some muscle but still have fat to lose. I am wondering if I should stick to where I am as far as lifting goes and do more cardio? Or should I keep lifting heavier I really think I have a good amount of muscle but the fat is hiding it. Please I would love to hear what anyone has to say on this.

I am so mad and upset with myself that I find this hard to write. Yesterday I did so well but today it sucked I ate to many sweets ok I know it’s PMS time but so what other woman do this with out going nuts but not me. Then I get even more upset with myself because I am not a complainer but right now I want to cry because I want to do this but right now I want to whine and say how unfair it is. I am sick of the roller coaster I am always on but it seems I just don’t get off. You know the tough part I am not even over weight I just need to lose about 10 more pounds and I know body fat but it’s like I just can’t get there.

No one can tell me this is easy because everyday is a fight to stay in that healthy frame of mind. No amonut of info or ideas that are put out there can make it easier for me. To me it has to be something I want it has to be a frame of mind that I make it. To be honest not every minute of my day is in that right frame of mind I have to fight even after all this time I have to find a challeng to keep me staying with it. Anyone else out there have there own fight?