superstar34’s BodyBlog

uh yeah I don’t know where that came from, it’s late….and I’m still all hyper from my workout earlier. Man I killed it!! I did my cardio this morning, very happy to get back into that, and I feel like finally I’ve lost most of the water weight that I had gained in the past 6 weeks…..I’m getting that "hard" feeling again and its freaking awesome…..but THIS time around, especially today I noticed when I was working out that I’ve definitely been working really hard the past two weeks on the heavy weights and it’s really showing! All the stuff that I have learned from my kick ass, and not to mention very knowledgable coaches Josh and Trish, hehe =0) I’ve been applying to my workouts….not to mention I’m getting to know my body even better and figure out what I need to do with my diet/workouts etc…..I’ve made some changes here and there and figure Ill always do that which is good!

Anywho is any of this making sense or am I just tired? ha….so I did chest and tris….and really pushed myself on dumbell bench, inclines, dumbell flyes, pushups, tricep kickbacks, skullcrushers, tricep cable pushdowns….all that stuff, i even went to failure on my last exercise which i NEVER do …..so yeah it was awesome…..oh and just to test it out, I’ve started taking a tsp of glutamine right after my workout with my last meal of the day, i just spoon it up on my fork and eat it rite there, eff putting it in water…..i figure it gets where it needs to go faster that way =0P

 Soooo tomorrow is a new day!

Freakin a the weekend is already almost over…..where the hell did it go??

Nevertheless, I worked out earlier today and did legs…..it was a greaaat workout….I took off from cardio and it ended up being the perfect day to give my legs a rest for later on, although I always feel lazy when I don’t do cardio, anywho I was going to work out AGAIN later on tonight but decided to give it a rest! I’m bad about not doing that, but the worst thing I can do is overtrain and/or end up injuring myself….yeah, that would blow….

I’m kind of having a rough time tonite, personally I have some stuff going on thats stressing me and so of course what do I do? Think about food to make myself feel better…..ehhhhhh……so I’m fighting it and am going to go do something fun RIGHT NOW, that does NOT involve eating! whew…..this blog thing is turning out to be a sweet deal……=0) T

Tomorrow’s a new day!

Yeah so what do I do on the weekends when I’m off of work? Work out more! ha….anywho, today I did cardio this morning then after a couple of meals I went and did a good solid shoulder, bicep workout, then ate some more meals, took a nap, jacked around, then went back for workout #3, Back again!

So a lot of times I walk into the gym not knowing what I’m going to work out yet, I just go by what I feel, yeah I’m weird like that but I’ve gotten really good at "listening to my body"…..afterall thats what bodybuilding is supposed to be about right? Mastering your body? So ANYWHO, I think I might be sore all over again, ha….cause I did a few different back workouts than I did Thursday to change it up a little but I then did some more cleans and deadlifts. This time I remembered my damn straps so I didnt have to rely on the good ‘ole hook grip this time. Sooo I was able to go up in weight on the deadlifts, therefore I’m probably going to be sore again, but what the heck am I complaining about, I love being sore. =0) So tomorrow even though I hate it, I’m taking the morning off from cardio since I’ve done it the past six days in a row….and my calves are freakin sore from all that jumping……

So I’m really feeling better about my image of my body, I really feel like I’m getting used to loving the skin I’m in again just how I am. It’s all about accepting that being a bodybuilder is all about cycles and that in order to always improve, I have to realize I’m just going to be "bigger" sometimes.

And I just wanna say to anyone who might read this stuff and gives me positive feedback, its so freaking awesome to hear and it gives me even more motivation to keep kicking my butt. Okay time for bed!!

okay So my back workout the other day where I basically did a weighlifting workout (cleans, deadlifts, etc) kicked my @ss and it was awesome…I’m still sore as hell and will definitely continue with that workout and of course as always figure out new ways to change it up/perfect it…….

