Here’s to (JE)Mi!

How do I put this delicately…

Hmm..

Well.  I’ve fulfilled my "I’m-going-to-give-dating-a-shot" quotient.  By One. 

I’ve never liked dating to get to know people.  I usually like to already LIKE hanging out with you TO hang out with you.  I don’t want to discover before a night of fabulous Sex and the City THE MOVIE time that you’ve … well .. got zero personality.  I feel like I had to work hard keeping the momentum going. 

Good thing I can easily speak to people.  I easily chatted it up with women surrounding us at the theatre.  OH what a delight.  See - I KNEW going by myself would have been just fine.  *sigh*

And so I am proud to say I avoided the dessert tray no matter how much it seemed to promise that it would make my night much better.  No I didn’t touch the sinfully good cheesecake.  No - I didn’t step foot at Cold Stones- whose ice cream, by the way, is LOVE is a waffle bowl.  LOVE I tell you.

You see - I’ve got a mission here.  I know I’m full of cheerful consistent personality.   I know I can beam a lovely smile.  Did I tell you how our waiter truly stopped and said "Excuse me miss.. youre eyes are so beautiful".. right before taking our order? 

He seemed like an awesome swap for my ‘date’ but .. nonetheless.

All this to say I am perfectly content on working on my goal..not dating.  I’m busy working on becoming a triple threat.

Oooh and last night I ordered my books for certification in personal training.  THEN I emailed manager dude for a new gym being built locally (I don’t think working out where I work will be much fun for me).  Are you excited for me?  I’m excited for me!

I never thought I’d blog about such details - but I had to let ‘em out. 

I’ve got a date in the AM with the treadmill.  And thats just fine with me.

*Does a pushup*  Mmmm… Manolo Blahniks….

What a title huh. 

Actually - what a feeling. 

I feel like a woman with iron resolve.. makes me feel like I’m building a brand new me from the inside out with every single choice I make in regards to what I eat, when I eat, how I push, how I work..

I have no idea what I will look like when I get there.. I hope I’m deeply thrilled.

I’ll be writing and posting something on http://www.InMyHeels.com later today about that kind of laser focus.  It isn’t about me of course but thats alright because I’ve learned alot and am moved to write.

You ought to read it.. you like how I write dontcha?

:-P

Thanks for reading.  Back to feeling sexy now. 

Am I developing a slight obsession?

*shrugs*  just came in from my second workout today and Christ was it intense.  It felt good - I love to see myself do things that I couldnt just a few short weeks ago.  I need to remember it won’t happen overnight..

But no one understands how badly I want this transformation.  In fact, my only downfall is Nutrition.. I just don’t understand my body.  I am eating less yet.  I crave carbs more than protein though I take in alot of protein anyway..

My evenings are the worst.  I don’t binge but I can’t rest til I have a granola bar or something.  (from Kashi)  That isn’t bad but I guess the PRINCIPLE is I say I will lay off carbs in the evening after my postworkout snack.  I want to know that I am disciplined..  I guess I’m not very.  But I’m getting there

I’m wiped out, writing this in bed but taking in everyone’s progress and picturing the future me.  I think I’ll cry when I see that difference happen for me.  No one in my family does this kinda thing - well.. dad does the tredmill.  But generally, I’m the newbie bringing it in.

I need to see myself make it.

I just walked in from the most intense, self initiated 20 minutes of excercise in my entire life. 

Seriously?  20 minutes?  That’s it?

Well thats what the Body for Life program says to spend on the Aerobic solution.. using HIIT of course.  And I killed it. 

I noticed the guy in the Cybex next to me - there before me - keep looking my way (I’m thinking at how I was plugging away with my Champ face on).  I left him 20 minutes later dripping with sweat.  I felt so powerful and literally - quite high.

If I had any doubts about this program, it was slapped out of me after my first cycle within the first 5 minutes.  The music just sounded better this morning, my curves just looked right.. I was good.  Mind you - I didn’t FEEL like really going at first.  Go figure.  Actually - COME figure!  COME HERE!

