sugarbritches’s BodyBlog

Why you ask, am I in sabotage mode? F-ck if I know. I am making NO progress right now, in fact, I’m sure I’m gaining. FAT. Eating crap, can’t get it under control. AND- not going to the gym. I can tell you one reason why right now. I’m on some medications for anxiety and depression and my shrink was playing GOD with them a few weeks ago and wouldnt’ give me refills, so I went without for 4 days….SO stability went right out the door and I’m climbing the walls with anxiety and completely depressed and hopeless. I want to give up and just live life fat. OK_ that’s a lie. I don’t want to be fat. I just am right now and am not - or have not- taken ANY steps in the right direction for two whole weeks. I ate a half a bag of baked pita chips and 2tbs of cream cheese. GROSS> I’m really bing-y right now and I feel like everything is out of control. What a whiner I must sound like, but if I can’t say it here- where can I say it. I am venting….deal with it or leave.