sugarbritches’s BodyBlog

Why you ask, am I in sabotage mode? F-ck if I know. I am making NO progress right now, in fact, I’m sure I’m gaining. FAT. Eating crap, can’t get it under control. AND- not going to the gym. I can tell you one reason why right now. I’m on some medications for anxiety and depression and my shrink was playing GOD with them a few weeks ago and wouldnt’ give me refills, so I went without for 4 days….SO stability went right out the door and I’m climbing the walls with anxiety and completely depressed and hopeless. I want to give up and just live life fat. OK_ that’s a lie. I don’t want to be fat. I just am right now and am not - or have not- taken ANY steps in the right direction for two whole weeks. I ate a half a bag of baked pita chips and 2tbs of cream cheese. GROSS> I’m really bing-y right now and I feel like everything is out of control. What a whiner I must sound like, but if I can’t say it here- where can I say it. I am venting….deal with it or leave.

Well, I took progess pics after a good week last week and I’m disappointed with how they look. LOL. I FEEL like I look better, but sadly….I don’t. BAH. Oh well, next week maybe will be better. NO- NEXT WEEK WILL BE BETTER. I’m going to rip it up this week and do waaaay better than last week. Eats have been spot-on, but gym could be going better….

OMG you guys. I can’t freakin stand it. I’m going to explode with boredom. WHICH means, I’m sitting here at work thinkin about food which is always a bad thing. That means I’ve gotta force down some tuna so my tummy doesn’t have a reason to tell my brain it’s hungry. lol. bah. At least it’s humpday and the weekend is near. I’m planning my wedding right now and so freaking stressed out about it. I can’t wait till its over. I mean- I’m excited, just the stress is killing my and my energy right about now. I’m still sore from my leg workout 3days ago. Jason is killing me in the gym and I’m loving every damn minute of it. BUT I have had to learn to pee standing up

OMG you guys. I can’t freakin stand it. I’m going to explode with boredom. WHICH means, I’m sitting here at work thinkin about food which is always a bad thing. That means I’ve gotta force down some tuna so my tummy doesn’t have a reason to tell my brain it’s hungry. lol. bah. At least it’s humpday and the weekend is near. I’m planning my wedding right now and so freaking stressed out about it. I can’t wait till its over. I mean- I’m excited, just the stress is killing my and my energy right about now. I’m still sore from my leg workout 3days ago. Jason is killing me in the gym and I’m loving every damn minute of it. BUT I have had to learn to pee standing up

Ok- so today, I am feeling much better. I’ve got 2 clean meals under my belt which isn’t life changeing for sure- but it’s a start and that’s all I need. I’m getting ready to eat some tuna and almonds for M3 and head home to check on my new puppies (2 new blue pitbulls ) sosososo cute. I can’t wait till they are big enough to run with me in the a.m. I’m trying to not get ahead of myself in thinking about food and working out and such. I have a tendency - like many of you out there, I’m sure - to need instant gratification and when I dont’ get it, I give up or sabotage my efforts by eating shit that I know shouldnt be any where near my mouth Boo. Here’s hoping to get through one whole day of eating clean and hit the gym hard tonight for legsssss. I wanna be in pain tomorrow.

Ok- so it sucks that my first post is gonna be bitchin, but I’m in a mood and this day is getting worse by the second. I can’t get a handle on my freakin eats and I’ve been slacking from the gym in a big way for like uh….8 months(!) pffft. don’t tell J. I’m getting married really soon and I’m not getting much done for the wedding. All I need to do is get 4 days under my belt….that’ll get my motivation peaked….4 days. Can I do it? Yep…I can. 4 days starting NOW. Right now, not tomorrow morning. See ya’ll later. Check back in on me in 4 days…watch me gooooooooooo! xoxoxo

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