tannie64’s BodyBlog

I just suck at this I love the sweet stuff way to much. Guess the bottom line is I don’t want this as much as I what the junk food. I know come monday I will be back to working at trying to do all I can do to make it work.

Last night I had no time to do any exercise because I went to my son’s parent teacher conf. and by the time we got home and I didn’t eat supper till 8 I was beat. I did do good with my eating and today I do feel less bloated then I have been. I will be going to the gym tonight . I hope this weekend is a good one I really don’t want to over do with my eating so all ready I am telling myself that I must do good, I will do good. Oh and my son did great on his grades.

Well last night after work went to the gym and had a good workout I was happy with how and what I did but this morning I got on the scale and because I haven’t been tracking my food intake I have gained about 5 pounds back. So I guess it’s back to tracking my food intake. I have come to one decision once I get back down to 120 I am going to maintain that weight I need to stop dieting and learn to eat right. I have been eating low cal and low fat for long I think my body is messed up. I am going to stick to 1500 cals untill I hit 120 then slowly add a 400 cals over the course of a month and see how I do. I am not sure how this will work I am terrible at the food part of all this.

Yesterday I went to the gym as planed but didn’t really feel like it. I did chest and shoulders but got in only 10 mins of cardio. I had a headache which is still with me this morning. One thing I did that for me was not the thing to do was I had my protein drink just before going into the gym and that made me feel like I was slugging around. I think today I will get my drink in one hour before my workout. Hopfully that’s better.

Guess that’s how I feel I just feel like I don’t want to do this anymore. Ok I am in a slump all I do is eat and it’s all the bad stuff it’s like I can’t get enough. For 3 days I have done nothing but binge. Like last night sat down and ate a whole tub of frosting and I mean every bit all on my own. I know they say this type of eating is because I am trying to eat a feeling away and maybe I am I think I am trying to eat away the fact that I am not happy with how things are going with my workouts. I am also so sick of eating salad, chicken, vegs, it’s like I don’t want this or I don’t want that. I just can’t seem to know what I want. It’s not that I don’t enjoy working out for the most part but it’s like no matter how you change thing up it’s all dull. Does anyone out there ever feel this way or is it just me? I know I am on a pitty party wangon right now and I need to jump off so this morning I packed my lunch with good stuff plus my protein shake and I will be off to the gym after work tonight. I just hope I can push myself through this. Sometimes I think it’s harder when you have to do this alone.

But I am not doing as good as I could be and after taking pics last night that I deleted I don’t look much better then when I started this. Some things do look a little firmer but sadly I still have to much body fat for the muscle to really show. I just can’t seem to stay away from all the junk food I love so much I do great all week to blow it on the weekends. Plus my workouts have to me not been as good as I would like since the gym where I go is closed for a week and half and I don’t have alot of stuff at home to work with I just don’t feel the workouts are all that good. Once my gym is back open I am going to really give myself a workouts that will kick things up I hope. But with that said I am going to make a promise to myself and workout and eat right no pigging out this weekend or next.