Already did my cardio this morning now I’m about to head to the gym for workout #2! If I’m feeling good Ill go workout again later on tonite =0) Not sure what I’m going to work out…Ill figure it out when I get there…..feeling pretty good about my progress pics I posted earlier, already starting to see changes five days later, but I need to keep the focus that its not all about looking ripped yet, right now my focus is building good, solid muscle mass!!! okay lets go do this…..

So my mother, yes my mother emailed me this link, cause she knew I’d be into it since I used to be an Olympic Weightlifter back in college….soooo I used it for my back workout tonite and it was sooo awesome, it was like old weightlifting days working out, this past time around my coach had me doing deadlifts and I realize now that was a big part of my back getting ripped this past time around…so I will definitely be repeating this workout regularly before the next show! Here it is:

http://www.dragondoor.com/articler/mode3/256/

So I did all that but did Four sets of everything cause I’m nuts like that and even incorporated power jerks with the power cleans to get a little extra shoulder workout and then did lat pull downs after my pullups…..oh yeah I’m sooo going to be sore as hell tomorrow but I love it…so its all good……I absolutely love doing cleans because so many muscle groups are incorporated and have to work together to get the technique down just how the author explains…..now its time to rest!

Tomorrow’s another day and I’m posting new pics on Sat! yaya

Okay well it’s almost Thursday! This morning I did my cardio and felt really good afterwards….Day 3 of the low carbs, so tomorrow will be carb load day…an extra 1/2 cup to add to my oatmeal meals…woohoo…..I will totally be making some protein pancakes in the morning with that extra oatmeal!

Anywho I took the evening off tonite, (grrr) not only cause I’ve lifted everyday since Saturday but because I feel like a huge bruise from getting back into it! woohoo =0) Yeah I’m a total masochist like that….I can already feel myself slimming down, my clothes are feeling more lose…..I’m not going to post my weight till Friday but I definitely have lost a few lbs in the past couple of days, some of was water weight for sure…..but anyway besides that, I just feel so much better! Not that crappy feeling that I felt in the past 6 weeks when I would just keep grazing on food all day stuffing myself but never feeling satisfied….its really important that i do NOT forget that CRAPPY feeling that I get when eating , well, crap!

Tomorrow’s a new day! And will be ‘Back’ Day! woohoo

So I’m still hangin in there….day two!! haha…….anywho today I wasn’t cranky from the no carbs like I was yesterday which is awesome so I didn’t have to make my co-workers avoid me all day…

I worked out shoulders and bis today and kept it positive….although it is hard to be at the gym and see how different I look from the last times I was in the gym 6 weeks ago ripped as all hell, but I just need to be patient and realize that now while I have added "mass" this is the perfect time to go heavy, so THAT I have been doing!

Started up my cardio this morning again as well….I’m going to be doing cardio every morning 6 days a week for 45 mins at home before meal #1….good times…..

So I’m starting a new bs profile. I said on my profile that I got started bodybuilding this month. Well yeah thats a lie but basically I’m starting all over again. I participated in my first bodybuilding competition about 6 weeks ago and let’s just say it feels like since then I’ve been through hell and back several times over. I could never fathom the thoughts and feelings, cravings for shitty food, etc that I would go through up until now.

I’ve always learned things the hard way, and this time was no exception. I took a friend’s advice starting November of this past year to start training for a figure competition and I let him start emailing me my work outs and diet plan. I followed it religiously and with his guidance pushed myself farther than I could have ever imagined. I excelled in every exercise, got stronger every week constantly achieving PR’s (personal records) starting out in my "mass building phase." Then in the end of January I started my "cutting phase" which consisted of changing up my diet a little by carb cycling. I was still eating an insane amount though, getting a little over 350 grams of protein a day, eating 7 meals, every two hours and starving still in between, ha! Well the fat just started melting off and within a couple of months every week I saw changes that just fueled me even more.