I have a Cardio Kickboxing class tonight.  …

Oh you thought I would really stop here? 

Look ok.  I’ve got a goal here.  For my peace of mind, I want to do more later. 

Stay tuned for the Body for Life play by play.  This is day 2.  Signing out

-JEMi

Has this ever happened to you?

You head to an exercise that is usually quite difficult for you and to your amazement - you can do it without shaking violently or cursing underneath your breath?

Thats me and those hanging leg lifts.  Not only could I do them now, I did them legs straight ahead.  There is this big mirror in front of the apparatus and I’ll be honest.  I flashed myself a "You’re so sexy" look in the mirror as I triumphantly finished my third set of 12.

I just had to share my shock here becuase little by little, I am becoming more capable.  I am feeling good and well damn..

I will transform this body of mine.

Watch out for me!

Am I vain for wanting to do this? 

After all, over at www.InMyHeels.com my main purpose is to motivate others and be selfless.

Well..

August I am headed to California for about a week and a half.. maybe two and I am going to have my very first photo shoot.  My goal is to take some really great pics of myself and my new bod.  I have a great friend there and she takes photos quite often.  She’s hooking me up with her photog. 

I think with hard work I can look .. amazing. 

*I’ve got chills just thinking about it*

Well.  Body for Life challenge starts today and I started it off over at www.MyFavoriteDietBlog.com

Thats right - I write all over the place.  lol

I’ve been impressed by it for years.. and it takes what.. 12 weeks of dedication?  Since I need the direct guidance.. well

I’m going for it.

 I just registered and will be keeping track on my blog www.MyFavoriteDietBlog.com as well as here.

Wish me luck guys!

I am not in love with concept of being in war with my body.. so lets say the scale.  Tomorrow marks the start of week 6 and the numbers are the same.

So much for the 12 week feature I wanted to do on www.InMyHeels.com

 Or maybe I’ll still do it but … it’ll have to be diff?  I don’t know.

My body FEELS better.  I feel like I’m looking much better naked.  (Well - a girls gotta look!)

But I want to drop the lbs and while I’m not eating junk, maybe my approach is all wrong?  Maybe I have to increase cals?  Decrease?

Hell.  If I just eat clean that should take the guess work out.  I thought thats what I was doing but I guess I really need to look hard.

I’m going to get that body I want if its the last thing I do.  My determination is fierce.  I KNOW I’ll love my new look.

I KNOW it will make such a difference in my life.  I’ll go into just how much my weight affects me later on.  FYI.. I come off as confident, warm, etc.  but it bothers me enough to make certain issues for me.

Anyway

This is the top of week 6.  Warmup is over.

Game time.

Count Calories.

No - DON’T!

Eat clean.

Lower Carbs higher fat.

Spike your carbs lower fat.

Eat clean low carb!

It doesn’t matter.

You should do it very slow.

Do I LOOK like I’m here to waste time?!

I’m here for results.. and I haven’t a clue which method to follow and stick to!

I suppose its time to experiment :-/

What are the odds?

The woman who taught the two person class (me and another woman because its a new gym and people don’t come to this class yet) HAPPENS to be the excercise physiologist at my school.

Not only can she train me for free, she’s also well versed in nutrition, she has an awesome personality ANNNNNND

Willing to train me to teach classes as WELL as become a personal trainer!  I wanted to do that since last year but intimidated as hell until I decided to push my self and my world.. this is a huge opportunity for dirt cheap!

Thank God for college.

I’m very big on self improvement (have you seen my site www.InMyHeels.com?) 

I’m naturally positive.. and it’s my dream to look the part.  So this summer, she’s taking me under her wing.

oh.

and I kicked ass during the hour class - my first cardio kickboxing class!

UGH I can’t believe I paid SO much money last year for the wrong matches in trainers when classes give me exactly what I want for free!

Anyway this is great.. tonight was awesome and I’m excited about my future