Sabotage mode
Why you ask, am I in sabotage mode? F-ck if I know. I am making NO progress right now, in fact, I’m sure I’m gaining. FAT. Eating crap, can’t get it under control. AND- not going to the gym. I can tell you one reason why right now. I’m on some medications for anxiety and depression and my shrink was playing GOD with them a few weeks ago and wouldnt’ give me refills, so I went without for 4 days….SO stability went right out the door and I’m climbing the walls with anxiety and completely depressed and hopeless. I want to give up and just live life fat. OK_ that’s a lie. I don’t want to be fat. I just am right now and am not - or have not- taken ANY steps in the right direction for two whole weeks. I ate a half a bag of baked pita chips and 2tbs of cream cheese. GROSS> I’m really bing-y right now and I feel like everything is out of control. What a whiner I must sound like, but if I can’t say it here- where can I say it. I am venting….deal with it or leave.
February 11, 2009 at 2:27 pm
Don’t give up! You realize everything your doing is bad for your progress, so just stop doing it! Sometimes we need to take a step back before we can make a giant leap forward. You could and will do it.
February 13, 2009 at 12:06 pm
I feel like I can totally relate. I had a really hard time after my last baby and through the winter with really bad anxiety and depression and I didn’t want to go on medication because I know things can get a lot worse before they get better- assuming that they get better. It really doesn’t mean it has to sabotage your goals though. Just DO the workouts, no matter what- no excuses, no matter what time it is or how you feel or what. And as far as the eating goes, eat what you know you have to and pick one thing that you will do instead of eat everytime you feel like eating to distract you… like, I don’t know, drink tea or something. You know what you gotta do, and you KNOW it will make you feel nothing but better if you do it. Good luck! Don’t let your hormones/mind/everything that conspires against us get the best of you because you have been doing AWESOME!