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The past couple of days have not been good. I don’t like writing a negative blog but f*cking a, if I don’t type this stuff out ill be uh stuffing it all in. In the past couple months like I’ve been ranting about I keep cycling in depression, I felt like I’ve been taking steps to avoid falling down the same path again and again, (not eating shite food, keeping up the workouts, changing it up biking!) but I still keep falling on my ****ing face. Today I freaking cried at my desk for no reason, several times. Yeah I poured myself into work and did well but all I could think about when work was over was getting home and being alone. I’m really ready for this crap to be over. Not to mention a certain female thing that has been gone for almost the past eight! months has decided to make its presence known today. So now this is ‘confirming’ my thoughts that I’m huge/fat/etc….okay so what else is next? Where is the end to this crap?
