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Saturday, July 26th, 2008Day 4 of no carbs and feeling energetic, uplifted, and inspired. This time is different……I am changing…I WILL finally stay on this right path to healing and getting the body i deserve!
Archive for July, 2008
Day 13
Saturday, July 19th, 2008all i can say is TIRED!!!!! The leg workout from 2 days ago is really kickin my ass today! I was sleepy tired all day yesterday and i couldnt figure out why…..i guess it was my body saying my workout kicked my ass before the pain even showed up…how weird…….i guess the body knows more than the brain does lol
Day 11
Thursday, July 17th, 2008Today i had a killer workout! Probably because I have been eating a decent amount of calories and not overworking myself. It felt soooo good…from all the overtraining and undereating..i had forgotten why I loved working out sooo much. Its amazing how no matter how far you have fallen from where you once were…you seem to find your way back like you never left…hahaha if you know what im talking about anyway. off to school!
day 10
Thursday, July 17th, 2008(yesterday.) ran 20 minutes and felt pretty damn tired afterwards…probably cuz i took a week off?
calories ended at 1950 at 40/20/20
Day 9
Tuesday, July 15th, 2008closed out at 40/40/20 @ 2k…..did upper body training.
Today was a good day……i am not hungry for once and feel good especially b ecause I am back in the gym…i really love the gym………before i started starving…….life is good…for the moment =-)
day 8
Monday, July 14th, 2008So i nixed the anabolic diet because i figured I am trying to have balance…i might as well eat a balanced diet…duh so today started as no carb but mid day turned into just healthy
counts 97f 151c 27 fiber 143 p
jog/walk 20 min
Day 7
Monday, July 14th, 2008Today I am starting the Anabolic diet..i have had much success with it in the past….but I used to fall off when sugar was introduced on carb days. I have been clean from sugar and alcohol for a week in preparation so i am not really craving those things………..i cant have them because they really throw me off the edge…. sooo for 2 weeks NO CARBS at all to get me into mode and then when i do carb load weekends only non sugar carbs…even white bread I can handle..but plain sugar like ice cream is a major no no for me for sure. Crossing my fingers……….so imma stick to around 2k cals of fats and protein. wish me luck.
thanks !
Day 6 in recovery
Sunday, July 13th, 2008So check it out everyone. I am going to put myself out there for some advice. I have been a member here for a while and alot of you already know me. I havent been active lately because I gave up. My weight has always been a battle….i used to eat 1500 cals a day and work out 2 to 3 hours a day mostly cardio…then after losing weight and gaining it back the minute I ate i started lifting weights and doing less cardio. Over the years I have transformed into doing mostly weights and moderate cardio. Which has helped me alot physically. But the thing is….about 8 months ago I got a job at a hospital which is very laborous. I do stock about 6 hours a day and run the floors of the hospital about 5-8 miles a day. Then I would go str8 to the gym and lift and then run 5 miles. I did start eating a little more..1800 cals. But even at 1800 i would get sooo hungry that I had no energy to play with my son or even take a shower. Needless to say…about January i started to get so hungry i would binge and then throw up..binge throw up…over and over and it is a progressive disease. Now heres the kicker….to me eating 3000 calories is a binge which is why i would throw up……..im sure i have binged on more than 3k at times….but just the thought of eating 1 extra piece of bread made me feel like my whole day was ruined so i would throw up. At this moment I am trying desperatley to recover. I am going to therapy and have taken a whole week off from the gym. I think the years of hard working out and not eating enogh cals for my workouts has taken its toll. I havent had a period in 8 months now. The horrible thing is ive gained 10 pounds because I havent let myself throw up…at the same time I havent binged like i would if i was going to throw up….anyway……
I am asking you all to let me know what you think………..I want to tell myself if i am hungry i can eat but its so hard to break that mental block because the minute i eat more than 1700 or 1800 i blow up…..at the same time i know its because my body was starved……although society tells me eating more than 1500 cals a day is eating too much……
so weights 3 x a week….running 3 x a week 30 minutes and hard labor job 5 days a week (walking 5-8 miles a day + lifting over 30 pound boxes) for 6 hours……cals? anyone…..it seems the 100 pound girls eat 2500 and the heavier people eat 1500…im so confused.
its been a week since ive thrown up…..im trying to eat and not think about it but its hard.
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