suppwrs2005’s BodyBlog

So i was playin football with my brother and a few friends saturday and hurt my knee.  I went to the er and they said it was fine, but to talk with my regular doc.  I went to see him yesterday and he sent to me to get an MRI, found out that i have a torn ACL.  I am with 1 week of workin out straight for 1 year and this happens.  Anyways, i just needed to vent and maybe hear some support.  Thanks

SO i was watching a few videos gettin motivated and realized that everyone goes through this.  And by "this" i mean the feeling of no progress, the feeling that i will never reach my goals.  I know that i will and i know that i have made major progres, but it is just nice to know that even the best, have struggled at one point or another in one stage or another.  I mean, i dont want to sound like it is good to have to struggle, but it is good to know that what i am working for is something only the elite of mind can get.  An that makes all this worth it.

All day i have been beatin myself up over  the dream, but i got some great words of wisdom from people i have never met, and i realized that i should be proud of my progress.  The people on this site have helped me through a lot, and in a matter of minutes, after beatin myself all day, i went from depressed to feelin amazin.  I cant express myself any better than simply sayin, Thank you.  I know it doesnt seem like much, but i believe it means most just by sayin thank you.  I am astounded everyday by the worlds wonders.  The people on this site have been amazin and i can only hope one day i can return the favor.

Ok so, i seem to look better and people say i am lookin a lot better, so why am i still depressed and imbarrased to take my shirt off.  Literally, i had a dream last night that i was walkin a beach with my shirt off and people were laughin at me, i cant stand it, and if i work any harder i will only be hurting myself.  Does anyone one know what i am talking about, maybe a Psycologist?

Does anyone have any sched that can help me with my 2 mile run, i currently run it in about 15 minutes, but i need to get it down to at least 13:40.  Any and all advice appreciated.

I have started an Animal Stak, the cuts.  And i must say that i love it.  It is cheap and conviently packed.  I feel swoll every day after a workout all day.  It is amazing i recomend it to any one look for a nice lil something extra.

I have started the p90x workout plan, plus i am liftin at night.  Lets see how far this takes me.

Ok, i am back from R&R and i had the best time with my family.  Yes i did fall off the wagon just a little, because family wants bbqs and going out to eat and i didnt have it in me to say no.  But i am back in IRAQ more determined than ever.  I lost 5 pounds will home, but i am almost certain it was water weight because i wasnt drinking as much of it.  I have big plans and goals and will continue to strive for them.  I have discussed surgery with my wife about my man, well about my body.  And we have decided that i will shredd as much fat as possible and if they are still there at the end, I will have the surgery.  Anyways, wish me luck and thanks for reading.

So i missed my goal.  I go on leave Monday and i am only at 226, so it is only by 6 lbs.  I think i have been gaining a lot of muscle to make up for the fat i have lost so i am not disappointed.  I know my family will notice my effort.  I put up the pics a little early this month because when i go on leave all i will be thinking about is my son and wife and family.  I will however try and get into to gym, But i am going to use the next 3 weeks as a full recovery time period because when i get back from leave, I am hitting the gym so hard that my body will have no choice but the look good.  Thanks to everyone’s advice and support i have made it this far.  I have set new goals and i will reach for them every day.

So i hit three months on  the 18th.  I posted the pics.  I feel the best i have felt in a long time.  I look the best i have looked in a long time.  The pic doesnt even touch how much i see myself changing and feeling.  I now know what it means to strive for something each and every day, and continue to do so without any doubts that what i am doing is affecting me as a person.  I have become more confident and have pride in what i do.  I just wanted to let everyone know that i am proud of myself, and will continue to push myself to new extremes each and everyday.