quote of the day
Go back a little to leap further.
John Clarke
I have decided to take a couple months off and NOT do a show in 2 months. Mentally I am not ready…I have been hardcore dieting for 8 months now….my brain is starting to turn on itself if you know what I mean. Like FEAR of hanging out with friends because I dont want to mess up, fear of going to events because I dont want to mess up..then when i tell myself go and dont mess up..i feel guilty! its a psychological game. If I had to cut myself off from the world for 12 weeks (contest prep) then i could handle it..but 8 MONTHS. You start alienating yourself ya know? I do plan to eat my healthy foods just bring it to maintenance so I am not hungry all the time..which OBIOUSLY will make me feel better AND give me more self control at events. My body isnt really doing what i want it to do…I am looking more "skinny" than toned and I am lifting HEAVY. I need to reasses and regain my brain..hahahaha taking 2 steps back to take 3 steps forward is the name of the game. It is hard to do when I have come so far…but it HAS to be done.
August 17, 2009 at 7:12 am
good luck girl…at least you are listening to your body. something alot of people dont know how to do…
August 17, 2009 at 11:59 am
Sounds like you’re making the right choice. Your health should always come 1st. Including the mental side. Just the idea of dieting for a competition is enough to freak me out!
P.S. Thanks for the quotes!
August 20, 2009 at 1:58 am
The only easy day was yesterday, it’s over , gone, now forget it. You have lived to fight another day and it’s coming. Remember…we are here for you should you fall. Best wishes, Mark