Here’s to (JE)Mi!

For the record, I gave it everything I got today.  My school has me on an academic tredmill of tests, assignments, projects and research that has sufficiently nipped my ability to write at my leisure, sleep much, or peruse my favorite aisles in the book store.

But I’ve scheduled exercise in and every day, I find myself pushing as hard as I can.  I’m proud to be able to say that because with regards to my schedule, I see how easy it is for me to say "I don’t have time"

I just had to say that aloud.  Go me

…back to work

I’ve wanted to write this out loud for a while but avoided my own blog because I have issues with saying I have a real problem.

The whole fitness world is not new to me at this point.  I feel like I’ve been in the spot for a large majority of my young adult life.  I wouldn’t say its a lack of trying .. I do my workouts - I push through the pain I get sometimes (like today’s lower back issues.. wtf was THAT?)

I don’t know if its lack of motivation or that I see food the way one might see drugs but I am deeply unsatisfied with my lack of progress which is in direct relation with my nutrition.

So far, what I’ve realized is I have never really successfully lost weight with the protein/carbs diets.  Many-a-time I would strike out because I found myself insatiably hungry.  Low-carb dieting has brought me success in the past but its almost like I am incapable of doing that now because my stress level is so high every day
I thought if maybe I got a partner or something that might help.  I swear if I were hooked up to a machine that showed my stress levels, you’d see them flatline as soon as I had some sugar or bread.

I thought alot about this.  I don’t have a vice.. Exercise was it but with my nutrition out of wack, I don’t have the energy I need.  I hate that this post claws with desperation but its my honest to God predicament..if I don’t figure something out, I’ll never break out of this.

What really gets to me is the level of seriousness I would LIKE to be at with this whole thing and the "beginner like" issues I’m battling.

I’m not even going to go into the extent to which it affects my life.

All I know is I don’t want to see 2009 at the same weight and same level of disatisfaction.

Anyone have any real world advice as to how I can successfully get back into a serious nutrition makeover?