With guidance with another friend who I have so much respect and awe for that I met during this time in my local gym, I was ahead of schedule with my bodyfat for sure below 10%! I was effing ripped, six pack and all! Then came my show and with the help of my friend and coach, thank the Lord!! for her help or I would have been a mess!! I had a freaking blast and placed 2nd in my class! It was an amazing experience and I got a nice, huge paperweight to take home as a souvenir, ha! =0)

 Then came the hell….

That night after my win, I started the eating of "real food"….at first it was hard to eat anything but the next day it was on…..for the next couple days I ate like I haven’t eaten in years….everything was just sooo fabulous…..I’m not going to go all into detail on it but basically I just couldn’t stop eating….in the past 6 weeks I’ve been able to get back twice to my ideal "off season" weight of about 115lbs but then a week later I’d "lose it" and just binge to all hell and balloon up….the past two weeks I just haven’t stopped eating…..I went from a couple days pre contest weight of 108 and tonight I weigh 128. Given some of it is water weight, I still feel like hurling when I look at myself in the mirror.

Also during this time about 3 weeks ago, my boyfriend broke up with me and it really hit me a lot harder than I could ever had imagined. I had never really "let go" with someone and this time I did and it just didn’t work out…..He had been going through the same thing I had going through his first competition ever 2 weeks prior and adjusting to life back in the states, etc….basically a lot of huge life changes and he was unsure of where his life was headed…..so what can you do? Also, I don’t make a lot of moolah so going through the whole competition deal hit my finances hard and I’ve still been trying to keep up….so basically it feels like my life has fallen apart everywhere…..in the past month I’ve found it hard to be motivated by anything, not even wanting to get up in the morning….I deleted my online accounts, stopped answering phone calls, deleted my first bodyspace, and just basically shut my self off from the world not giving a shite about anything…..

This past weekend I finally said enough is enough!!! I knew that I had to do something about this or I was just going to get worse! I had accomplished so much and had kicked my butt for nothing??!! Helllll no!! So I basically was tired of being a freaking pansy and decided to get my rear BACK in the gym and do what I’m good at and what I love! Besides, if I want to be a personal trainer, how the hell can I expect to take care of other people when I can’t even take care of myself??

So yesterday I head into the gym for to workout for the first time in over two weeks (mehhhh) and if it wasn’t a sign from God I don’t know what the heck it was, my coach was chillin right up front just inside the doorway. She took one look at me after another friend asked how I was and was like, We need to have a talk dont we?

So after a good talk I realized a very important thing about myself. I’ve always been a natural at stuff. I’m only 26 but I’ve already learned, picked up, mastered, etc, so many things whether its education, jobs, or sports. The problem with that is that I get bored and I quit and move on to something else, I’ve never stuck with anything and pushed myself. Maybe I’m also afraid of failure too. And I realized, I was doing it again! Talking with her made me realize, I should be proud of myself with the discipline of half a year of watching everything I ate, and never missing a workout, and doing kick butt in my first competition. I made a decision yesterday that i REFUSE to QUIT!!!!

This is what I’m passionate about, working out, eating healthy, pushing myself, constantly improving, and helping others. It feels freaking great to have men and women (haha esp dudes asking u for workout/diet advice) ask for help, and I love telling them everything I’ve learned and want to make a career out of it.

So tonight, I’ve entered my stats (gasp) and will post progress pics tomorrow….yikes, I’m really dreading that but I need to, to keep myself accountable. My next show will be in eleven weeks!! I’ve started my cutting cycle today and boyyyyy was I cranky. Going from basically carb loading everyday for the past 3 weeks to basically nothing for the next 3 days, holy hell. ha. I actually had the shakes half the day. My body was like what the eff….So anywho, tonight I did legs and I’m hitting the weights hard for the next three weeks as per my awesome, kick butt coach =0) I’m going to be soooo sore tomorrow. Now I’m actually looking forward to waking up in the morning, tomorrow is a new day…

 IM BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

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