Just as I was really getting into the whole lifting weights thing over the summer I started experiencing really bad lower abdominal pains, something I have had since having my son in 2001 but it has been getting worse.  As I was doing a box jump one day I felt like my insides were about to fall out.  I went to the dr shortly after, ended up getting an ultrasound, sent to ob/gyn, everything came back normal, other than a small cyst on my ovary.  The dr couldnt explain why I was having so much pain daily, even with just daily activity, not even working out since I had scaled back my working out by this time.  He said he was going to try some pills to see if that helped for 2 months if not we would try a procedure to help with the pain. 

Nov/Dec comes around, Im still in pain, I researched the procedure he wanted to do, ablation, seemed like winner, I get that scheduled, still not working out, still cranky from not working out and boy does everyone feel it around me.   I undergo this surgery, very hopefully this will help and I will be back in the gym a few short weeks afterwords.  Feb 2nd I hit the gym, still in pain after my post op check and the dr gives me the ok.  He tells me everything looks great gives me the blessings to do whatever, but that Friday I am back in his office I cant take the pain and believe me I can deal with a great deal of pain, I have had 6 surgeries on my foot while in the Navy. 

While in his office he tells me the only other step is a hysterectomy at this point, we have done all the other course of treatments.  Even though I am young (I think he was being nice) he feels this is the best course of action now.  I cant go on living day to day with the pain or on pain pills.  My daily life is being affected, Im not the same person I was this time last year, the pain gets worse with each passing day, and MAN HOW I MISS THE GYM! I miss looking in the mirror flexing my muscles, seeing all those changes, now I just feel like a bag of ass constantly.  So he told me to think about the surgery, research it in great detail and get back with him.  I have found other women who have had symptoms like me who had it done and felt wonderful after, none have regretted it that I have found, and I am hoping that is what will happen for me.  My surgery is March 24th.  I will be down for 1 week, light work for a week, then getting back to my "normal self" after. 

I hope by the middle of April I will be updating my site with supersexy steph progress pics, hahahaha!

 Fast foward to this weekend.  After a GRUELING and I mean GRUELING workout on Saturday I was still feeling the effects of it Sunday so out comes the camera and I was happy with the results. As I as drying off from the shower I looked in the mirror and saw a cute lat muscle coming out on both sides  and I squealed in delight.  I called my husband in to show him my new found friend on my back and he took some pics.  I told my friend from work about this in our conversation today and she said "Hmmmm, I see"  Anyways, I love the fact that my muscles are really starting to come in.  Some days I see them more so than others.  I really love the fact that I look forward to working out on a daily basis.  And I love the fact that when I started this journey I was a size 12 pushing a 14.  This weekend I had to go shopping for a dress for my husbands command function on Wednesday night…..  When we were shopping the lady said well what size are you, I told her hmmmm I think a 8 maybe.  She said NO WAY you have to be a 4.  Well I told her there was no way I was a 4 probably a 6.  Well i tried on the 6 first because I thought i was right because I am ALWAYS right, well i was wrong that dress was tooo big, the 4 fit!  Me a 4! WTF?!?!?!  I have never ever ever been a 4, never.  Seriously I think the manufacuters are making the clothes different but whatever, I’ll take it!  Anyways…..enough blogging for one night, whew thats alot!

Now I need to set my sights towards another goal, I think this one is more muscle, tighter abs and lowering my body fat by July 4th… 

Monday Taylor and Zak have tball/soccer both have soccer at 6

Tuesday Tay-low has softball for 2hrs 630-8

Wedesday Zak has tball/soccer both have soccer at 6

Thursday Tay-low has softball for 2hr 630-8

Not to mention I have to get Zakman from Daycare, make sure homework is done and checked over, dinner, the house…  This week has been so trying on me.  I know the gym would help even if only for cardio for 30 min but man….. where will I fit in the time.  I thought if I did it right after work at 330 go right over to the gym its right on base but that would put me at the daycare at about 5 then I would really be pulling out my hair to get to the after school actitives on time and to make sure everything else was done. 

But yet I feel the need to take care of ME.  What about me.  Im am the 1st one to always worry about everyone elses needs, hence the running around making sure the kids are at practice on time.  Like tomorrow, both kids need to be at 2 seperate fields at the same time…… its been this way all soccer season but do you think it will be that way next Saturday when John is home…..HAHAHA NOOOOOO WAY!!!!  One game is at 935, the other at 330! figures!  deep sigh….  I guess I will continue to just run around like a chicken with my head cut off for another week, do my sit ups and squats and light stuff at home while my shows are on, continue to eat right then the week after when my relief gets here I will hit the gym. well this weekend I will for sure. 

 Dang with was supposed to be a small little rant. 

BUT MAN DO I FEEL GOOD!!!  Later tonight I will do my abs, some squats and possibly break out the 2lb weights, lmao!!!! 

This pic is me right after the gym….  yeah Im a dork but whatever…